Cowboy Casanova

Chapter 1: Cowboy Casanova

"Edward….are you ok?"

I didn't even hear him. I didn't hear anything. Nothing but my heartbeat.

This isn't happening, this isn't happening…he's joking; he has to be…he wouldn't do this to me.

I felt Jacob shit uncomfortably next to me and then stand and pace about the room.

"Edward, for fuck's sake, don't go all…..withdrawn. It's not like this is a surprise!" He said, his voice annoyed.

"Isn't it?" I said, my voice breaking from where I was holding back tears. I couldn't believe that half an hour ago I have been so excited to get home and kiss him and now he was saying he didn't want me…hadn't for a while.

"Look, I'm sorry ok, I just can't do this anymore" He said as if that excused everything.

When I didn't say anything he walked over to the door to where his bag was waiting, the bag that had tried to warn me when I came home this afternoon that something was wrong, very wrong.

"I'm going to go now ok?" He said as I heard the door click open.

Still I couldn't bring myself to look or even speak to him. I just dropped my head into my hands and waited to hear the door close and shut my world out completely.

"Goodbye…Edward" I heard him close the door softly behind him and then nothing. All I could hear was my own staggered breathing as the tears suddenly engulfed me.

Jacob and I had been together for three years. We'd met in college and had an instant connection. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen and soon everyone knew we were together. It seemed my outlook on life almost changed overnight. He'd made everything brighter and I felt lighter every time I was with him. Everyone noticed the change; my friends commented on it, my mother noticed that I smiled more and was grateful to Jacob for it and even my professors noticed the change as my grades got even better.

After almost 6 months of perfection Jacob and I moved into a tiny one bedroom flat in Seattle together. Life was good. We made love almost every night and I didn't think I could fall more in love with him. Then, about 3 months ago, Jacob's attitude seemed to have changed. He became irritated easily and didn't seem as happy as he had been. I put it down to stress from work but then he started complaining about me and how I lived. First it was how I didn't like going out every night and actually wanted to be in my house from time to time, then it was that I read too much and then it was that I didn't want to have sex every time that he did. In the end we agreed to disagree and slowly life seemed to go back to normal. And then this.

Today came out of nowhere, I'd been in the best mood because I'd just been offered a promotion at work and had accepted. I'd come home to celebrate with my love, but when I walked through the door and seen the bags I knew something was wrong.

He'd sat me down and told me he'd been having an affair with some guy from his job and that's why his attitude had changed so drastically recently, and now here I was bent over crying to the point where I knew I wouldn't be able to speak tomorrow.

I don't know how long I sat there buried in my arms but eventually I got up and found the fridge. I had a beer, and then another and another and another until I was quite drunk as it was.

I suddenly had a desperate urge to get out of the apartment; away from the memories and the photographs and the ghosts of what was. I walked out the door not bothering with a coat even though it was quite cold out. I went into the first club I could find.

The noise was impenetrable and all around me people were grinding and drinking and laughing. I stumbled over to the bar and ordered a beer.

"Make it two" said a voice from behind me.

I turned to see two stormy eyes meeting mine. The stranger sat down next to me and slid one beer towards me.

"Rough night?" He drawled in an accent that sounded southern.

"Yeah" I said and glugged my beer.

"What you here for then? Drink, drugs or sex?"

I turned towards him and was met by those stormy eyes again, they winked at me.

"Ha…er….drink mostly" I said awkwardly, I wasn't here to flirt with some stranger. I'd just been dumped by the guy that was supposed to be with me until we were old and grey.

"Fair enough" he said and then tipped the bottle up to his lips.

I couldn't help but stare. His lips were perfect, I think that was the drink talking.

"How about you?" I slurred at him

"Haha, I'm not opposed to any of them to be honest with you…" he trailed off waiting for a name.

"Edward" I said, instantly cursing myself for it. What was I doing, this had to be the alcohol's fault.

"Nice to meet you Edward, I'm Jasper" He drawled, sticking his hand out for me to shake.

I took and electricity shot through my arm, stupid drink.

"Come with me, you need cheering up" He said and grabbed my arm and dragged me on to the dance floor where numerous couples were grinding against each other.

"I don't dance" I said trying to walk away

"Oh yes you do, everyone can" Jasper said dragging me towards him. He was a few inches taller than me which was impressive considering I was quite tall myself.

"Just feel the music" he said, he turned me around so that I had my back to his chest. He swayed my hips from side to side in time with the music. My breathing started to pick up from the close proximity to someone other than Jacob. ….Jacob

I pushed him from my mind and lived for the moment.

"Feel it?" I definitely felt something but I didn't think it was the drums.

"Yes" I said, my voice coming out huskier than I was expecting.

Jasper spun me around again so we were facing each other.

"Edward?" He said looking at me with those eyes.

"Yes?" I said, feeling his breath hitting me and causing my head to spin.

He leant forward slowly and before I could even think he caught my lips with his and gently kissed me. He drew back and looked me square in the eye. I don't know what possessed me but I leant forward and almost attacked his lips with mine. I felt him lick my bottom lip asking for entrance which I granted. We kissed until I had to pull away for air. We were both breathing hard and his eyes looked like a tornado had ripped through the normally peaceful blue.

"Come home with me?" he asked taking my hand

I nodded and was easily pulled to the door and bundled into a cab. The entire way there we shared kisses until we pulled up in front of a nice apartment building and took the elevator to the 5th floor. He dragged me down the hall and unlocked the door and yanked me inside. He shoved me against the wall and attached his mouth to mine again. We stumbled down the hall and into his bedroom while removing our clothes so we were just in our jeans. He looked at me.

"Do you want to?" he asked, looking at me again

"Yes…please" I was so turned on it was ridiculous

He shoved me on to the bed and climbed on top.

"Let me make you smile"

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