--FeAr--
Fear is a powerful emotion.
It makes us cowards.
It makes us fools.
It makes us do things we forever regret.
Fear is something to be feared.
Fear can change friends into enemies.
And lovers into...dead lovers.
My name is Leah Clearwater and I am afraid.
I'm afraid of getting hurt... again.
I'm afraid of falling to pieces... again.
I'm afraid to have to pick them up by myself... again.
I'm afraid of that black alleyway I'm always alone in. That place where friends are sparks that flit by momentarily that light and guide me three steps before they are gone and I am in the dark... again.
I'm afraid of what is to come.
I am afraid of letting people in.
I am afraid to open my eyes, because I am afraid of seeing myself.
I am afraid to close my eyes, because I know that when I will, nightmares will assault me.
I am afraid of letting go of my frustration because I know I might hurt someone.
I am afraid of feeling.
Because every time you do, you recoil from the force of the whip.
I am afraid because I have hurt, I hurt, and I will always hurt.
Because my life is made of fear that runs deeper than water.
I feel naive and small as I lie on my bed and hold myself, cradle my head in my arms.
Fear is a powerful emotion and I am but a grain of sand. A grain of sand lost to the winds of time. Forever gone, never coming back. Fear is a very powerful thing, and I am but human.
Well no, I'm not, but my heart is. And my heart is a fragile thing, made up of wicked sharp shards that I picked up when it broke the first time. Those shards are a puzzle, one with missing pieces. I will never complete it again.
Fear makes us do things we hate, it makes us cry black tears of broken hope.
Fear...it's what keeps people going when faced with a task they don't want.
Fear is a motivator.
Fear is a state you live in.
We fear for the ones we love, we fear for ourselves.
I fear many things; I fear of crying because I know that when I do cry, a river of tears will fall and I shall drown in my own sorrow.
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Kinda dark but it hadn't started out as so...depressing. Ahh well, gotta love Leah for who she is. I was waiting to get inspiration, I haven't written anything for Leah in ages.
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xxTunstall Chickxx
15/12/08
P.S. ALMOST on VACATION!