Close To My Heart Chapter 1, a naruto fanfic

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Chapter 1

"Close to My Heart"

Sunlight coined through the windows of the Hokage office as a spiky blonde haired ninja sat, massaging his forehead at his desk. A white robe with red flames licking the bottom hem hung on a coat rack by the door and the blonde's azure eyes traveled to it while lost in thought. The pile of paperwork was not that bad for that day and the man was contemplating on whether he should pop by his son's training ground just to say hi. Leaning back in his chair, he watched the clouds lazily slip across the sky and felt a light breeze ruffle through the long spiky hair that covered his ears.

Well…aren't we cozy? A rather sore but snarky voice sneered within the man's ears. His eyes snapped open and he instinctively placed a hand over his stomach…where the ninetailed's Yin's half lay sealed within. Kyuubi… he thought, furrowing his brows, taken aback by the fox's prescense.

When did the Yondaime Hokage become so boring? The fox whined. The man sighed, and mentally responded, I told you….my name is Minato. You can call me that you know…

I may be the Yin half…but don't think I don't hate you just as much… the fox replied bitterly. Even though I am the 'bright side' of myself… I've endured nothing but pain and hatred from your village… I'm trying to find the good in your kind but so far I'm not getting anything.

Well…I'm trying to understand you…

Yeah, but I don't want your weak human pity…

Minato sighed, knowing that through his previous conversations with Yin, that the fox didn't trust him…even though 16 years had passed…

His wife had died in order to allow Minato to live those 16 years ago and had knocked him out so that he couldn't jump in front of the fox's attack on baby Naruto. When Minato had woken up disoriented…Sarutobi had told him Kushina's wish for him and Naruto. Now Minato spent the 16 years trying to figure out how the fox ticked and tried to break the barrier between them. He thought it'd be easier with the yin half…but although the waves of hatred were not very strong…he knew that the fox was angry with him. Despite it all, Minato knew that Kyuubi was not the one to entirely blame…he had been controlled by the masked man… Minato had done his best to track down the masked man since that day but he was undetectable although there was some intel that he was a part of the Akatsuki.

If you really cared, you'd let me go… the fox pointed out but Minato was not that careless.

I can't do that, and you know that… Minato said, and he sounded apologetic.

…I don't understand… the previous jinkuuriki…didn't bother to try to get to know me… why are you trying…I was the reason she died…The fox said quietly.

Minato felt a pang in his chest but leaning back in his chair, and eyeing the ceiling, he replied with honesty, Yeah…she did die because of you…but it wasn't only you. If…we humans weren't so scared of you…I'm sure that who you would've been…wouldn't have been like that.

Humph, where were you back when humans first started hunting us down? The fox said in a calm almost bitter tone. Minato had had 16 years to get used to the weight of the kyuubi's chakra…as well as the Kyuubi itself. He had studied the bijuu since he'd first learned of Kushina's…furry little secret and since then…even now…he was trying to find a way to make peace with the bijuu.

Minato was interrupted from his reverie when he felt comforting arms around his shoulders and although his body tensed, he felt nuzzling at the back of his neck and smiled, patting the younger lighter blonde on the head, with the arm he wrapped around the boy's shoulder. Cerulean blue met azure and the two blondes grinned at each other.

"Hey Pa," Naruto said cheerfully, and Minato leaned back into his son's welcoming hug.

"What are you doing here?" Minato asked smiling. The connection between Minato and the fox was barriered by Minato so that Kyuubi couldn't interrupt his alone time with his son.

"Kakashi-Sensei let us go," Naruto shrugged and unwrapped his arms from around Minato's shoulders and walked over to Minato's coat.

"Oh? No mission yet?" Minato inquired. Minato eyed his son as their eyes met and Minato could see a bit of Kushina's gaze emitting from Naruto and he looked away, trying to supress the sad feeling. Putting his signature smile on his face, he said, "Well…since you say you're free…I have a mission for you, Hinata and Kiba." He waved a paper in Naruto's direction and he could see his son's eyes light up.

Minato gave him an apologetic smile. "No…nothing on Uchiha…" he said softly, and he got up and with silent rustling he hugged his son, and his son blushed from what Minato assumed was embarrassment.

"Pa!" Naruto whined, "I'm not a kid anymore! Don't baby me! I'm not gonna cry or anything!" and he pushed Minato's hug off. Minato glomped Naruto again and began to tickle Naruto's sides and Naruto squirmed trying not to laugh and give in.

"Come on, you know you can't hide how you feel from me…" Minato teased, and was surprised when he ended up tumbling onto the wooden floor with Naruto on top of his stomach.

A playful light shown in Naruto's eyes, and he began tickling Minato back and they had a brief tickle war before an Eagle masked Anbu coughed discreetly announcing his presence. Realizing how ridiculous he looked with his son on top of him, Minato and Naruto tumbled apart, both red faced and got to their feet hastily.

Minato couldn't tell the expression behind the Anbu's mask but his heart beat fast and he expertly composed himself to adress the ninja.

"What is it?" Minato said, with what he hoped was a leader-like tone. Naruto tapped his dad on the shoulder and Minato looked at him.

"Er…I'll take that mission now and leave," Naruto said.

Minato blinked and nodded, and went back to his desk to get the mission details. "Please allow me a second to give Naruto the information," he said apologetically to the Anbu. The Anbu nodded curtly, and Minato sincerely hoped that he and Naruto hadn't looked that weird on the floor. I don't have any reason to be embarassed…it's not like me and Naruto haven't been caught tickling each other before… Minato smiled to himself thinking fondly of how much Naruto had grown up.

"Um dad? Any time now would be good…" Naruto said loudly and Minato sheepishly handed the paper to his son.

"Er…right, sorry about that, I got um…distracted," Minato said meekly.

"Heh, so even the great Lord Hokage has moments where he doesn't pay attention," Naruto joked. Minato swatted at his son and his son left laughing good naturedly. Turning back to the Anbu and taking a deep breath, Minato indicated that the Anbu could speak.

"It is mission details…regarding Itachi….and Sasuke…" the Anbu said and Minato's eyes became a deep calm and he resumed his leader-like air, fully attentioned to the news.

"And?" he held out his hand to receive the report and the Anbu handed it to him solemnly.

"That is all, Lord Yondaime…" the Anbu bowed and teleported before Minato could speak. Minato held the report in his hand and wondered what sort of news about Sasuke it could hold…He finally had some news for Naruto…after a few missed attempts at meeting up with Sasuke and ever since their first encounter after 3 years…Naruto hadn't been exactly the same and Minato had pressed him as far as he felt reasonable—not as the village leader—but as a concerned father who worried constantly about his adorable son.

He was proud of his son's sense of integrity…and undying faith in his comrades…athough in Sasuke's case, Minato didn't have the heart ot tell his son that Sasuke…was never coming back to the village…at least not alive.

