Feeling part 1: Love

No one would miss me...

That's not true! ...I would!

Those words echoed throughout his head. They had done since Axel admitted to saying them when he was in Twilight town, trying to get him back in the organisation. Roxas just had to run. As far as he could. Unfortunately, city limits made him stop at the mansion. He stared at the second floor window subconsciously. He turned round and ran back into the forest but not back to Twilight town. No Axel was there. He ran into the forest deeper and deeper. He should have known. That familiar whoosh behind him, he turned and watched the red head emerge from a black cloud.

"Roxas please..." He said softly. "Come here..." he held out his arms. Roxas and his eyes met briefly. But it was long enough for Roxas to see the seriousness in Axel's eyes. "Please..." He whispered. Roxas edged closer to him "Come back..."
"I don't want to work for the organisation... Axel you know I hate it..."

"No I'm not asking for that... I mean come back to the castle... to just stay with me, no missions... just... friends... and ice cream." A smile flicked Roxas's lips at the mention of such a memory, Ice cream, Sea-salt ice cream. His favourite. "Can't we talk about this?" Axel pleaded.

"I'll come back..."
"You will?" Axel's face lit up.

"Yeah but on one condition." Roxas looked at him.

"Anything!" Axel smiled summoning the portal.

"You take me for an ice cream first." Roxas smiled.

"Mmmm... my favourite." Roxas said licking the already melting ice cream. Axel chuckled softly.

"Mine too." Axel said taking a bite out of it scrunching up his face. "Brain freezeeee!" Roxas laughed

"Don't bite it stupid!" Roxas exclaimed to the red haired nobody.

"I like biting them!" He pouted. Roxas laughed again making Axel smile. Roxas licked the last of the Popsicle some dribbling down his chin, he hadn't realised as his chin was a little sticky from the flavour anyway. Axel shuffled closer.

"Messy pup." He chuckled softly. His chuckle always sent this chill down Roxas's spine, and even more so when Axel leaned towards his face and licked his chin slowly. Roxas shuddered slightly dropping the popsicle stick with the word "Winner" written on it, it fell off the clock tower and landed on the pavement below. Roxas gripped the wall.

"Axel..." He mumbled as Axel's hot tongue licked the sea-salt flavour from his pink lips. Axel smirked and wiped Roxas's mouth. Roxas blushed darkly. His breathing quickened. Axel got off the wall pulling Roxas with him. He smiled at him

"Roxas... what do you see me as?"

"...see you as..." Roxas had spaced out.

"Am I your friend?" Axel muttered again.

"Yes... my friend..." Roxas closed his eyes.

"I read about this once..." Axel said tugging at the younger boy's belt.

"Axel..." He was still spaced out. Axel unbuckled him and knelt down. He freed Roxas who felt the cold air touch him. "A-axel?" He looked down, as the older boy looked up at him. "Wah... no- no!" He stepped backwards nearly falling, but Axel gently pulled him back. "No! Dirty!" Roxas yelled.

"I'm sorry..." He pulled Roxas's trousers back up. Roxas stopped pushing him away. "Maybe that was a bit much..." He said unsure. "It's not like I haven't seen you naked before... but I guess what I was going to do..."

"Going to... do..." Roxas swallowed hard. He had no idea what the fire bending teen was about to do to his hardening crotch. But whatever it was, he wasn't ready. Axel hugged him tightly.

"Sorry..." He summoned the portal. "Let's RTC." He winked. Roxas smiled slightly.

"I don't care how healthy he seems I still want to check him up!" Vexen bellowed.

"If you so much as bug him one bit no. IV I swear I will burn your hair as black as Xaldin's!" Axel yelled back. Roxas stood at the door and rolled his eyes.

"I'll be fine Axel..." He shrugged "He's seen all of us naked." He said going towards the bed. He sat on it.

"Number four! Acid spillage!" Xigbar called from the other room. Axel sighed as Vexen was temporarily called away. Roxas picked up a small vial of clear liquid and stared at it through the light curiously. He put it back... but in the wrong tray. Vexen returned.

"I apologise for that. Right. Now." Vexen reached for that very vial, not checking what he'd chosen from the tray. Roxas was looking away when he felt a sharp jab in his thigh.

"OW! Hey at least tell me—aren't I supposed to take my trousers off for that or something?"
"Oh no its fine I can inject through clothing easily it doesn't matter where that goes it's only a few antibodies that can go anywhere." He said, his hands roaming around his body checking everywhere.

"Yeah? Really? Next time TELL ME!" Roxas groaned.

"I'm warning you Vexen." Axel grunted.

"I'm done already!" Vexen said in a huff and walked off. Roxas jumped off the bed.

