Disclaimer: I do not own Evangelion or The Characters featured therein this is purely non profit and done to help work out some of my own madness.
Shinji awoke to the feeling of his fingers enclosing flesh. Tightening his grip without thinking his mind filled with images of the last time he had felt this way. It had been in That Place, Instrumentality Where there had been no boundaries or self where his sick mind and all of his shame had been displayed openly for everyone to see there had been nowhere to hide and when he'd asked for help and comfort from the one person he cared for above all else she had rejected him, and he had broken succumbing to the anger that had overcome him. He stopped his train of thought derailing suddenly as he felt something warm brush against his cheek. Looking down for the first time his eyesight blurred from the outpouring of tears he hadn't noticed starting. He caught a glimpse of flowing red and bright vibrant blue when suddenly the hand jerked backward as if it had been burnt and there was a soft liquid pop and he fell to the sand in a puddle of orange liquid the smell of blood covering him his hands clutched the sand desperately as he curled in on himself shaking and screaming for he knew he was utterly alone.
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He had no idea how long he had laid there his grief, remorse and despair pouring out onto the sand. For him it had been a timeless period of nothing except soul shattering grief and a few periods of tormented unconsciousness. Eventually though his bodily demands fought through the fog of pain that his shattered psyche was releasing to make it's desires known. Standing weakly he stumbled backwards nearly falling as he caught sight of the horrific corpses of the MP Evas. Their frighteningly happy faces twisted out leering across the massive sea of LCL, Sadistic watch dogs guarding the gates of hell. Shinji closed his eyes fighting off the panic as the memories fought to resurface and pull him down again, The memories of her screams and his helplessness... he shook his head violently feeling his stiff neck crack painfully under the sudden movement. As he opened the eyes his gaze locked with the stare of an enormous crimson eye peeking over the horizon. "Rei..." She had given him all that she could, despite the fact he had abandoned her twice, once during the 16th and then again in fear after she had been brought back and probably needed his help more then ever. Somehow she had forgiven him and even tried to grant him his desired world but he had not been strong enough to make the right choice then and maybe couldn't even have made it now. Perhaps it would have been better if she had been able to make the choice herself or given it to someone else anyone but him, yet it hadn't turned out that way the choice had been his and he had damned all of humanity to nothingness. Squinting against the tears that threatened to resurface he turned away from the gruesome sights and began the slow walk of a broken old man towards what remained of civilization.
A/N This is the opening for the redone revelations i will be writing a second chapter soon™ if i'm a little slow please forgive me the next chapter is featuring Asuka's PoV and she is one of the hardest characters for me to write. Please Read and Review I know it's short but the chapters will get longer i promise this was just an opening! don't lynch me yet!