Minato could feel his headache returning and the temporary barrier he had up faded but the kyuubi was silent. Minato gazed at the picture of Naruto when he was around 6 and he had gone to ichiraku with him for his birthday. Seeing Naruto's smiling innocent face, Minato knew that with time, that face would become lined with wrinkles, and that Naruto's soft heart would eventually become hardened. Minato rested his head on his desk and closed his eyes, almost wishing that his son hadn't grown up.

A/N: next chapter will be from Naruto's P.O.V. Same chapter but different perspective. I like doing that. Experimentation is fun. No flames or anything.

CHAPTER 1b

Walking through the streets of Konoha, a light spiky blonde ran a hand through his hair while yawning. He'd just gotten off training with Kakashi and Yamato and was feeling like ramen. His cerulean eyes glinted with an interesting shine as he came to his favorite little ramen stop, Ichiraku.

"Hey Naruto, the usual?" the darkly tanned old man greeted him cheerfully. Naruto grinned and sat down comfortably.

Smelling the steaming bowl of ramen, Naruto's mouth began to water, "itadakimasu!"he said eagerly and began slurping vigorously. While he ate, the old man watched him with a smile.

"You know…you're pa's been working hard, has he had lunch yet?"

"Hmm…no…I don't believe so," Naruto frowned, "…I get that he believes in working hard but…he always pushes himself…" sighing, Naruto worried a little since he had noticed his dad had seemed a little thin lately.

"Your pa does a lot…and it's always a pleasure to see you and him," the old man said good naturedly. Naruto grinned and finished his bowl of ramen. He held it up, indicating he'd like seconds and he got some.

While slurping his noodles, Naruto thought about his pa. Work was so-so but he didn't see what was throwing Minato's eating schedule off, and he made a mental note to find out what was on his father's mind. I wonder what's bothering Pa lately… I wish he'd tell me…lately he's seemed withdrawn, even from me…

Getting ready to leave to actually check on his pa, Naruto's thoughts wandered to when he was little and his father would often bring him to Ichiraku. Naruto hopped a few buildings but then leaned against a telephone pole when he got to the ground. Looking up at the clouds, Naruto remnisced…he couldn't help it. He felt a pang in his chest as he thought of how empty his father had been since his mother's death. When he was little, his father had been his beacon of light…no one dared to whisper about how Naruto was a vessel for Kyuubi…because his father was one as well and they all respected his father too much. Naruto tried to not think about what his life would've been like if his father was not in his life. His deep set azure eyes, the intensity of his gazes, his smile, his ability to coax out whatever was wrong from Naruto with just the soft voice he used…and Naruto felt special since his father only ever used such a tone around him. Naruto touched his forehead, missing the kisses his father used to give him when he was younger and he couldn't remember when his dad had stopped…it had been when he was around 12 he figured.

Naruto didn't like getting parental affection when he was in public because it would only make him look like a daddy's boy or worse, not cool. But he missed all the advantages he'd had when he was younger…shaking his head of these thoughts, he saw the familiar hokage building.

Appearing silently in the window, he gazed at the man in question, with almost a goldish blonde hair color, sitting back with his eyes closed, and deep in thought. There wasn't a lot of paper work on the desk and he couldn't help but smirk at the thought of his dad shirking work. Not in his character, but he frowned as he could see the lines of stress on his father's fine features. Naruto contemplated on how to make his entrance and then decided he'd surprise his dad pleasantly. Appearing silently behind his dad, Naruto couldn't help but think that his dad must be really self-absorbed since he hadn't reacted at all to the presence of another ninja. It was a rather bold move, and Naruto hoped he wouldn't get flipped for doing what he was about to do. He leaned in and wrapped his arms around his Pa's broad shoulders, and nestled his head against his father's neck, nuzzling him affectionately.

"Hey Pa," Naruto said cheerfully.

Seeing his father smile filled Naruto with an indescribable happiness. It wasn't a fake smile, it was genuine happiness at seeing him and Naruto wanted somehwere in the back of his mind for his pa no not show this side of him to anyone else. His father leaned back and Naruto could estimate the length of his father's lashes, …his lips… Ignoring the odd feelings tumbling within his heart because he couldn't explain them, Naruto was brought out of his own thoughts by the affectionate soft voice that broke the silence.

"What are you doing here?" his father said, pleasantly surprised.

"Kakashi sensei let us go," Naruto said, and he hesitated before unwrapping himself from Minato's shoulders. It was rare for him to get a chance to hug his father like this, and he was a little reluctant to end the nice moment so soon. In the end, he forced himself to pull away, wondering what the hell was up with himself. He walked over to his pa's coat, and stared at it, trying to ignore the odd sense he was feeling in his heart. He admired his pa, and he always had. He didn't have a reason to be possesive though… though admittedly if his father had remarried, Naruto would've felt a little lonely… his father's love, he didn't want to share it honestly and confused by his logic Naruto was pulled back once again by his father's voice.

"Oh? No mission yet?" his father inquired.

Naruto could feel his father's contemplative gaze on his back and their eyes met and Naruto didn't understand what made his father look away, almost instantly. Naruto saw his father putting his signature smile on his face, he said, "Well…since you say you're free…I have a mission for you, Hinata and Kiba." He waved a paper in Naruto's direction and Naruto's eyes lit up from excitement. Things had been going slow lately so hearing that there was an actual mission, excited Naruto.

"Seriously? What kind of mission? Protecting some daimyo? Or maybe it's a stealth mission! Or infiltration? Is it infiltration? Or is it info… on…" Naruto's rambling slowed as he said the last part softly, "Sasuke…" His best friend had turned corrupt by his desire to kill his older brother for revenge and Naruto was the only one who refused to give up on him.

His Pa gave him an apologetic smile. "No…nothing on Uchiha…" he said softly, and Naruto felt strong comforting arms around him before he even realized his father had moved from his desk.

"Pa!" Naruto whined, and he felt that odd sense swelling up inside him again, "I'm not a kid anymore! Don't baby me! I'm not gonna cry or anything!" and he pushed Minato's hug off. Minato glomped Naruto again and began to tickle Naruto's sides and Naruto squirmed trying not to laugh and give in. Feeling his dad this close to him in a while made Naruto blush. An unexplainable shiver ran down Naruto's spine as his dad's hands moved around his sides, tickling him senseless. Trying to resist the urge to laugh, Naruto squirmed, and his heart thumped as he saw that playful shine in his dad's eyes…it had been a while.

"Come on, you know you can't hide how you feel from me…" his father teased, and Naruto jokingly in a flash, lost his balance as he meant to just push his father playfully but they ended up on the floor, Naruto on top of his dad's stomach. Hearing his dad's heart beat, Naruto felt his heart thump. He hid it though and instead he began tickling Minato back and they had a brief tickle war before an Eagle masked Anbu coughed discreetly announcing his presence. Realizing how ridiculous they both looked, Naruto could feel the heat creeping onto his face. He couldn't tell the expression behind the Anbu's mask but he saw his dad's cheeks flush and he felt that pang again."What is it?" his dad hastily said, and Naruto smirked at his dad's attempt to speak with what he knew his dad hoped was a leader-like tone. Naruto tapped his dad on the shoulder and Minato looked at him.

