Faith in Love – Reba and Rascal Flatts
The Doctor and Rose song fan fic
You felt this coming on, you've seen it for a while
But there are no regrets between us
We have to talk about it, what we've always known
The hardest parts about today is tonight we'll be alone
"I love you." Rose stammered as The Doctor began to fade in front of her.
The Doctor smiled. "I know." A pause then, "Rose Tyler I..." Then he was gone and Rose felt so alone.
She sat up quickly as she looked around her room. She felt fresh tears roll down her face. She had been dreaming that dream forever. Ever since he left.
"Rose, Rose you okay?" Her mother walked in all worried.
Like always. She worries too much bout me. I have a little sibling now. That is who she should be worrying about. There she goes getting ready to baby me again.
"Rose darling you have to call him." Her mother murmured as she sat down next to Rose on the bed. She pulled Rose close to her and ran a hand through her daughters long blond hair.
I sighed letting her baby me. Partly cause she would not sleep again till she knew I was alright. I was getting use to this routine. Though Mum was right, I should call him. I did still have my magic phone so to speak. It let me talk to anyone. Anywhere, anytime even across universes.
"Okay I will give him a ring in tomorrow." Rose told her mother quietly. This seemed to satisfied her mother at the moment.
"Okay now get back to sleep. You got work tomorrow." She kissed Rose on the forehead and stood up. "Night dear." She turned once more to look and Rose then headed back to her and her husband's room.
I lay back down and closed my eyes letting the tears come. Why was love so bloody hard? I really did not think I would get anymore sleep tonight. I missed him so much! The Doctor, MY Doctor.
We were just two hearts
Bound for different roads
Why they didn't lead us to forever
We may never know
Oh, I will carry you with me
I will hold on to our memories
Don't let the dreams we didn't find make you feel like giving up
Keep holding on
And don't lose your faith in love
Rose soon fell asleep though her dreams were still full of The Doctor. She had no idea across time and space the Doctor was thinking of her as well.
Oh Rose, if only I had been able to rescue you and tell you that I too loved you. I am alone once again. I really miss my Rose Tyler. I don't like travailing without you.
The Doctor groaned. He had lost so many companions. Too many. He could not even save that girl from dying on the space cruise Titanic. He had tried but he had been too late.
Then I lost Martha cause she loved me but, I could never love her. Then there was Donna who was not even able to remember her adventures with me or she would die! I almost got Rose back then I lost her again. I wish I could retire but, a Time Lord can never retire. It is our destiny and mission to travel through time and space until the end of time and so on.
The Doctor shook his head. His double had Rose now even though he knew John was not the same as him. He smirked at that.
I cannot believe he chose John Doctor as his new name. He had refused to use John Smith like I always did. I know Rose loves him but not the same way she loves me. I have to get back to her. There is no other option.
Moving a few buttons on the Tardis console it jerked, knocking him off his feet. He would get Rose back even if it was to only say he loved her. It had to be the answer there was no other option.
Or was there? She had a right to be happy. I should not stop her. She and John should get married and be happy. I should not stop her. She knows I love her and she has to move on. But can I move on as well? Can't I just let her be? I have to let her go. She will die eventually and I can't handle loosing the women I love again.
Not like that. My whole family dead. I can't handle it again. Even though I love her in more ways then one.
Life's gonna move on and the pages have to turn
We'll be stronger people now
From the lessons that we have learned
This one's gonna hurt, It's a little deeper break
But just know I'm praying for you
As I watch you walk away
We were just two hearts
Bound for different roads
Why they didn't lead us to forever
We may never know
Oh, I will carry you with me
I will hold on to our memories
Don't let the dreams we didn't find make you feel like giving up
Keep holding on
And don't lose your faith in love
"You ready Rose?" John asked as he knocked on the bedroom door. Rose's mother had let him in. She was hoping he would make Rose happy. He was the Doctor technically well, sort of. The only difference is he had one heart instead of two.
I sighed as John knocked on my bedroom door. Mum would just not give up would she? I had tried to call the Doctor but either he did not answer or he was ignoring it. I was not sure. "Be right out." I called to him as I finished getting dressed. I pulled my hair into a ponytail and headed out to meet John and get the day over with.
"Morning Rose." John said as he smiled at Rose once she came out of the room. She really was beautiful and she was his. Well, that was what he hoped.
"Lets go I did not sleep well so I just want to get this day over with." Rose stated as she led the way downstairs. "Bye mum, dad." Rose said briskly as she and John left the house and headed towards his car. He opened the door for Rose and she climbed in.
"Well, I was thinking we could go out to dinner later. I mean when is the last time you and I went out?" John asked and Rose sighed.
It had been last night actually. I was not sure I wanted to go out to dinner again even if he threw a movie in as well. Though I knew I would give in just to keep my mum happy. "Sounds good." I told him as he started to drive down the road.
"Good, will go catch a film as well. Will go right after work." John stated as he turned on the radio. "You still packing I see." John said softly his eyes on the road ahead.
Of course he would bring THAT up. John and I were moving in with each other to give Mum, Dad and the new baby sometime to themselves. I was still a bit leery bout it but, I was doing it. I was just taking my time.
"Yea, sorry bout that. I'm just trying to decide what should stay and what should go." Rose explained; her excuse actually.
"Should not be that hard. We plan on buying new things once we move in." John said as he parked. They had arrived at Rose's job. He leaned over to kiss her and Rose shied away. "Later." John said pulling back a bit hurt. Rose nodded as she got out of the car and headed into the dress shop.
John watched her and shook his head as he pulled out of the parking lot and headed to his own job down the block a bit.
I watched him as he drove away. I could tell I had hurt him by not letting him kiss me. I had told him I wanted to go slow. I thought he understood. I opened my cell and called the Doctor again. This time the phone was picked up and my heart hammered in my chest. "Doctor.."
I said nothing at first. I could not answer before. It had hurt me not too. Now I stared at the phone wondering if I should hang up. Then her voice said my name and tears filled my eyes. "Yes Rose it's me." I knew what I was bout to say may hurt her but it was the only way. She had to move on.
It can hold you
It can save you
From anything or anyone
Heaven knows who's waiting for you
When two hearts come undone
Oh, I will carry you with me
I will hold on to our memories
"Don't say such things Doctor." I heard Rose's words on the phone and my eyes teared up once again. I was hurting her, I could tell. "Please Rose move on with John. He loves you. He will always love you." I could almost hear her heart breaking and I had caused it. This was so hard. But, I knew it was the right thing. It was the only way. I had to say goodbye.
"I don't love John like I love you." I took a deep breath and finished speaking.
"Please Rose do it for me. For what we had. You and I can never be. Goodbye." Then, I hung up it was the hardest I ever had to do. I hoped she would now move on with John and be happy. It was what she deserved after everything she went through. She needed and deserved to be..happy.
Don't let the dreams we didn't find make you feel like giving up
Keep holding on
And don't lose your faith
Oh, never, ever lose your faith in love
Don't ever lose your faith
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