It had been a few days since I had bitten Stiles and the bite had healed which meant that he was definitely a werewolf but we wouldn't find out completely till the full moon which wasn't for almost a month.

Things had been different since that night though as I knew the darkness has taken over me seeing as although he didn't die my girlfriend did and he got hurt and it was my entire fault. I was angry at everyone and had been suspended at school for breaking someone's jaw because they were walking about me so I punched them. And that was completely out of character luckily everyone knew that Alexis had died making my punishment shorter because I was grieving over her.

Stiles on the other hand was well Stiles deep down he hadn't quite adjusted completely but there was something weird going on with him and I just put it down to becoming a werewolf. Since I wasn't at school Isaac and the twins were watching him. Every day they said the same thing though.

"He was his sarcastic self."

"Harris told him off for talking."

"Nothing was off with him he was just Stiles."

We had given him a couple of days to adjust but we needed to see if he actually had werewolf abilities or if he was another Lydia who is immune to the bite. I was hoping he was immune to the bite as I didn't want him to go through this. He had got me through this but I didn't want him to go through the painful process of shifting and being hunted. Although it has some perks such as speed, strength, sight and hearing. The negatives outweighed the benefits.

Two weeks of suspension was actually shorter than I expected it to be considering what I did but Derek kept me company during the day although secretly he thought I was going to break and do something stupid such as start killing innocent people because I was angry, and sometimes I had an urge to hurt someone but I would never kill anyone. And anyway at the moment Stiles was the priority.

Everyday though I was asked the same question by everyone.

"Are you alright?"

"How are you holding up?"

It didn't matter how many times I told any of them that I was alright they wouldn't take it but deep down I wasn't all right I had turned my brother into a monster in order to stop him from dying and he was obviously angry with me.

However at this moment in time I was all alone in an empty house and everything reminded me of what a terrible life I had brought about the people I care about. My house was just a constant reminder of how horrible things had become ever since I had been bitten.

Stiles popped round after school, to check up on me even though it was him we should be worried about. I told him I was fine but he wasn't having it. I don't understand why everyone was worrying about me considering that I was completely fine.

I knew that Stiles wasn't okay he was secretly having a break down inside. He knew how to deal with it but I knew what he was like and he wasn't taking this at all well.

"Stiles, I know something's bugging you please just spit it out."

"I can't be a werewolf Scott; I sometimes can't even manage being a human."

"I never wanted this for you though Scott."

"I know but I can't do this, I don't want to be a monster."

"You don't have to be a monster though."

"No offence but you have as you killed people, so what's going to stop me from."

"I will stop you from killing people just like how you kept me human."

"Yes but you don't get it Scott you killed people and I can't deal with that."

"And you think I could, killing people is not something I chose Stiles but I am not dealing with it and I need my best friend to help me through this and I know what you are going through, but you won't become a monster."

I couldn't help what I was saying to him but it was all true. He wasn't like me and everything that has gone on in the past few weeks was all my fault and I was trying to fix it but all the thoughts I had were about coping with Stiles and him becoming a werewolf. Sooner or later we would have to test him to see if he had the abilities but for now we weren't in the best place so I would give him until I came back after suspension.

Two weeks passed and I was back at school and I had warned Stiles in advance that we were going to test him to see if he was a werewolf but only with the hearing, sight and smell to begin with. After school finished I left and went to not hide but get away from Stiles without telling him where I was going and I gave him one of my tops for him to smell me out and come and find me.

I expected him to take at least an hour considering it was his first time but it took him four hours luckily the rest of the pack had come along to keep me company as we hadn't really spoken since the fight.

"How are you holding up Scott?" Isaac asked.

"I'm fine and I have told everyone that so why are you all worried about me it's Stiles we should be worrying about."

"I know but you are my alpha and I am worried about you."

"There is no need to worry I am fine."

The next question was asked by Ethan and I couldn't lie but let's just say that there was quite a large gap between the question and my answer, because I purely didn't know how to reply to it.

"What about the darkness then Scott?"

What was I meant to do tell them that it had consumed me and that I had thought about hurting people as I had? Or do I tell them the same thing as I tell everybody else that I was fine. I opted for telling them the truth as sooner or later they would find out.

"I feel like it has consumed me and the more I fight it the worse I feel, so I am trying not to focus on it."

Shortly after I said that Stiles turned up, he looked exhausted but I couldn't blame him, he had been wondering round aimlessly for four hours. Next we tested his hearing Isaac and the twins went about 50ft and started talking. I told Stiles to focus on their voices to see if he could pick up on what they were saying and he could. Finally we tested his sight the only way possible, it was pitch black outside and we placed random objects all around the area we were win and asked him collect them in order and he did.

Stiles didn't turn up to school the next day so the moment school finished I made my way over to his house. His dad was at work and when I walked into the house I could sense the anger and fear in the house. I made my way up to his room to see him in the corner crying.

"Hey Stiles is everything alright?"

"You know it isn't alright Scott."

"I did say this is all my fault and if you don't forgive me I won't be mad."

"I'm not mad at you but I'm scared at what is going to happen."

"Happen when?"

"On the full moon."

"You won't hurt anyone, I promise."

"You don't know that."

"Look I just really want to be left alone Scott."

"If that's what you want but the full moon is in 5 days and you need to be ready."

"Now I just need time okay so please leave."

I could hear his heart rate rising but nothing was happening it was about 140 beats per minute but he was in total control which was odd, no claws no fangs no nothing. He was still human and usually at that rate no matter how much control you have you still shift. He had all the abilities so far but he hadn't shifted which was odd especially with his heart rate that high. So if he wasn't a werewolf what the hell was he?