"Er…I'll take that mission now and leave," Naruto said.

Minato blinked and nodded, and went back to his desk to get the mission details. "Please allow me a second to give Naruto the information," he said apologetically to the Anbu. Naruto couldn't take his eyes off of his dad's faintly blushing face as his dad seemed lost in thought again, hand hovering over the paperwork. Naruto felt the strange desire grow stronger and in order to break the spell, he cleared his throat loudly.

"Um dad? Any time now would be good…" Naruto said loudly and Minato sheepishly handed the paper to his son.

"Er…right, sorry about that, I got um…distracted," Minato said meekly.

"Heh, so even the great Lord Hokage has moments where he doesn't pay attention," Naruto joked. Minato swatted at his son and Naruto left laughing good naturedly. Naruto didn't glance back as he left, but he could feel the odd tumbling emotions swelling inside him and he didn't know what to do. He pushed it away and instead focused on the mission in his hand. He had more important things to focus on and he decided to find Kiba and Hinata.

CHAPTER 2a

CHAPTER 2

"Impossible Love"

Minato sat in the kitchen at his and Naruto's home, a cup of coffee in his hand and the letter from the Eagle masked Anbu in the other. His thoughts swirled as he tried to figure out how to tell Naruto that Sasuke was only getting darker…he'd managed to kill Orochimaru. Saved Minato the problem of having to do that himself, but still…. He'd upped the search for Orochimaru ten-fold after Orochimaru had killed Sarutobi. Minato had been doing an important mission in another village but it had been too far and Minato hadn't been notified of the events except for when he'd returned. Naruto was in the Land of the Waves with Kiba and Hinata and wouldn't be getting back until later today so Minato figured he'd get some more paperwork done. The thought of all those stacks waiting for him caused him to wince, he hadn't signed up for that part of the job when he took the title but somebody has to do it so he finished his coffee and got ready to go.

He washed his cup in the sink and glanced towards the fridge seeing a sticky note posted to it. Curious he read it:

Hey Dad,

When I get back from my mission can you make some time so that we can chat? There's something that's been on my mind and I think you're the only one that can help me. Another thing, You've been withdrawn lately and I don't know why. You've also looked thinner so be sure to eat three times a day, even if you have to skip work! Promise? Ok! Good.

Love,

Naruto

P.S. if I get info on Sasuke, I'll be sure to check in with you!

Minato smiled and pocketed the sticky note, thinking about Naruto's rushed scrawl and how even though he was now 16, his writing was still as messy as a five year old's. Since Minato knew the general area where Sasuke had last been, he decided to check into that once he'd tackled some paperwork. I really need to get a secretary or something…Minato groaned. The problem was that any woman he tried being friendly with had ended up thinking he would fall in love with them and Minato knew that no one could replace Kushina. Pervy Sage had told Minato that he was inhuman for living the rest of his life without experiencing the joy of women and Minato had retaliated by saying that he'd date once Tsunade said yes to his ex-sensei.

Speaking of Tsunade, Minato wondered if she was still off gambling. Probably.

Arriving at the office, he was surprised to see Kakashi waiting for him.

"Kakashi?" Minato said surprised, "What brings you here? Business or?"

"Nah, I just wanted to say hi since I was in this neck of the woods…" Kakashi shrugged.

"Oh…well I have a crap-load of paperwork…" Minato sighed, "…Don't think I'll have much time to hang out…sorry Kakashi…"

"Well…I thought if you needed some assistance, I'd be more than willing to maybe, help lighten your load," Kakashi offered.

Minato's face lit up, "Serious?"

"You've been working really hard and actually," Kakashi scratched his head, "Naruto wanted me to keep an eye on you, you know, make sure you don't keel over from fatigue sort of thing…and I'm a little worried too. You need to balance your work life with your personal free time…"

"I like keeping busy I guess," Minato sighed, and he sat in his chair, secretly happy that he had such a caring son like Naruto. He was also thankful for Kakashi who was always a big help.

They worked until the sun was in the middle of the sky, and then Minato stretched, feeling hungry and rather satisfied since a long while. He caught Kakashi staring at him and decided since he had Kakashi's attention to ask something that had been on his mind. "How's Rin?" Minato inquired, smirking at Kakashi. Kakashi's face remained excellently composed as he stared Minato in the eyes, onyx eyes staring back at azure eyes.

"She's good… she still likes me though…even though I've established we're just friends." Kakashi shrugged, taking another file and beginning to rifle through it and Minato frowned.

" Well I personally think she's really loyal though, and in addition, she is kinda cute," Minato winked at Kakashi and smiled amused as a faint flush appeared on Kakashi's otherwise, light tanned face. "She'd be really good I believe. I don't know how far back, but surely there was some connection that started. I'd know this feeling, trust me, and it's impossible to fight…"

Kakashi was silent as he began to stamp again. "Sensei…I am not like you and Kushina…at least, my love is…I'm not really into the whole love game you know? I find it rather annoying," Kakashi responded coolly.

"…You know…finding someone that genuinely likes you for you… it's rare. Rin, she's a good girl, I think that you should give her a chance, or is there a reason for why you don't think you deserve to be happy?" Minato pressed.

"Same reason as you sensei," Kakashi said lightly and Minato blinked not understanding. "…I'd be tarnishing Obito's memory if I lived my life happily with his girl…" Kakashi said softly. Minato didn't know what to say to that and cleared his throat, changing the subject so that Kakashi wouldn't become engulfed by his pain.

Kakashi nodded and there was a comfortable silence as the two ninjas worked. Minato heard familiar footsteps and looked up like Kakashi when he saw Naruto standing in the doorway. There were tears in his eyes that sent a jolt through Minato. He stood up abruptly but Naruto was gone in the next second and Kakashi looked at Minato's taken aback expression.

"I got things down here, you go on ahead…I think he heard our conversation and thought we were talking about you and Rin," Kakashi pointed out.

Minato gratefully nodded in his direction and not bothering to grab his hokage cloak, used the window as a shortcut to get to the outside world. He saw Naruto running down the dirt road towards the bustling village market and with god-like speed, the wind whistled shrilly in his ears as he pursued his son, thoughts rambling through his mind. He didn't know what about his conversation with Kakashi could've caused Naruto to think that he was in love with Rin of all people.

An impatient growl escaped from Minato as his son weaved in and out of the crowd in an expert manner –trying to lose him—using ninja tactics. Rather taken aback by the agility and the expert ability of evading him, Minato was forced to realize in his pursuit that Naruto was no longer that little boy that used to trip over his feet as he tried to run from Minato as Minato chased him in the living room. No, the ninja before him was still his son, but now an experienced fighter…Minato swept the market, spotting Naruto ducking in the direction of the training grounds.

Coming to the training grounds, he used one incredible burst of speed and tackled his son to the grass.

With disgruntled "oofs," Minato refused to let go of Naruto.

"Naruto! Let me explain please?" Minato pleaded, panting.

"No…nothin' to explain," Naruto said bitterly.