"Come on Axel let go to our room or something."

"...Our... our room?" Axel smiled slightly.

"Well yeah Xemnas smashed mine, remember?"

"True... yeah sure." He put his arm around Roxas's shoulders and led him back.

As usual, after one of Axel's missions, they went for an ice cream on the clock tower.

"C'mon it's easy!" Axel chuckled

"Hmm... no I can't guess it, tell me!" He licked his ice cream.

"It's sooo easy! It's an anagram, X-E-M-N-A-S. Got it memorised?"

"Tell me!" He whined.

"Mansex!"

"Haha!"

"Yeah? Yeah? Haha"

"You're so immiture Axel!" Roxas laughed.

"C'mon that's funny! A guy thought he was cool adding an X to his name." Axel pouted, Roxas carried on laughing.

"He's added x's to EVERYONES names." He laughed harder, Axel smiled, he loved his laugh, always had done. He'd liked Roxas since he was 3 days old, and when he reached a week old, he'd fallen madly in love with him. Roxas's "lack of everything" expression was just too cute, especially when he hid behind him when certain other members were near. He found looking after Roxas worth being teased for "babysitting". Roxas saw his smiled a blushed darkly. Axel bit slowly into his ice cream, still smiling at him, Roxas pretended to avert his gaze.

"Let's do this again tomorrow." He smiled.

"Y-yeah..." he smiled, finishing his ice cream

Roxas sat on the bed and sighed; he looked at the single bed and blushed slightly. Axel chuckled.

"What you blushin' for?" He smirked.

"What were you going to do earlier?"

"Well... I was... gunna... touch you down there..."

"Touch me?...Down there?" He looked at his crotch. He gulped as he reacted as he did before, his length hardening. "Nmh..." It was quicker than usual.

"I did it to myself once... felt kinda nice I wanted to share the pleasure with you." He sat next to him. "I mean... I read you can do it to other people too so I thought... hey why not." He chuckled slightly with nerves.

"Will you still... show me...?" Roxas said. He swallowed the lump in his throat. His body was heating up rapidly. "Show me how to make it feel good..."

"Roxas... you didn't want to earlier... are you sure?" Axel turned to face him taking off his long heavy coat. Roxas nodded.

"I... I don't know... I... J-just do it before I change my mind Axel..." Roxas's voice shuddered at the thought of another man touching him in a place he'd never thought about too deeply. Axel's green eyes widened, he watched the blond clutch the sheets.

"There is no need to be so nervous... it's just me..." Axel said softly. Roxas gulped and looked away. What had he done? He didn't know. Axel sat move into the centre of the bed pulling Roxas with him. Roxas hugged his own arms, shaking slightly. He pulled Roxas to sit in front of him in between his legs facing away. He kissed the back of Roxas's neck, making him shiver and lean forward slightly. "Roxas..." He said softly. Roxas was still not allowing Axel to move his arms from their folded position. Axel then pulled Roxas's jacket off, he was quite strong and managed to get his arms free, but before Roxas could refold his arms Axel pulled his shirt over his head but not off his arms- restricting them behind his back.

"Axel wait- I..."

"Shh... just trust me... kay?" Axel said "I won't hurt you, Got it memorised?" He kissed his neck more, he put one hand over Roxas's eyes.

"Axel—wait!"

"Trust me..." he smiled warmly, Roxas could hear his smile and silenced himself except for his heavy breathing. He took deep breaths as he felt Axel's other hand run down his chest then tummy and into his trousers. Roxas bit his lip and shut his eyes tight. Why was he craving Axel so suddenly? Axel had wanted to do this for some time. But Roxas had changed, but was he back? He didn't care. Roxas wanted him right now to do things that neither knew were so dirty yet so thrilling. Roxas let out a long sweet moan as Axel kissed at his neck. Axel's fingers were wet with Roxas's passion as he continued to care for his crotch.

"Ahh... hahhh!" The virgin blonde's back arched. He had no idea what was next, but the sensation of his body releasing as Axel caressed all the sensitive glands. He shuddered slightly, Axel pulled down his trousers, and Roxas was now lying naked in Axel's arms, still shaking. Axel was still covering his eyes. "Axel..." He took off his hand and laid him down on the bed climbing on top taking his own sleeveless shirt off. He kissed at Roxas's neck as he unbuttoned himself with one hand. He quickly removed his trousers so he could carry on kissing the younger boys chest. His legs were lifted into the air as Axel entered him so smoothly and painlessly. They moaned together as Axel rocked his hips, his back arching.

"Roxas..."

"Axel..."

Yet again their bodies released together, relieving of all their senses- if they really ever had any.

Shit.

What is it?

One of my experiment vials is missing...