A/N: SethCentric. His life b4 Ryan gets adopted. AU as he slowly tries to win Summer's heart

Chapter 1

Loneliness Knows My Name

Friday night. To the average teenager in California, it meant freedom from school and responsibilities, but most importantly, the chance to get trashed at a Newport party. To Seth Cohen however, it meant staying home alone with Captain Oats and reading comics. Nobody talked to him at school and nobody attempted to.

When he woke up bright early Friday morning, he began his usual routine of begging his parents to let him miss skip school. This of course never worked once. His parents always assumed that one day, the kids at Harbor would open up to Seth and he'd become the typical model student.

"Please! I'm begging you. You gotta let me stay home." Seth pleaded. He looked over at his mother, Kirsten, with puppy dog eyes. She nearly gave into Seth's pleas until Sandy cut in.

"No your going to school just like the rest of the kids your age" Sandy said. " And no ifs, ands or buts about it." Seth turned and headed back up to his room with a look of sadness spread all over his face. This always broke Kirsten's heart when she'd see or hear about her son's struggles in school. Sandy of course, being the strong and confident type, always reassured her that it was just a phase or he'd sum it all up with " It's just highschool"

Seth made his way toward the door. More like stumbled towards the door. The only thing in his mind was that today was in fact Friday, and he'd have 2 days of peace and bliss.

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"Oh My God! Coop guess what!" Summer screamed.

"What is it this time Sum…?" Marissa feigned interest.

" Way to show support your friend Coop" Summer snarled but shrugged it off and continued " You know Brad from the water polo team, well he just asked me out to the party at Holly's!"

"This is like the best day ever!! I've been dreaming of this day since, like grade 5!" Summer squealed.

"Congrats at least one person is happy today" Marissa mumbled. Summer knew that she irritated Marissa with her constant rambling about Brad and her dreams. Especially since Marissa had been on a downward spiral since her breakup with Luke. But Summer really didn't give a crap. Marissa had too many insecurities more anyone to cure. She was just a wreck and Summer didn't feel like being dragged down by her negativity.

"God this is going to be the best day ever!" Summer thought to herself as she continued to daydream, snuggling up to Brad in the process.

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"God this Is the worst day ever…" Seth thought as soon as he entered the front doors of Harbor. He looked up and saw that Summer was cozying up to her newest fling, Brad, and was all over him. His heart seemed to snap in half every time he saw someone all over Summer. His Summer. Well not technically because for her to be his, that would involve her knowing his name.

Seth walked the halls, still daydreaming of what it would be like to even be in Summer's presence for longer than 1 minute. He counted. He remembered that was the longest he'd ever been near her.

Flashback

Summer had been crying for what seemed like hours. She just hated her dad so much. How could he let her mother just walk out on them without even putting up a fight? She knew that it wasn't his fault but she still liked to leave it at that

She came storming out of the bathroom, the tears still were evidently there, when she ran straight into somebody. Causing their books to go flying everywhere

She looked around the halls. A big crowd had gathered around. She was embarrassed. Then she saw the look on the boy's face .Sam or Seth, no wait maybe it was Sid, anyways had slightest the smirk on his face and wouldn't it off.

"Sorry I didn't see you there" She didn't feel the need to further explain herself because she felt it was his fault for even being within talking distance of her.

" No it's alright. It's my fault, I should've been paying attention to where I was going" He answered. He quickly started blushing. Seth was going into a panic spiral. He started getting nauseous and his began to sweaty. Summer Roberts was actually talking to him.

Just as she was about to answer, Luke, Nordlund and Brad walked over and stood by Summer.

"Is this kid bothering you Summer." Nordlund snarled. Giving Seth the most fiercest glare ever.

Summer just shrugged. " No I'm fine it was just an accident" She decided not to continue and walked away. She hated how Nordlund always tried to impress her, she knew that he had been pinning for her ever since elementary school. Leaving Seth to gather his books and stare in awe as she disappeared in the now huge crowd. As far as he was concerned, he was in heaven. He never even noticed the large group that gathered.

"What are you doing still standing here geek?" Luke yelled.

Seth was brought back down to earth with a fast and hard punch by Luke, which was followed with kicks from Nordlund and Brad preparing to grab his shoes so he could pee all over them.

Now Seth's supposedly perfect day was ending with a bruising face and urine stained shoes.

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He didn't care that Summer probably didn't even know what letter his name started with, because he knew that he was head-over heels in love with her. Even though he never received a reason to even think that, he still believed that there was so much more to her than what she displayed at school. He believed that on the inside, she was this smart, funny, witty and of course beautiful girl that was dying to come out. Instead of the uber bitch attitude she gave to everyone. And oh how he dreamed to be the reason that she'd come out of her shell and become an entirely new person.

He had been so self involved that he never even realized the big group of water polo players that he'd bumped into

"Damn it!" was the first thing he thought when he got the groups attention. Seth hated having pain inflicted on himself for pointless reasons. Especially when this confrontation could have easily been avoided.

He stepped back nervously as Luke and the water polo team surrounded him. Then he spotted Summer back in the group with Holly and Marissa. He had a small chance to impress Summer and he didn't want to waste this.

"Who the hell do you think you are Cohen?" Luke snarled then began shoving Seth. " You can't just walk around here and think you own this school Queer!"

Oh what the hell. He knew there was no way to impress Summer. He knew the end result was going to be him getting his ass kicked anyways. So he decided he'd talk back to Luke and maybe get a laugh from Summer.

" Sorry Luke I wasn't watching where I was walking, I was just so interested in this book I'm reading" He held out the book. " Do you want to borrow it? Maybe you can add some more insults to your limited vocabulary. Your old ones are just starting to wear off." Seth snickered.

He looked behind an already fuming Luke and saw Summer. She and her friends were chuckling at Seth's witty remarks. Summer went even as far as slightly blushing at his comment. This brought the biggest grin to Seth's face, exposing his dimples for all to see. At least now he was going to get decked with a smile and much more self confidence.

Later that day

Seth walked in with the biggest grin on his mangled face. Sure he got the crap kicked out of him but Summer showed him the most emotion that she's ever showed in all his life that he'd known her. She showed all of this in one day. Seth practically floated through the kitchen and up to his room. Avoiding the concerns from his parents about his black eye and bruises.

For all he was concerned, he was on cloud 9. Sure he'd never did drugs in his fly but he imagined that this was what it felt like. That's the affect Summer Roberts had on him.

Seth sunk his head back into his pillow as he turned his Ipod on. He blasted the Death Cab For Cutie and just sat there in silence. With his now new found confidence, he managed to muster enough courage to attempt to go to that party at Holly's. Maybe even have a conversation with Summer.

"Naw that was probably too fast. Take your battles as they come Cohen" as he slowly slipped into a light sleep.

Please read n tell me what you think. This is my 2nd one ever n just tell me if I should even bother to continue.