"NO look, I was trying to help Kakashi, I don't have interest in Rin, she's a decade younger than me! And you know I can't forget about your mother!" Minato rushed but was surprised when Naruto hugged him back real tight. The both smelled like grass, and a light breeze picked up ruffling through their hair. The three upright logs and memorial stone was off to their far left. The stream water was calmly trickling and they could both hear it well since their senses were super-human.

"That's…not what's bothering me," Minato heard his son whisper.

Now it was Minato's turn to be confused, "It- It's not?"

"No…." Naruto buried his face into his father's chest and Minato wrapped his arms around him, wondering what was bothering his son enough to make him actually cry.

"Then..what is it?" Minato tentatively inquired, cupping his son's face in his hands and a worried expression taking over and Naruto glanced down.

"…Nothin'…I just got something in my eyes is all…may be the pollen in the air or something," Naruto tried to push his dad away but Minato refused to budge.

"You can't lie to me…" Minato said quietly, nestling his head into Naruto's chest.

"…I suppose not…" Naruto said quietly.

"Well….if you really don't want to tell me…" Minato frowned.

"No it's not about lying…it's about telling the truth…" Naruto said slowly.

"Truth? Truth about what?" Minato pressed, wondering where the heck this conversation was going. He saw his son take a deep breath.

"No…I can't…" Minato heard his son whimper and his heart gave a jolt as he saw red eyes staring back at him.

He hadn't noticed Naruto go into the transformation and instinctively went to his ninja pouch to pull a seal but fox Naruto was too quick and instead Minato found himself pinned, fox Naruto leaning over him, their noses touching. Minato tried to find his voice. Minato's heart began to eradictly beat and he tensed, trying to figure out what his son was up to. A game? Mock fight? He searched his son's face, trying to figure out what his son was asking of him. He felt fox Naruto's hand brush against his cheek in a…caress?

"If Naruto won't say it, then I'll just help him a little," fox Naruto crooned.

"S-say what? Oi! Get off!" Minato gasped, surprised at the force at which he was pinned, unable to push back. When had Naruto gotten this strong? Minato was actually a little scared…not that he'd ever show it.

"Hmm…lemme think about that…no…" fox Naruto leaned in and before Minato could protest, he felt his son's lips pressing forcefully against his own and stifled a gasp as a tongue shot out and began to prod Minato's own.

Squirming, Minato was shocked at the intensity of the kiss and he was torn between wanting to fight fox Naruto's tongue and finishing the kiss. No way…what the hell…Minato thought, as his saliva began to trickle down the side of his mouth from the intense kiss. Minato dind't want to hurt his son but fox Naruto was scaring him. He managed to break free from fox Naruto's kiss, and Minato attempted to gasp out, "We'll be seen! Stop controlling Naruto and leave-" but he was cut off as fox Naruto licked his ear. Feeling his face flush from embarrassment, Minato did his best to stay composed. He was more confused than anything else and fox Naruto relentlessly began to kiss Minato's neck. Minato instinctively attempted to kick fox Naruto off –hoping Naruto'd forgive him—and successfully landed a blow to fox Naruto's abdomen. In a flash, Minato was the one on top of fox Naruto.

"You get it now?" fox Naruto said quietly.

"G-get what? You…stop controlling my son for your own twisted ends!" Minato angrily lashed, his grip turning his knuckles white.

"Ouch…you're hurting me…" fox Naruto said quietly, gazing back intensely into Minato's eyes, satisfied to a see a tinge of blush in his cheeks.

"…If Naruto has something to say…then let Naruto be the one to say it!" Minato said angry, "…Don't use Naruto as an excuse to do …whatever it was you were doing with me!"

"…So…you'd accept if he was the one giving you the kisses?" fox Naruto said, raising an eyebrow.

"Wh-what?" Minato said, voice wavering, "No! Naruto isn't perverted like you!"

"…But if he was?..." fox Naruto said quietly, gazing at Minato's confused expression.

"…Naruto's my son, and …and so there's no way he'd do that…besides, I'm pretty damn sure he likes Hinata…" Minato said, face blushing without his consent.

"…But if he was?..." fox Naruto repeated quietly, and Minato yelped as he was overturned once again. He managed to pull out a seal and attempted to slap it to fox Naruto's forehead but his hands were intercepted and Minato found his hands bound with ninja wire, and winced, knowing that struggling would cause the wire to cut into his wrists.

"H-hey!" Minato yelped, "What the hell do you think you're doing with my son's body?!" He was taken aback by the red eyes that seemed to wrap around his field of vision.

"Well…I only said that I'd help Naruto express himself, and I am…" the fox Naruto said lightly.

"Y-Yang, seriously!" Minato flared, "leave my son alone! You're probably the one corrupting him, aren't you! You think it's funny! Is this a way to get payback against me?! Fine, but don't bring Naruto into this! He has nothing to do with whatever the hell it is you're doing! If you don't let me go and release my son, I will-"

"Yes?" fox Naruto crooned.

Minato struggled to think of what he could say that would sound threatening enough but nothing came to mind and he finished rather lamely, "…I'll ground you …"

Fox Naruto barked an amused laugh, and Minato knew how lame he'd sounded…it was almost as though he was treating Yang like a second –more corrupted—son. "From where I am…you're the one that's already grounded," and fox Naruto smirked at Minato.

Minato blushed, and tried to find his voice again as he felt an index finger traveling down his neck and to his chest. "…Naruto…Naruto!" Minato pleaded and saw as the finger paused, and those familiar blue eyes began to fade back in and Minato was once again, looking into the tired and worried expression of his son.

"Pa…" Naruto murmured and then he slumped against Minato. Minato knew that Naruto must've been tired from the mission and must've been struggling for control with Yang. Awkardly, Minato wrapped his arms around his son, and then sat up. He needed to get the ninja wire off and he wasn't going to let anyone see that he, Yondaime Hokage, had almost been topped by his own son. Blushing, Minato used his teeth to unravel the wire and was sucessful. Pocketing the wire, he hugged his son, who mumbled something about ramen and Minato smiled relieved. He was concerned though because if Yang could control Naruto, then he'd have to figure out some way to help Naruto prevent Yang from gaining control like that again. Minato carried Naruto on his back and went home.

CHAPTER 2b

Chapter 2b

"Addicted" (these next couple chapters are inspired by some of her songs :P they kinda explain Naruto's angst and how he feels and in a sense, they explain Minato a bit as well.)

Naruto nodded farewell to Kiba and Hinata, returning from their mission after a week in the Land of the Waves. Their mission had involved tracking down a kidnapped princess…nothing but the usual. As Naruto turned to leave, he felt a tentative hand grab his arm. Turning he saw Hinata, blushing but attempting to articulate to him while Naruto got the feeling that Kiba was watching with killer intent aimed at Naruto. Naruto had the feeling that Kiba liked Hinata which didn't bother Naruto…he liked Hinata but he had someone else dear in his heart…and it had taken the mission for him to realize this.

"U-um…Na-Naruto…." Hinata said shyly, "U-um…if-if you're not busy…u-um…want to go to….ichiraku?"

