Author's Note did you miss me??????? Well I am back with a story 8th grade has started so I have been busy with everything including homework EW!! And don't know how good this is I was bored and wanted to write something so I just started writing but here it is…
Summary Ellie's life is taking a turn towards destruction and with her best friends off with their boyfriends will Ellie turn towards a razor for support or find someone else to save her someone she thought she would never see again? Sean/Ellie AU
Disclaimer blah blah blah I don't own Degrassi blah blah blah we all know that so READ
ELLIE POVI covered my head with a pillow and sighed time for another day at Degrassi C.S. another day I got to spend alone with no friends no boy friend no one because unlike me everyone else was moving on with their lives and I was still stuck in the past stuck on the Monday after the shooting the day he left. No, no time to think about that. Time for me to get my lazy ass out of bed and to school
Rubbing my eyes I let my cold feet touch the floor and I trudged over to my closet. I grabbed my trademark plaid skirt a pair of red arm warmers and a black and white shirt with ¾ sleeves so none of my scars (and slightly new cuts) would show
Making my way downstairs I heard the sound of snoring come from the couch my mom was already drunk no surprise there I shook the thought from my mind grabbed a granola bar and rushed out the door. Degrassi was about a mile away so if I started running I wouldn't be late for class.
As usual the front steps of the school were covered with students I pushed through them ignoring the stares I got as I passed and entered the building.
Marco was next to my locker tapping his fingers on the cold metal obviously waiting for me and I ignored him and started turning my lock right, Le-
"Hey Ellie." He said quietly as if he hasn't ignored me since he started dating Dylan I finished turning my lock and yanked on the locker handle
" Damnit." I muttered re doing my combo
"Um did I miss something?" Marco said confused
" You made me mess up my combination." I snapped back glaring at Marco. He took a few steps back becoming slightly afraid with each minute that passed
"Did I do something wrong El?" I pulled open my locker and threw my books inside
" No you didn't that's exactly it you've been to wrapped up in Dylan to notice I have been having problems of my own." He blinked a few times and a look of shock came over his face
" Are you… are you alright you didn't a know cau-"
" You know what just forget I said anything." I slammed my locker shut and stormed away into the girl's bathroom. Breathing Heavily I paced the bathroom what was wrong with me? I ran into a stall and locking the door I pulled out my c.d. case. I carefully slipped out one of my razors because a razor= a guaranteed long deep cut. I pressed the razor to my wrist and slowly slid it across. I felt relived but it wasn't enough. So I found a new spot on my wrist and slid it across again. Blood dripped from the cut and I made another and another each one getting slightly deeper and longer.
Pressing the razor to my wrist for the 5th time I told myself that this was the last one. That's when I heard the door slam open. I jumped and felt the razor dig deeply into my arm. I pulled it out and watched in horror as the no not dripped flowed in a stream down my arm. My vision blurred as I heard someone saying something in the distance. I felt my self fall to the ground and closed my eyes for what I thought would be that last time ever.
MANNY POV" Liberty, I think it's time you finally forgive Emma." I said sighing it wasn't fun being in the middle of two people fighting especially if those two people were two best friends.
" Manny, Emma is a backstabbing leech who would do anything to make herself happy even if it means making you miserable." Liberty Scowled and walked into the bathroom stopping in front of the mirror to fix her hair. I rolled my eyes and pulled my long hair into a ponytail leaning forward to fix my make up I said.
" Okay whatever my house after school we could study or hang out we have that big test in History coming up and you're the smartest person I know."
" I don't know Manny J.T. Said he wanted to study if you know what I mean." Liberty smirked at me through the mirror and I mimicked someone throwing up.
" Ok Ew never mind what bout Friday?"
" Sounds go-" a loud thud came from the last stall and we looked at each other.
" Hello… anyone in here?" I called. No answer. I cautiously walked to the back with liberty by my side looking down at the floor.
" Look," I said pointing to the ground Liberty followed my gaze and we both gasped. Someone was laying on the ground someone with a skull and cross bone back I only knew one person with a backpack like that.
" Ellie?" I asked. No answer. I put my fingernail in the lock and turned it pushing the door open I saw something I did not expect Ellie Nash was laying on the ground arm drenched in blood with a stained razor beside her.