Okay, so… Oneshot idea.
I know, I know. I should update my other stories. But I couldn't just let this pass!
Disclaimer: The
song, "Better Than Me," is owned by the band Hinder. Let me use
song lyrics, everybody else does…
Better Than Me
"Dammit, Keely! Shut up!"
"You shut up! What the hell is wrong with you?"
"You're wrong with me, that's what! I can't believe I ever thought I loved you!"
Keely was speechless for a moment, as if a bullet had gone through her heart and left it bleeding on the floor. She was so taken aback by his statement that she had to think really hard of what to say to him.
"You know what, Keely? I think we should see other people. I can't handle the shit you put me through anymore," he said, his eyes sparkling.
"But… I…"
"Get out!" he screamed.
"…Didn't… Do… Anything…" she whispered as she turned around and walked out the door to her car. Unfortunately, she wasn't loud enough for Phil to hear.
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
It had been five months since Phil left Keely, and all he did now was think about her every second that he breathed. He dreamt about her every second that he slept. And he regretted every minute he spent cussing her out and making her feel like a shitbag girlfriend.
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
They had been together for a year. They were making plans for their future, where they were going to get married, even what their kids' names were going to be… But acting like he did towards her made him realize that she really did deserve much better than him.
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't wanna lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
The memories… Oh, God, the memories! The tree lighting ceremony at Christmas; The future fiasco; The Giggle; The mayor's ball.
Even the bad times seemed good right now. Every thought of her that circled his mind was too good to be true… Yet strangely, it was also too painful to bear.
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
He couldn't help but think of how successful she probably was now. How happy she was. Where she lived, who she was with, what she looked like. How much she didn't need him.
No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't stop thinking about her. He didn't expect himself to forget about her. But he certainly didn't expect letting her go to be this painful. He really did underestimate how much he loved her.
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
All the things they shared! All the secrets that were revealed and how much had changed! All the stupid fights they were in and all the crazy adventures!
But no matter how much he tried to avoid it, he had to face the truth. The one girl that he ever loved was now gone, and he couldn't get her back.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you
should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
Lesson learned.
You deserve much better than me.