Naruto gave her his signature smile and jabbed his thumb in Kiba's direction. "Thanks Hinata, really, but I've got something I need to do…Why not take Kiba? He looks like he'd really like your company." Naruto smirked at Kiba and saw Kiba's face go red. Snickering, Naruto left, leaving a red faced Kiba stuttering to a blushing Hinata.

Strolling through the main market place, Naruto's mind wandered to his dad. He hoped his dad had gotten that sticky note…although his dad was up in the clouds a lot lately…so he may not have even noticed the note. Well…he'd asked Kakashi sensei to help him out with looking out for his dad, and Kakashi promised to let Naruto know if anything was up with his dad. Now I just need to figure out what the heck is wrong with me…Naruto scratched his head.

Oh…this is splendid… Naruto's heart skipped a beat. Yang!...What the hell…stay out of my thoughts! Naruto knew that he had to keep the yang fox in check or else Pervy Sage said that he could lose control. Not that Naruto was mad at the moment, just annoyed.

Well… I would normally because there is usually nothing up there except ramen…but what's this?... secret feelings for your dad? I wonder how well that'll work out…

Yang, if you say anything more…I'll seriously … Naruto faltered, not knowing what he could threaten the fox with.

I wonder how dissapointed he'll look… or shocked…I'd like to see that… Yang said, cheerfully annoying.

Naruto ignored Yang, trying not to think of the look on his dad's face if he knew. Naruto was still surprised himself when he'd had that strange dream while on the mission. He had been thinking about his dad and wondering if he was eating right…but then somehow he couldn't get his dad's fine features out of his mind. He thought it was just admiration, but usually those don't come with a turn-on… not unless these feelings of admiration were really…Naruto sighed.

Love was difficult and he had not planned on this…he was in love with his dad but he couldn't say anything…do anything… He'd tried liking Hinata. He really did try and he'd pursued Sakura when he was younger as what he thought then was just pure attraction. Now he realized it was just to mask the feelings he really felt…all the feelings he had for his dad, he'd vented into liking Sakura…but he didn't like Sakura, at least, now he realized not as a lover. He arrived a the hokage office, and stood outside the door, taking a deep breath but his hand paused on the handle as he heard snippets of the conversation coming from behind the closed doors.

" Well I personally think she's really loyal though, and in addition, she is kinda cute," Naruto heard his dad say with a praising tone. "She'd be really good I believe. I don't know how far back, but surely there was some connection that started. I'd know this feeling, trust me, and it's impossible to fight…"

Naruto tried to stop the stabbing pain he suddenly felt in his chest. He heard nothing and wondered who his dad was talking to. He heard Kakashi's voice after about a minute of silence. "Sensei…I am not like you and Kushina…at least, my love is…I'm not really into the whole love game you know? I find it rather annoying," Kakashi responded coolly.

"Same reason as you sensei," Kakashi said lightly, and Naruto couldn't quite catch the second half of Kakashi's statement because he could feel his heartbeat resounding in his ears.

"Ah…well, now that I think about it, if you don't mind, the stack to the left is just simple little matters…if you could help me distribute missions, that would be swell," Minato said cheerfully and Naruto knew his dad was switching subjects. That though, left Naruto with tumbling emotions inside. He knew his dad wouldn't love anyone in the way he loved Kushina…and that knowledge felt like a huge blow to Naruto. He shouldn't be hurt by it, he had the next best thing, a father's love but …this wasn't what he wanted…Then you should get what you want…

Yang, stay out of this! Naruto flared.

…You gonna just walk away from those feelings?

What the hell would you care? Leave me alone! Naruto snapped, and he knocked on the door, in order to distract himself from Yang. He was surprised to find his eyes watering slightly.

He saw his father's taken aback expression and Kakashi's poker expression and his cheeks flushed. He turned and ran away, realizing he didn't know how to face his dad at the moment. Dashing through the bustling market, Naruto willed himself not to cry. He had no reason to. He would do it, he would bury these newly discovered feelings…he couldn't ever hurt his dad…not for anything or any reason. Even if it meant that he would never get to see certain sides of his dad, even if his heart would never be Naruto's…Naruto choked by a frustrated sob as he came to the training grounds. It happened in a second, and Naruto found big arms wrapped around him as he tumbled into the grass with an "oof!" which his dad shared.

"Naruto! Let me explain please?" his father pleaded, panting.

"No…nothin' to explain," Naruto said bitterly.

"NO look, I was trying to help Kakashi, I don't have interest in Rin, she's a decade younger than me! And you know I can't forget about your mother!" his dad rushed but was surprised when Naruto hugged him back real tight. Naruto closed his eyes and tried to forget, tried his best to bury the hurt and the pain. To discover that his most important person would never love him the way that he wanted to be loved…both smelled like grass, and a light breeze picked up ruffling through their hair. The three upright logs and memorial stone was off to their far left. The stream water was calmly trickling and they could both hear it well since their senses were super-human.

"That's…not what's bothering me," Naruto whispered, clinging to his dad's warmth, and not being able to recall the last time his dad had hugged him like this.

"It- It's not?" his dad inquired tentatively.

"No…." Naruto buried his face into his father's chest and felt his father wrap his arms around him, and held back the tears that were threatening to take over although a few betrayed him and rolled down his cheeks.

"Then..what is it?" his father tentatively inquired, cupping Naruto's face in his hands and a worried expression taking over and Naruto glanced down, realizing that his father's eyes were really captivating.

"…Nothin'…I just got something in my eyes is all…may be the pollen in the air or something," Naruto lamely said, as he tried to push his dad away but his dad refused to budge.

"You can't lie to me…" his dad said quietly, nestling his head into Naruto's chest.

"…I suppose not…" Naruto said quietly, although he didn't want to lie to his dad…he just didn't want to tell the truth. Tell him….

"Well….if you really don't want to tell me…" Naruto didn't like when his father worriedly frowned but there was no way he could tell his dad that his dad was the reason for his pain…it's not like his dad was being cruel intentionally. Tell him…

"No it's not about lying…it's about telling the truth…" Naruto said slowly.

"Truth? Truth about what?" his father pressed, and Naruto knew he was wondering where the heck this conversation was going.

If you don't tell him…then I will personally help you get your message across you pansy…

"No…I can't…" Naruto panicked, feeling a strange force pull him away and he was startled to see that he could see all that was going on…from inside his own head. Kyuubi you jack ass! Let me go!

I'll let you go if you can admit to him your feelings, The fox challenged.

Naruto couldn't confess, no way!

Naruto saw as his dad went to his ninja pouch to pull a seal but then watched as the fox's reflexes were quicker and instead his father found himself pinned, fox Naruto leaning over him, their noses touching. Naruto's heart skipped a beat, he had never been that close to his father's face since he had been a small child. He watched as his father tried to find his voice. Naruto knew his dad was searching his son's face, trying to figure out what his son was asking of him. Naruto gew angry as he watched fox Naruto's hand brush against his father's cheek in a seductive manner.

