Hidden In My Heart
By Kari
A/N: I wrote this on a whim (a very sad one...) when I read some ficcy... God, this is gonna suck, but I am NOT in a good mood at all right now (for some reason a lot of my bad days are on Sundays... that's supposed to be a good, church day, not a feeling sorry for yourself day... oh well.) So just bear with me, okay? I can't believe I'm writing any form of poetry... or anything that faintly resembles it... I used to do it a lot, but not as much anymore, it kinda stopped when I found out I could write some halfway decent stories. This has kind of a personal touch to it, but the story in the poem isn't happening to me... I just felt like writing it. Well, hope you all like this, even though it's kinda sad... Go ahead and apply this to whatever couple you want, I don't care right now...
Kari (not gonna put my trademark smiley here cuz... well, I'm not smiling...)
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Watching you from
a distance
You walk up to me
My heart starts to race
But my feelings are hidden in my heart
The usual friendly
hug is your greeting
How I'd like that to mean more
I wonder if you feel anything towards me than friendship
But my curiosity is hidden in my heart
We start to talk
about the usual
The new things, the grades, the hobbies
I love the sound of your voice and your laugh
But my loves are hidden in my heart
You smile as your
look goes dreamy
My heart jumps to my throat
Could you be looking at ME that way?
But the question is hidden in my heart
You answered it
with a name...
A name that wasn't mine...
I feel the strong urge to cry as my heart shatters
But the pieces are hidden in my heart
I plastered on a
smile and offered to help
Your shyness kept you from telling her
I'll help you my love, because when you're happy, I am...
But the emotion is hidden in my heart
I feel myself
walking towards her
I don't believe I'm actually doing this
Giving you up without a fight
But the disbelief is hidden in my heart
"Do you like
him?" I hear myself asking
She blushes and nods at the question
I beat myself up as I walk back to you
But the battle is hidden in my heart
I tell you the
good news, though bad for me
And your face lights up in delight
How I wish your face would light up like that because of me
But the wish is hidden in my heart
I sit and watch
you walk over to her
You talk for a moment then kiss her gently
I wanted to die as I watched you and her
But the desire is hidden in my heart
You walk back over
and hug me
I blandly whisper congratulations
You leave me forever to be with that girl
And my hurt is hidden in my heart
So many cracks and
holes in my poor shattered heart
As I sit here alone thinking of you
I'm surprised my heart can hide anything anymore
But the shock is hidden in my heart
I lost you in my
silence
I lost a part of me when I asked that question
That part kept me alive, can't you see that?
But it's too late... that part was hidden in my heart
You're gone
forever to be with this girl
If only I had told you sooner
Maybe I wouldn't have to hide in myself anymore
But it's too late...
You were in my heart
But you're gone...
Nothing remains hidden in my heart.
A/N: See? I'm not feeling well right now. Oh well. Just watch tomorrow, I'll be up and happy like I usually am, don't worry... this phase will pass quickly. Maybe I should go read some fluffy Taioras or Takaris to make me feel better... *heads to Logan's and Whit's author pages* *and Lace123's page... I need to read Christmas Angels, that's such a kawaii story!* Well, that's about all the sad attempts for poetry you can expect from me for now... I need some sleep. Oh and don't worry, these little bouts of depression aren't an often thing at all... they're just leftover residue from when I really WAS depressed. Okay, enough of my life story, I feel like I'm fishing for sympathy (WHICH I'm not, I hate doing that.)
Kari :I ---- feeling a TINY bit better for some reason...