I think there are great things about both the show and the book. One major change in the show that I really enjoyed was that Clary was the one who was connected to Jonathon- not Jace. I feel that book Jace went through too much pain. He was repeatedly tortured throughout the series and while it continuously broke my heart, it became slightly repetitive after a while. I remember reading the books and thinking "How much pain does my boy gotta go through?" Therefore, Shadowhunters-the show- pleasantly surprised me with this unexpected change. This particular story was an idea I kept thinking about. It takes place after Clary's "death" and before they find out she's alive (however that will happen)

I'm really curious to know how this change sat with the rest of the fandom because its a huge change from the books so please let me know in the reviews. :)

All credits to Cassandra Clare

Dear Clary,

It's been 2 weeks since that fatal day. 2 weeks since I last saw you and even then it was from possessed eyes. I didn't want to do this- to write how I feel. The old Jace would laugh at me for writing down my feelings. But I'm not the old Jace, not by a long shot. It seems like a lifetime ago that night at Pandemonium. You should know-in case you don't- that you broke something in me. You taught me not only to feel, but to love- the most powerful weapon. I guess I wanted to say sorry. God Clary, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough. I'm sorry I didn't fight hard enough. For you. For us. Every night, every single night, I see you. I see you gripping my arm whispering "I love you". And I try, try with everything inside me to say it back.. I shout it so loud I can feel it in my toes. Every cell and fiber of my being screams "I love you!", screaming it over and over again waiting for you to hear me. But every time, every damned time, no sound comes out of my lips. I cry those words again and again and again, sobbing, begging for you to hear them. "I love you."

You left this world to soon, and I never got to say goodbye. I didn't get to tell you how much you meant to me. How I can't live without you, and how I love you more than anything else in this world. You're gone. You're gone and I'm in pieces- and to be honest, I don't even want to be put back together. You were too young. You were too happy and too beautiful. You had so much life to live- so much love to were going to grow old together- have little redhead children, little redhead grandchildren. I was going to be by your side until my last breathe, I was counting on it. I should have known it was too good to be true. Our lives were destined to be tragic. And now, ... now you're gone.

I want you to know, I loved you since I've known you, I love you now, and I will love you even after I die. I never believed in heaven. My life has been nothing but sad stories and bad luck. But if there is anything up there, I know you deserve it all. I hope you watch over me. I hope you smile when you think of me, and miss me even half as much as I miss you. I hope you don't forget me. I hope you send me little signs that your out there like you did this morning- with the little piece of charcoal jammed in the drawer of my bathroom.

Not much has happened down here. Alec is fine and is only growing more in love with Magnus. Simon and Izzy have been spending more time together and I think you would like that. I think you would smile a little whenever you would see them with each other, and shake your head in awe of how things never turn out how you would think. I think everyone is missing you. Even Alec, although back in the day, he would never have admitted it. But no one misses you like I do. No one feels your absence the way i do. No one wakes up with tears stinging their cheeks, praying to find you curled beside them. No one sees you in the trees outside, or in the graffiti under the bridges. No one feels that familiar pain in the chest every. single. day. Every time a couple shares a laugh while waiting for their food to be served, every time a redhead jogs by, every little smile- every little laugh.

I don't think I'm going to write to you again. I think I'm going to face the real world and accept the reality because I know that's what you would have wanted me to do. But no matter the time, day, or year, I will be thinking of you.

I will never stop missing you Clary.

I will never stop missing you.

With all my love,

Jace Herondale