"If Naruto won't say it, then I'll just help him a little,"fox Naruto crooned. Finding his voice, Naruto yelled inside his head, "Kyuubi! You damn perverted fox, let the fuck go of my Pa!" He struggled for control, upset at the fact that he was trapped within his own mind while the fox was using him to expose his feelings for his dad! Naruto was so scared.

Naruto's heart gave a small start as his father stammered confused,"S-say what? Oi! Get off!" Naruto knew his father was undoubtly surprised at the force at which he was pinned, unable to push back. As much as Naruto hated to admit it…his father looked kinda sexy pinned. Face blushing a crimson red, he shook his head, knowing that he had to focus if he was to regain control of his body.

"Hmm…lemme think about that…no…" he heard Yang's sarcastic voice. Fox Naruto leaned in and Naruto's knees buckled as he gasped, feeling whatever it was that the fox naruto was feeling. Putting his hand to his lips, Naruto couldn't deny that he had wanted to kiss his father for some time now…but he had wanted to do so on his own terms…when he was ready and only if his father was ok with it.

Watching his dad squirming, Naruto watched as his dad's saliva began to trickle down the side of his mouth from the intense kiss. His father managed to break free from fox Naruto's kiss, and attempted to gasp out, "We'll be seen! Stop controlling Naruto and leave-" but he was cut off as fox Naruto licked his ear. Let's push him just a little…you know you had thoughts like these yourself… Naruto felt his face heat up as his dad's cheeks began to fill with a rosy color. Naruto knew his father was doing his best to remain composed. Fox Naruto relentlessly began to kiss his father's neck. Kyuubi, you are so dead when I get free! Naruto yelled mentally. He doubled over as he felt a sudden blow to his abdomen. In a flash, Minato was the one on top of fox Naruto and Naruto couldn't help but feel a little turned on at the thought of his dad being on top.

"You get it now?" fox Naruto said quietly to his father, and Naruto knew that tone of voice was a challenge.

"G-get what? You…stop controlling my son for your own twisted ends!" he heard his father angrily lash, his grip turning his knuckles white. Naruto winced, feeling the pain in his wrists from the force he was gripping fox Naruto's wrists.

"Ouch…you're hurting me…" fox Naruto said quietly, gazing back intensely into Naruto's dad's eyes, and Naruto knew the damn fox was satisfied to a see a tinge of blush in his father's cheeks.

"…If Naruto has something to say…then let Naruto be the one to say it!" his father said angry, "…Don't use Naruto as an excuse to do …whatever it was you were doing with me!"

Naruto's heart sank.

"…So…you'd accept if he was the one giving you the kisses?" fox Naruto said, raising an eyebrow.

"Wh-what?" his father said, voice wavering, "No! Naruto isn't perverted like you!"

Naruto could feel the pain coming back with his father's words.

"…But if he was?..." fox Naruto said quietly, and Naruto could see his father' confused expression. It was ripping him apart inside.

"…Naruto's my son, and …and so there's no way he'd do that…besides, I'm pretty damn sure he likes Hinata…" his father said, face blushing.

Stop…Kyuubi…

"…But if he was?..." fox Naruto repeated quietly, and Naruto heard as his dad yelped as he was overturned once again. His father managed to pull out a seal and attempted to slap it to fox Naruto's forehead but his hands were intercepted and his father found his hands bound with ninja wire, and winced. Kyuubi…that's enough… I'll tell him! I'll tell him on my own terms!

Well…it was either you or me getting the message to him…you've finally come around …honesty isn't that something that your village parrots?

Some things…are better left unsaid… Naruto thought deflatedly.

"H-hey!" his father yelped as Naruto saw through Yang's eyes the impact his actions were having on his dad, "What the hell do you think you're doing with my son's body?!"

"Well…I only said that I'd help Naruto express himself, and I am…" the fox Naruto said lightly.

"Y-Yang, seriously!" Naruto's dad flared, "leave my son alone! You're probably the one corrupting him, aren't you! You think it's funny! Is this a way to get payback against me?! Fine, but don't bring Naruto into this! He has nothing to do with whatever the hell it is you're doing! If you don't let me go and release my son, I will-"

No way I can confess, Yang you've ruined everything! Even if he doesn't blame me… he'll…definently not accept me…I just know it…

You are pretty weak for a damn mouthy brat aren't you? Where is all that usual gusto that has me running up the walls? Well fine, you be all dejected and shit. I'm gonna have a little fun myself since I may not get this opportunity again…

"Yes?" fox Naruto crooned.

Don't you dare…Yang… Naruto sat crosslegged and began taking deep breaths. He'd gather his energy and use it all at once…the burst of chakra should be enough for him to expell the red chakra surrounding him. Taking deep breaths, he tried to ignore the strange sense of arousal that the damn fox was causing him to feel. He could hear the conversation between Yang and his dad.

Naruto's dad finished rather lamely, "…I'll ground you …"

Fox Naruto barked an amused laugh, "From where I am…you're the one that's already grounded," and fox Naruto smirked at Naruto's father.

His father blushed, and tried to find his voice again as the fox slowly trailed an index finger down Naruto's dad's neck and to his father's chest. Messing with your dad. Is fun. I wonder…how he'll react to some of your other fantasies…I am only expressing one of your fantasies Naruto. Wonder what he would do if I touched his chest a little… Using your method of course... I believe …his nipples were next? Naruto could feel the heat creep into his face and he focused his concentration even harder. A trigger was what Naruto needed to give him that sudden burst of energy. Anger would only make the fox stronger…Naruto didn't want his dad to be scarred by the damn fox…or his feelings and he heard his father's pleading voice, "…Naruto…Naruto!" That did it.

With energy bubbling up, Naruto's eyes snapped open and glowed an intense chakra blue. The fox recoiled and Naruto knew he was in charge again. His index finger dropped from where it had been hovering over his father's chest and weakly Naruto murmured,"Pa…" and then he slumped against his dad, feeling incredibly drained from pushing the fox out of control. He welcomed the pull of his unconciousness.

CHAPTER 3a

Chapter 3

"Where Is Your Heart" (Kelly Clarkson inspired)

Minato gently laid his son onto his bed and gazed down at him. Thoughts rolled around in his mind and he was worried about the fact that the kyuubi had taken control…not to mention the things it'd done. Minato felt the heat creep onto his neck and he rubbed his neck, shaking himself from that memory. His son hadn't been in control and he knew the fox must've been trying to create a rift between him and his son. No way I'd believe that farce…Naruto isn't like that…Minato thought confidently.

His son stirred and Minato brushed his hand against Naruto's bangs, and smiled as his son slowly awoke.

"P-pa?" Naruto said in a rather small tentative voice. Minato smiled warmly at his son.

"Yes, I'm here, it's ok. You're back to your usual self I presume? How do you feel?" Minato inquired.

"…I feel ok…a little tired but…" Naruto brushed his father's hand off his face.

"Has….the fox been able to control your body before?" Minato asked serious now.

"…No…it was my fault…I-I guess I got mad…" Naruto said, looking away from his dad.

