Disclaimer: I do not in any way own CSI or this song…
Summary: His lie… my pain… our destiny.
Dissolved II
He had lied to her. He had promises himself never do that, no matter what because he knew that she suffered too much with her past relationships and specially with Jake. Jake had lie to her so many times and he didn't want to be like him but right now, right today he has just like Jake. He lied to her.
She was furious even hurt because she thought that with Eric would be different. He would never lie to her until today… today he broke her heart and she was willing to punish him. After he told her about it she avoid him all the rest of the day, the way home and even his calls she didn't answer. God knows that if he shows up on her front door in this exactly moment she would shoot him just to make him feel the pain she was feeling right now; for her telling the truth was the priority no matter what. She was definitely mad with him but was angry with herself because she found out that she couldn't be apart of him anymore. She needed him in more ways than she thought she would need in a men, she was dependent on him. Her heart aches for him, for his arms, smell, kiss, the sound of his voice, his body next to her and right now she regret for having avoid him. Her damn, stupid proud! She knew him for what? A month? No! For God sakes! she knew him for seven damn it years but lie is a lie. What if his father, Sharova, threat him? Or what if he used her life against him? If she was in his skin she would do the same just to having him out of danger. Damn it Calleigh, why didn't you think about this before? Why now?
Right now if all this mess didn't happen he would be in her arms, feeling her vanilla smell, tasting her lips…but here he is, alone in a place that he didn't considered home anymore because home was in her arms, home was with her. Now it's too late, what is done is done!... but he had to do something; he was willing to begging for her forgiveness. He wouldn't do what he had to do tomorrow without her forgiveness. So he try again…he send to her a text message if this didn't work he was going to her house and face her gun collection.
She felt her phone vibrate and decide to read the message:
Calleigh, please turn on the radio…
When she turned the radio on, a song was ending and then the guy said "well, I'm here with Eric Delko and he wants to say something, so Eric it's up to you now…"
"Thanks man… Calleigh? If you're listen this…" he sigh "please Cal… give me a chance to talk… I know that I made a huge mistake but I'm sorry, I really am..."
He stop and hoarsely he add "Calleigh I can't leave without you anymore, I need you in more ways than I can even imagine… please let's talk, please…"
"man, what you did to her?" the guy from the radio station asked.
"I lie to… I lie to the most important person in my life… I just… I just want a chance to talk, to explain it to her…"
"Cal, I'll be at your door at twenty and I'm willing to stay there until you talk to me… I love you."
"well here is the next song… from Eric to Calleigh. Hey, girl the man is miserable, give him a chance." Then the song started…
Today I need to meet you anyway
Even if it's only to take you home
After a normal day
Look into your eyes of easy promises
And kiss your the mouth in a way that makes you laugh
Today I need to hug you
Feel your smell of clean clothes
To forget my longings and sleep in peace
Today I need to hear any words of yours
Any exaggerating sentence that makes me feels happiness
In being alive
Today I need to take breakfast, hearing you sigh
Telling me that I am the cause of your insomnia
That I make everything wrong always
Today I need you
With any mood, with any smile
Today only your presence
Will leave me happy
Only today […tomorrow, forever…]
She listen, carefully and tears came out from her eyes… she needed him just as much as he needed her, not only today but tomorrow, after tomorrow and forever…