So basically, this is my take on how the season 4 premiere should have been. Honestly, I had expected way better than what we got, so in this story, I'm going to go with what I wanted to happen. Will be FlashFrost centric.
(Just to make it clear, Caitlin Snow and Killer Frost are 2 different personalities, sharing the same body; they're basically voices in each other's heads, get what I mean?)
''You have a broken knee, 3 fractured ribs, a shattered femur and a slight concussion.'' Caitlin informs Wally, as she injects him with pain killers. Joe and Iris watch worriedly from outside the med bay, horrified by the extent of his injuries. The 'samurai' had really made sure that Team Flash and Wally in particular, had learnt what consequences come with messing with him.
''He'll have to remain in bed for at least 8 hours.'' Caitlin informs Iris and Joe, exiting the med bay and making her way over to her workplace, standing in front of her desk, beside Cisco. Everyone was now clearly worried as to what they were going to do now.
''We have only 5 hours, in which if we don't bring Barry back, Central City will be destroyed by a sword!'' Cisco says in frustration, seated at his computer, head rested in his hands, as he tries and fails to come up with a solution (other than bringing back Barry) to the problem at hand. His words are also somewhat directed at Iris, who surprisingly wasn't on board with the idea of bringing Barry back.
''And now we've lost Wally too.'' Caitlin adds, supporting Cisco's argument, and indirectly suggesting that they go ahead with Cisco's plan to free Barry.
''We'll come up with something...we always do.'' Iris says, looking at the members of Team Flash, trying to get some hope running in the air, because right now, hope was the last thing anyone seemed to have, as there was not a single solution to bringing down the samurai without bringing back Barry.
''We don't have time to come up with something!'' Cisco yells, getting up from his chair. ''You saw what samurai did to Wally, we saw what he did to us before as well, and we all know that he won't stop until we bring Barry back!''
''No, Cisco! We're not bringing Barry back, that's not an option!'' Iris yells back, irritated by Cisco's constant suggestions to bring back Barry.
''Why not? Why? Why don't you want us to bring back your fiance?'' Cisco asks, unable to understand the reason to Iris's reluctance.
''Because we have no idea how to! You've already tried, and it didn't work did it? Now, we can't waste our time trying to bring back someone who died months ago. Instead, we can work out a plan to stop this...samurai from destroying the city.'' Iris replies, sending pain and grief to everyone at the mention of Barry being dead, but clearly she wasn't that emotional about it, and she couldn't quite understand why everyone else was. She had dealt with it a long time ago, and had made peace with Barry dying (although it was the toughest thing she's ever had to do) and she thought it was time everyone else did too.
''How can you be so sure that he's dead? Jay was stuck in the speed-force, Wally was stuck in the speed-force too, and they both came out alive. What makes you think that Barry won't too? Besides, there is one more thing we can try to bring Barry home.'' Caitlin backs Cisco up again, unable to believe why Iris was being so arrogant about this.
''Again with the 'we'? Really? Who's 'we'? You weren't even there when Barry died, in fact, it's your fault that he did! You teamed up with Savitar! Heck, you were even going to let him kill me. If you would have tried to stop him instead of helping him, none of this would have ever happened, HR would still be alive and Barry would still be alive too.'' Iris spits out, shocking everyone who heard her, and Caitlin tries her best to hold back her tears, as the guilt she had spent 5 months trying to bury behind her finds it way back and begins to haunt her again. She knows that Iris isn't wrong, it is her fault, but instead it wasn't. She wasn't even in control, her inner anger and grief, which had taken the personality of Killer Frost, had taken over her and caused her to make reckless decisions. But if she was the one in control, she would have done it different. But Caitlin also knows that this is no excuse to avoid the blame, as she wasn't strong enough to fight against Killer Frost, she was weak, like always.