"Mad?...was it me?" Minato asked, feeling a pang and trying to wrack his mind to figure out what he could've done. He felt a light touch on his arm and Naruto shook his head.

"No, it wasn't you dad…you know I can't stay mad at you heh," and Naruto smiled, looking at his father warmly but Minato could detect a rather sad glint in his son's eyes.

"If it wasn't me…then who or…was it the fox then?"

"Yes…the fox was being annoying…more so than usual…I'm sorry…I didn't think…" Naruto's voice trailed off and he looked away, and Minato saw a blush creep onto his son's ears. He felt an odd sense inside him…a strange rush but backed away mentally from whatever it was.

He smiled assuringly at his son, and patted his son on his head, "I know it wasn't your doing…don't worry about it, what's past is past," and he ruffled his son's hair. His son was silent for longer than Minato expected and he glanced into his son's eyes, which refused to make eye contact with him.

"Pa…" Naruto's voice was soft and he gazed at Minato. Minato tried to read his son's expression but couldn't figure out what was tormenting his son so much. He'd already said that he didn't blame Naruto for the sudden attack from Kyuubi but…

You really don't get it, do you… Yin sighed, snarking at Minato. Minato attempted to put up a barrier but Yin seemed to have more control than Minato thought and he ended up using more than half his chakra to contain the fox from further speaking. He didn't want to do that…and he felt a little hypocrytical after earlier discussing trying to understand Kyuubi better, but the fox was not looking for pleasantries…just to be annoying and raucous.

"Pa…I…" Minato's attention was brought back to his son, who had sat up. Minato sat on the edge of the bed, and waited patiently for his son to organize his thoughts and speak. He patted his son on the head again and smiled warmly.

"It's ok…I have to get back to the office… just rest here ok?" Minato spoke fatherly to his son and felt Naruto's arms around his neck and shoulders. Feeling his son leaning against him, Minato couldn't help but wrap his own arms around his son. He felt Naruto's rapid heart beat and wondered if the Kyuubi taking control had scared his son more than he was letting on. He hugged his son back comfortingly, and petted his head gently.

"Please…don't go…" Naruto whispered.

Minato blinked surprised and saw a sad light shining in his son's eyes. Taken aback and not quite sure what to say, Minato shot Naruto his own personal signature grin and ruffled his son's hair while disassembling himself from Naruto's hug. "I'll try to get off early ok?... I can have Kakashi and some other good friends of mine help me out …I'll explain that you just need a little more looking after until tomorrow, but I do need to get back…that paperwork isn't going to do itself," Minato joked lightly.

He felt Naruto stubbornly grab his arm and he heard Naruto's trembling voice, "Pa…please…I…I need you…" his voice was small and Minato was ready to abandon his duty of Hokage right then and there to just be with his son. He steeled himself though and brushed his son's grasp off.

"I'll be back as early as I can…I can see about taking tomorrow off, that is if you don't anything in particular planned," Minato murmured, and despite his original intent to leave, he couldn't help but give his son one final hug. His son finally slackened his grip on him and before Minato could move, he felt soft gentle lips kiss his cheek. He blinked surprised and pulled back.

"Heh…I haven't done that since…well…I was eight…." Naruto said sheepishly and Minato detected a note of teasing in his son's next line, "Don't tell me you don't miss that side of me, I'm older but I'll always be your little boy huh?"

Minato was relieved to see his son bouncing back to his usual self and he smiled. "Yeah…" he said honestly, "I…did miss that… " He in turn, slipped his son's headband off, and leaning in, kissed his son on his forehead and felt his son shift in surprise.

"Pa?" his son asked confused.

Minato realized what he'd done and his face blushed. "Ah no…it's just…I missed…kissing your forehead …." He admitted weakly.

Naruto smiled and hugged his dad again, "It's ok…can you do it?...just once more before you go…"

Minato didn't see anything wrong with Naruto's innocent request, and after what Naruto had just gone through, if it would help Naruto bounce back, Minato was more than happy to oblige. He kissed his son on his forehead once more and then felt Naruto gently pushing him away. "Ok, I'm good, you can go to work now, don't worry about me ok?" Naruto said, and grinned his mischievious grin and he hopped out of bed and Minato stood up as well.

"Alright…why don't you do something relaxing…come by later and we'll make a stop by ichiraku…how does that sound?" Minato said, messing up his son's hair do teasingly. Naruto swatted at his dad and Minato couldn't help but notice that although Naruto had all the mannerisms of someone that had recovered, his eyes…were still a sad intense blue.

"Sounds awesome dad," Naruto grinned. "Simply bodacious."

"Bodacious?" Minato cocked an eyebrow amused.

"It' s a real word," Naruto said smiling.

"Do you even know what it means?" his dad teased.

"Nope, but it sounds fitting," Naruto grinned giving his dad his signature grin.

"Alright then," Minato chuckled and with a final tussle of his son's hair, he left his son's bedroom and headed for the office. He'd definently make time for Ichiraku ramen with his son this evening. In the meantime…he had work to do…he had to find a way to prevent the fox from taking control of his son again…as well as protect himself in case Yin got any funny ideas.

CHAPTER 3b

Chapter 3b

"Where Is Your Heart" (Kelly Clarkson inspired)

Naruto could feel himself being lightly taken somewhere. Slipping in and out, he wasn't entirely sure where. The fox was no longer talking to him and Naruto knew that was because his chakra and the seal was working together to contain the fox for the time being from doing anything like that again. He felt a gentle brush against his hair and Naruto began to stir, feeling a little groggy.

"P-pa?" Naruto said in a rather small tentative voice. His father smiled warmly at Naruto and Naruto's secret began to eat away at his heart again.

"Yes, I'm here, it's ok. You're back to your usual self I presume? How do you feel?" His father inquired and Naruto's heart thumped, hearing that soothing gentle tone pained him at the moment.

"…I feel ok…a little tired but…" Naruto brushed his father's hand off his face.

"Has….the fox been able to control your body before?" his father asked serious now.

"…No…it was my fault…I-I guess I got mad…" Naruto said, looking away from his dad.

"Mad?...was it me?" his father asked. Naruto shook his head and touched his dad's arm lightly.

"No, it wasn't you dad…you know I can't stay mad at you heh," and Naruto smiled, looking at his father warmly but he wondered if his dad would stay mad at him if he knew…

"If it wasn't me…then who or…was it the fox then?" his father pressed and Naruto knew he couldn't say that the fox was actually playing out what Naruto had dreamt about…it was the fox's fault for what happened but he didn't quite know how to express this. He didn't know how to say "I'm sorry that Kyuubi took over and almost raped you based on my wet-dream I had of you while off on a mission" to his dad. He winced as his father's words, "But Naruto isn't like that! I'm pretty damn sure he likes Hinata!"… he couldn't tell his father that he didn't love Hinata…he loved his dad. Not as his dad…but as an equal. He wanted to be able to call his dad, Minato. He knew it sounded weird but he wished he could call his father Minato to establish the kind of relationship that Naruto was asking for.

