Sweet Misery
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha Or Crushed by Rosette
Summary: Set in Modern day Japan. Kagome is 16 and Sesshoumaru is 19. Kagome was in love with Sesshoumaru. Oh, how she adored the way he smiled at her, and was always there to help. They weren't a couple, but he was her best friend. She didn't know if he felt the same, but she was finally going to tell him she loved him. Before Kagura came into the picture...
The Characters... Yes. Their all gonna be OOC.
Chapter One: Crushed
This was her chance. He was right there, only feet away. Oh, he would be hers... Kagome took a deep breath and made her way to Sesshoumaru. When she was within arms length, he turned his attention from the girl in front of him and looked at her. He sent her his dazzling smile. The girl in front of him scowled. She was Beautiful, in terms. High cheek bones, full lips. Pale complexion, and dazzling red eyes. She was Thin and tall, wearing a short jean skirt, and a plain red shirt that hugged her curves nicely.
Kagome watched as Sesshoumaru's attention was given back to the girl. She said something to him, and his eyes widened a bit, before becoming soft. He said something back, and she smiled widely. She leaned forward, and captured his lips in hers. His arms went around her, bringing her closer against him...
As the tears brimmed her eyes, Kagome turned a walked away. The Man she loved was with That... Woman! She knew she was too young for him. Her Mother was always throwing a fit, because Kagome was in love with someone three years older than her. He didn't know that. How could he? She told him she wasn't in love with him...
FLASHBACK
"Kagome." Sesshoumaru said as he walked up to her.
"Sesshoumaru!" She blinked a few times. She wasn't expecting to see him here!
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure, go ahead." Kagome gave him her full attention.
"Do you love me?"
Kagome smiled at him. "Of course silly! Your my Best Friend!"
"No, I mean, Do you love me? As more than that?" Sesshoumaru asked her.
"No.. I'm sorry.. I don't." Kagome cast her eyes downward, fearing they would betray her words.
"That's good.. I was worried.." Sesshoumaru said, looking to the side. "I need to go. I'll call you tonight."
Once he was out of sight, the tears fell. They fell hard. It felt as if her heart had been torn in two. He didn't want her to love him, Because he didn't love her...
END FLASHBACK
Kagome sighed as she sat against a tree. She looked over her body. She was short, and very curvy. She was called fat, but she was only One-Hundred and fifteen pounds for gods sakes. She wore jeans that hugged her hips, and loosened as they went down. Her shirt hung loosely around her. She was a sight. Why would he want her, when he had Kagura?
She closed her eyes, and rest her head back.
"Kagome?" A velvet voice called her name. "Kagome? Are you okay?"
She opened her eyes, only to snap them shut. 'Oh god, not now!'
"Kagome, can you hear me?" He moved closer. She didn't hear him, but she felt him as he knelt beside her. A hand found it's way to her shoulder. She opened her eyes, and looked over at him. "Are you alright?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. Why do you ask?" Kagome gave him a quizzical look.
"I saw you crying. Is everything okay? My brother wasn't harsh to you, was he?" Sesshoumaru asked as his eyes softened.
"No, No Inuyasha didn't do anything to me. It was nothing, really. Just.. Letting out my stress." Kagome said as she tried to give him a reassuring smile.
He didn't seem convinced, but he let it drop. "Well, Kagura told me she loved me today." He told her as he rest himself against the tree.
Kagome Bit her lip. "Really? I hadn't noticed."
He laughed, as looked away. "I must confess, I do not love her. But my feeling are strong. I think I can grow to love her.."
Tears burned Kagome's eyes, and she blinked them away. "I'm happy for you." She lied. But who wouldn't lie to make the one they loved happy?
"I'm glad. I was afraid I'd hurt you when I saw you crying." He admitted to her.
"No, today is the day my father walked out on us, so it'd been kinda hard today."
"Oh, it is the day. I'm sorry I forgot. I would have been by your side all day."
"No, if you had done that, you wouldn't have been able to talk with Kagura." Kagome told him.
"I guess. But I still should have been there." He sighed. "What's done is done. Will you be preforming in the Auditorium tonight?"
"Yeah, like always." Kagome said. It had become a tradition, of sorts, for Kagome, Sango, Rin and Ayame to preform in the Auditorium on Friday's. They weren't sure how it started, but everyone expected it.
"Well, I'll see you there." Sesshoumaru said as he stood. Kagome gave him a nod, and he turned and walked off. She watched him go. Oh, how she loved to watch him walk away. She shook her head and gave a soft sigh before climbing to her feet. She brushed off the grass and headed to the school. Oh, she was gonna get strange glances because she's changing her sound tonight. From She-Rock, to a soft R&B. But what could she do? She was singing her feelings.