''You're right, it is my fault, all of it is.'' Caitlin says, the tears finally starting to flow. ''But also remember that I didn't want any of this to happen. I didn't ask to become Killer Frost, I didn't want these abilities, I didn't want to use them. And do you remember the last time I used them before I became full blown Killer Frost? I was trying to save your life, trying to stop my friend from being turned into nothing but ash, even though I knew the consequences of using my powers, even though I knew that he more I used them, the less control I would have over myself, but I couldn't just stand and watch you die. And then, I almost died because of Kadabra, because I went after him to stop him from getting away so that we could find a way to save you, and when Julian ripped off my power dampeners, Killer Frost broke free, and I tried...I tried to win control, but I couldn't, I was weak, I couldn't fight it. But then Cisco helped me, and I was able to get through, and stop Savitar from killing him, and I've been able to stay in control ever since, and even though I know that it wasn't me, I still have to live with all the guilt, I still have to accept the blame, because I was weak, because I couldn't fight it. Now, you don't have to go around reminding me of it, reminding me of what horrible choices I've had to make, because in the end, everything I did which led to me making those decisions was for you and Barry...''
Caitlin breaks down and starts sobbing uncontrollably, and she turns around and begins to storm out of the room, never wanting to come back ever again. She didn't belong here, not after all the trouble she caused her friends to go through, she was wrong thinking that they would find the heart to forgive her.
Cisco calls her name behind her, but his voice slowly fades away, as she keeps running towards the elevator, finding it hard to see as the dripping tears had blurred her vision. Getting into the elevator, she leans her head against the wall, and waited for the lift to take her to the parking lot. She had already gone through this, the crying and the never ending guilt, sometimes accompanied with suicidal thoughts too, for about 2 months. But this, this time, it was worse, as she heard her own friend say it out loud to her.
As the elevator reaches the ground floor, she rushes out of it, making her way to her car, but as she runs, all the emotion and thought causes Killer Frost to surface again, and this time, Caitlin doesn't try to fight it, she lets her dark self take control, as she couldn't spend another 2 months trying to get over the guilt. This is who she was, she was Killer Frost, always destined to be, and even though she could control her darkness and her abilities to some extent now, with the help of her now ex-boss Amunette, she wasn't going to try and suppress her this time, as she told herself that she no longer had to feel weak and pathetic anymore, instead, she could be a Goddess. She could be who Killer Frost wanted both of them to be, once and for all. After all, both Caitlin Snow and Killer Frost were the same person, like Savitar had always said, and Caitlin starts to accept this now, as she, for the first time, willingly lets the darkness out, transforming to Killer Frost, no longer fighting against her inner darkness that manifested as Killer Frost, but instead, she accepts the darkness as herself.
''So, I guess we're one now, right Frost?'' Caitlin says to the voice in her head, staring at her hands, from which cool mist was emitting.
''I guess we are, Snow.'' Killer Frost replies, and slowly, Caitlin feels herself being lifted off the floor, and then feels an immense surge of energy through her body, feeling her insides freeze from all the cold taking over her, and an ice ball develops around her, as she keeps feeling the energy grow stronger and stronger, and after a while, it stops, and the ice ball which was engulfing her breaks down, and Caitlin emerges from within it, now stronger than ever. She could no longer hear or feel Killer Frost or her presence in her head, she, after a year or so, finally felt like only one person, finally had one personality, the other voice had disappeared; ceased to exist when Caitlin accepted it as part of herself. She was finally Caitlin Snow again, just Caitlin Snow...but...very very changed. She was stronger, colder...and now, no one was ever going to hurt her again, no one would ever make her feel weak again.
She had the appearance of Caitlin, heart, mind and abilities of Killer Frost. She tells herself that she's done running from the guilt, she was done crying. This is her, Killer Frost was just an imagination, all this time, it had really only been Caitlin Snow, but with meta-human abilities.
''Time to have some fun...'' She says out loud to herself, grinning, as she hears footsteps behind her indicating that Cisco had followed her. She turns around to look at him, and before he can do anything, a large cloud of mist covers her, and Cisco watches as it slowly uncovers, shocked to see no one within it; Caitlin had just disappeared from plain sight!
(TO BE CONTINUED)...
What happened is that after Caitlin accepted that she was indeed Killer Frost, the killer frost persona dies and only Caitlin Snow is left, with the powers of Killer Frost. The 'inner voice' in Caitlin's head has always been Killer Frost (like F.I.R.E.S.T.O.R.M, BUT OF COURSE Caitlin is just one person, with 2 different voices in her head, pls let me know if you get it!) and she disappears when Caitlin accpets herself to be Killer Frost.
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Updates will every Saturday (I'll try my best to do so), and this will be a slow-burn FlashFrost.
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