Summery: He always assumed, and that was his downfall. xxxChannyxxx.
Too Much Assuming
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She left me.
She broke up with me.
Honestly, I always believed that I would be the one that broke up with her. Then, she would throw a huge tantrum, and run away from me. Then, the next couple of days she would try to win me back. I assumed this. I didn't bother thinking that assuming would back fire on me. It never did.
I should have known that she was different. I knew this from day one. I don't know how it passed my mind. I automatically treated her as any other girlfriend I had. I shouldn't have been so casual as to assume that nobody would break up with me. I shouldn't have assumed anything with her.
Thinking back, I assumed a lot of things about our relationship. I assumed that I would be the one that would run it. I assumed what she liked, forgetting for a moment that she was different from all the others. I forgot that she wasn't ordinary. She was unique - special.
I admit - somewhat - that I care about her deeply - more than any one else, that was for sure. What exact emotion I felt for her...I don't know.
I love her laugh. I love her quirky sense of humor. I love that she can stand up to me. She was a challenge, and I loved it. Everyday was different. It was fun.
Everyone naturally assumed - again - that we wouldn't last. They assumed that I would break up with her in a week because we were too different. It was like she was on one end of the spectrum and I was on the other. There was a pool going around for it in the studio.
We showed them, though. We lasted a total of three weeks, eighteen hours, and thirty minutes. I counted. That's all I could do when she announced it. I was frozen. I was so buried deep in assumption that I completely forgot. She wasn't like every other girl I dated, and I loved her for that.
My mom always told me that I assumed too much, and that one day it was be my downfall. My mom was right, she always was.
All my life I assumed things - since it easy. I assumed that I was the best thing that had ever happened to Mackenzie Falls - but, now...This opened my eyes a little bit. I assumed that girls would always want me, and line up, for a chance to go out with me. Too much assuming...
I guess.
Some people try to be discrete, some don't. I still hear and see them when they point at me as I walk by, and whisper that someone actually broke up with me, not the other way around. All of them were in awe that it wasn't me doing the dumping.
They still pointed, and mocked me while I was - am numb. I didn't care - for the first time in my life, I didn't care what others thought. I couldn't feel anything. I was - am empty. I never expected that twist of event - never.
I miss her.
It's so lonely with out her by my side.
I tried everything I could to get her out of my mind. Nothing worked. I tried dating someone else. There were girls that wanted to comfort me, and they lined up for it, too - that disappointed me. All I could do is put up a wall blocking them from me.
They weren't like her.
While dating gave me some emotional support, what with all their fawning...It still didn't work. Guilt always crawled into me. Why? Again, I don't know.
I tried not dating. That felt a little better. It felt like I wasn't betraying her - although why should I feel like I'm betraying her? It's over. I don't really get it.
Now, my life is...
In shambles.
I assumed and that was my downfall.
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a/n: Wow. I'm writing a lot of angsty stuff. I guess just to get it out of my system before school starts tomorrow.
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