Kagome pushed the doors open, and glanced around. Packed again, just for Sweet Misery. She walked to the stage, and climbed the steps to the entrance. "Kagome! We didn't think you were coming. We only have Five minutes!" Sango exclaimed.
"That's plenty time for me to get my feelings out. We're going R&B tonight dears." Kagome told them as she grabbed a bottle of water.
"We're doing what?" Rin asked, as she stopped spinning her drum stick. "What the hell are we singing R&B for? You got the guy you loved today!"
Kagome was silent. "You did get him, right?" Ayame asked.
"More like, Kagura got him." She told them. She opened the bottle and took a huge gulp.
""That little bitch! I'll kill her!" Rin yelled.
Kagome held up a hand. No need. He'll be mine soon. I'll be sure of that." She said as she grabbed her microphone. "Ready?"
"Uhm. What are we singing?" Sango asked, as she slipped her Guitar over her hear,
"Crushed." Kagome told them before simply walking on stage.
"Well, you go girl." Ayame mumbles as she followed with her Bass. They all filed out on stage, and waited for the cheers and whistles to stop before speaking.
"This is called Crushed. I wrote it for someone very special to me." Kagome spoke. She let the microphone fall to her said, and the music started. Soon after, she brought it to her lips, and began.
"I told myself,
Today was gonna be the day.
No more excuses 'cause I knew exactly what to say.
Was gonna make my play but just like yesterday,
My mind erased,
And I let the moment slip away." Kagome let her eyes close as she moved her hips lightly.
"Another night,
Got me sitting her all on my own.
Picking up the phone,
But I can't get passed the dial tone.
Wracking my brain,
Goin' insane.
Again and again, I can't keep going this way." She opened her eyes, and met those Amber eyes she loved so much.
"Crushed,
By the sweetest lips I've never kissed.
How your fingertips,
Have the warmest touch that I've always missed.
Crushed, by the softest hands I've never held.
Probably never tell, your the strongest love that I've ever felt.
Crushed!
That I've haven't ever let you know,
How it always goes,
'Cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close.
And so I'm left,
Short of Breath.
With that heavy feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm so crushed..
So I tell myself that tomorrow's gonna be the day.
And I keep on tellin' myself that I'm gonna find a way.
And I won't be afraid,
Just like yesterday.
Won't walk away,
Never gonna let another chance slip away.
'Cause I gotta know,
Which ever way it's gonna go.
Risk my heart and soul,
'Cause there can never be no more.
Wrackin' my brain,
Goin' insane.
Again and Again,
I won't keep goin' this way.
Crushed,
By the sweetest lips I've never kissed.
How your fingertips,
Have the warmest touch that I've always missed.
Crushed,
By the softest hand I've never held.
Probably never tell,
Your the strongest love that I've ever felt.
Crushed,
That I haven't ever let you know,
How it always goes.
'Cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close.
And so I'm left,
Short of breath,
With that heavy feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm so crushed..." Kagome sang.
"Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do.
Gotta find a way to do." The other three sang.
"I don't know just what to doo.." Kagome sang.
"Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do.
Gotta find a way to you.." They sang again.
"Oh I'm..
Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do.
Gotta find a way to you..
And so I'm left,
Short of breath,
With that heavy feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm so..
Crushed!
By the sweetest lips I've never kissed.
How your fingertips,
Have the warmest touch that I've always missed.
Crushed,
By the softest hand's I've never held.
Probably tell,
Your the strongest love that I've ever felt.
Crushed,
That I haven't ever let you know,
How it always goes,
'Cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close.
And so I'm left,
Short of breath,
With that heavy feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm so crushed..." Kagome sang.
"Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do..
gotta find a way to you.." The girls sang.
"And the warmest touch that I've always missed.. Crushed!" Kagome said after.
"Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do,
Gotta find a way to you.." They sang.
"Gotta find a way to you..." Kagome tore her eyes from Sesshoumaru and Kagura. They were holding hands, and smiling at each other. It made her sick, really. Her eyes caught with Inuyashas. He was staring at her intently. What was he gonna do to her now?
"Crushin all the way to you,
Don't know what I'm gonna do..
gotta find a way to you...
And so I'm left,
Short of breath,
With that heavy feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm so...
Crushed...
Crushed..
Crushed........." Kagome finished. She sent Inuyasha another questioning look before giving the crowd her attention. She smiled brightly, they seemed to love the new sound. Sadly, it will only last this song.