"Yes…the fox was being annoying…more so than usual…I'm sorry…I didn't think…" Naruto's voice trailed off as he remembered the feel of his dad's tongue in his mouth, reluctant but still responsive and felt a blush creep in. He hoped his dad didn't notice.

His father smiled assuringly at Naruto, and Naruto felt the playful but nurturing patting of his head, "I know it wasn't your doing…don't worry about it, what's past is past," and Naruto felt his hair get ruffled teasingly again. Sorry dad…I hate to admit it…but it's not entirely not my doing… Naruto didn't have the guts to reveal this to his dad and his heart sank further within himself as he realized the reality of his situation. He could never tell his dad how he felt. Not without seeing dissapointment…and he didn't want his father to no longer want to be around him anymore.

"Pa…" Naruto's voice was soft and he gazed at Minato. What the hell could he say to his father? His father trusted him completely. Naruto would have to try to bury his feelings…there was nothing else for it but he was sure he wouldn't love anyone the way he loved Minato. His father was the most important person in the world to him…he knew that his mother would've been flabbergasted if she were alive…but she wasn't. Naruto was all Minato had left and Naruto…secretly a part of him wanted his father to depend on him…to come to him and to be together. Naruto wanted to be together.

"Pa…I…" Naruto sat up in his bed, and his father gazed at him from where he sat on the edge of the bed. Naruto willed himself to not get swept into Minato's eyes…his father's eyes…but he wanted to call him Minato. He wanted to treat him as Minato and not as Pa. He was confused as to what his feelings were telling him but he was sure of one thing. He loved his father…he loved Minato. Naruto felt the same gentle hand pat his head again, and realized that his dad's hand that once been so big, was now only slightly larger than Naruto's. His father smiled warmly. Naruto knew he couldn't address his father as Pa for much longer…he thought bitterly of having to leave the village and everything he knew because it was tearing him apart to not be able to be with his dad as an equal, as a lover… He couldn't explain these feelings, they were just there. He only felt a rush from Minato's attention, from his gaze, from the gentle caresses and warm hugs that were meant for him. The rare moments when Minato…his father…was truly his. Naruto began to look at his dad as Minato instead.

"It's ok…I have to get back to the office… just rest here ok?" Minato spoke fatherly to his son and felt Naruto's arms around his neck and shoulders. Naruto leaned against his father, wondering if Minato could feel his heart beat. Minato leaned and hugged Naruto back, patting his head briefly.

"Please…don't go…" Naruto whispered.

Naruto saw Minato shoot him his own personal signature grin and felt his hair being playfully ruffled as he was disassembling himself from Naruto's hug. "I'll try to get off early ok?... I can have Kakashi and some other good friends of mine help me out …I'll explain that you just need a little more looking after until tomorrow, but I do need to get back…that paperwork isn't going to do itself," Minato joked lightly.

Naruto stubbornly grab his arm and Naruto said in a trembling voice, "Pa…please…I…I need you…" his voice was small and he knew his father was struggling between going and not going. Seeing that his worth was more important in Minato's eyes, made Naruto feel the pain only sharper as he knew it was only a father's love he'd ever get from Minato.

"I'll be back as early as I can…I can see about taking tomorrow off, that is if you don't anything in particular planned," Minato murmured but he hugged Naruto anyways and Naruto didn't know why he impulsively did was he did, but when when he finally slackened his grip on Minato's arm, before Minato could move, he kissed Minato's cheek gently. He saw Minato blink surprised and pull back.

"Heh…I haven't done that since…well…I was eight…." Naruto said sheepishly, and he knew he had to think of something fast to lighten the mood and so he joked, "Don't tell me you don't miss that side of me, I'm older but I'll always be your little boy huh?"

Naruto felt a pang as he saw Minato was relieved to see his son bouncing back to his usual self –unsuspecting—of Naruto's hidden desires and true intentions. That was why, he was surprised when his father smiled. "Yeah…" he said honestly, "I…did miss that… " Before Naruto had time to react, he felt his headband slip from his forehead and his heart beat wildly in his chest as he felt his father's lips brush against his forehead and he shifted in surprise.

"Pa?" Naruto asked confused.

Naruto's heart lurched as he saw his father's face blush innocently. "Ah no…it's just…I missed…kissing your forehead …." He admitted weakly. Naruto didn't know what to say. He missed them too…he had asked his father to stop with them when he was around eight because he thought it was unmanly. But now…

Naruto smiled and hugged his dad again, "It's ok…can you do it?...just once more before you go…"

Naruto anticipated as his father leaned in and kissed him once more gently…lovingly…but not the kind of love Naruto was looking for and Naruto gently pushed him away. "Ok, I'm good, you can go to work now, don't worry about me ok?" Naruto said, and grinned his mischievious grin and he hopped out of bed and Minato stood up as well.

"Alright…why don't you do something relaxing…come by later and we'll make a stop by ichiraku…how does that sound?" Minato said, messing up his son's hair do teasingly. Naruto swatted at his dad and did his best to seem like his care-free usual self.

"Sounds awesome dad," Naruto grinned. "Simply bodacious."

"Bodacious?" Minato cocked an eyebrow amused.

"It' s a real word," Naruto said smiling, relieved that his father seemed to not have noticed anything…although he felt a pang because if his father had pressed him more…Naruto didn't know whether to feel bitter or thankful that his father didn't press him.

"Do you even know what that means?" his dad teased.

Naruto grinned his signature grin and said, "Nope, but it sounds fitting."

"Alright then," Minato chuckled and tussled Naruto's hair once more. Naruto loved the feeling of Minato's fingers…slightly less calloused since he hadn't been on a field mission in a while and his fingers were rather firm but still felt gentle…soft. The moment ended and he watched as his father left his room. Naruto sat on the edge of his bed once he was sure that his father had left for work and put his head in his hands. Where is your heart…cause I don't really feel you… Naruto didn't know how to reach his father on that deeper emotional level… he was torn besides wanting to pursue his father regardless of the consequences…I need to stop thinking of him as my father…first off…Minato….huh… it oddly feels natural…. "Minato…" Naruto whispered. "Minato…" it did feel a little odd but…saying Minato filled Naruto with longing. He knew his father would find it strange to hear his son call him by his first name. Naruto wasn't doing it out of anger or anything though, he had a deeper reason behind his desire to call his father by his first name. Naruto didn't know what to do. He wondered if he should go to ichiraku that evening with his dad or just stay in. No, in the end Naruto didn't want to miss out on a chance to go to Ichiraku with Minato. Minato, he'd definently start getting used to using his father's real name. From then on, Naruto noted to try his best to avoid using Pa in his sentences. He just hoped Minato wouldn't catch on.

A/N: SO yes, I can't get into my other account...here is a recap of the first 6 chapters...chapter 4a and 4b and up will go back to being individual but I didn't feel like uploading these all in separate so... yes. I will probably end up publishing the longest fanfic of all time or not :P but yes...enjoy BD. ANd there is actual plot and emotion and stuff to this...xD I dunno...I wrote this because I was influenced by a good fellow fanficker of mine ^.^. I honestly haven't written any incest pieces before this one...