Unbreak My Heart
(Alternative Name: The Number 1 in my Heart)
by Sessrin Koshimae
Disclaimer: For the nth time, The Prince of Tennis isn't mine.
Warning: This story contains scenes (swearing and lemons) and dialogues not suitable to minor readers. Read on your own risk.
Chapter 1: Tears that Never Shed
"If you really love me, You'll let me go."
She was devastated. She could feel her world is breaking down. A hole in her chest starts to devour her entirety as she cried for help. She's confused. She's frustrated. Why all of the sudden Ryoma broke up with her? What's wrong? She thought that she'll give her best to understand him, to have more patience for him, their relationship will last long.
She loves him dearly. She's been faithful to him. They'd been together for almost five years. They'd already planned their future together. Dreaming that someday they would spent the rest of their lives together in a world where everything is in their perfect place. But suddenly, all her hopes and dreams gone. What happened? What went wrong?
"Please don't leave me."
She doesn't know what to do. She cried and cried until her eyes couldn't cry any longer. She became unaware of her surroundings. Her own world is her own room. She shunned herself away from the outside world for almost two weeks. A new world she must face. A new life where she could picture herself alone. Yes, she's alone. Her grandmother died and left her alone with no one, three years ago. She was saddened. She was all alone in this world without any relatives. Her parents died in a car accident when she was young and left her only with her grandmother. It was then Ryoma stood out from the sidelines and comforted her. Ryoma didn't let her be alone. Their friendship gave her strenght to carry on. The only person she cherished the most since then.
He looked after her. She gave him support at all his decisions. They understood each other well enough. She confided to him all her worries, pain and dreams. He hadn't said anything to her but she knew that she could trust him. She could see it in his eyes. Without saying any word, she knew Ryoma would never betray her. After several months, she found herself happy once again. She may not have any relatives left, but her friends' support and Ryoma's friendship she found herself contended.
Their closeness gradually caught the attention of those persons around them. It was unusual for them to see her and Ryoma spent time alone with each other. Regularly, Ryoma will pick her up in her house in early morning and together they'll walk to school. Sakuno always reminded herself to prepare a delicious obento for him. They ate their lunch together at his favorite spot in the rooftop, play tennis together at weekends, do their assignment together at their favorite area at the library where he's a member of its committee. Sometimes, she would go to his place and spent time playing with his fluffy cat, Karupin. He would yawns and watch them play and smiles. His family accepted her like she's a new member of their family. Since her grandmother was an acquiantance of his father, she treated her well. She's glad because somehow she found some solace in his family. His mother, Rinko treated her like a daughter of hers. They would go to mall and shop happily and spent some talk about girls. Nanjiro, his father, treated her nice. He always makes her giggles and laughs at his some jokes. Sometimes, she found some amuzement when Nanjiro bickers with Ryoma. Ryoma would just sulk and pouts at her and she'll smile back at him shyly. His temper will lowers and then smiles at her. Sometimes, Ryoma would go to her place and watch her cook their meals and tutors her at their lessons. Being a high school student is tough. Their schedules are almost full with their school activities and their free time is limited. But Ryoma still found a way to make some quality time for them. Sometimes when she's free and didn't have to go to her part time job, he'll tag her along with his senpais, Momoshiro and Eiji at the burger joint. She works as a crew at the local convinience store near Seigaku. After their afternoon practice, she'll go to the store and works their for at least six hours. Ryoma frequently passed by to the convinience store and creates different alibis just to visit her there. He would buy random things at the store and smirks at her. She would frowns and twitch at him and he would look as he's amuzed by her reaction. Her co-workers would giggle at them. They thought he's her boyfriend which she'll directly denies. She would always say he's just her best friend which they would replied with a confused and look at her unconvinced. She'll ask Ryoma why they do think they're couples and he would just shrugged his shoulders, gave her a can of cold ponta, took her things and walked her home.
She felt startled. She knew that everyone might thought that they're couples. It might look absurd but their closeness is just a friendly gesture. But when her friend, Tomoka talked at her with regard to her closeness with Ryoma, she became unsure. Tomoka told her that Ryoma shunned all her possible suitors away from her. He look at them and sends deathly glares. Is there a possibility that he loves her more than as a friend? She didn't know.
Yes, it's true that she'd a crush on him when they were still in junior high. But gradually, her feelings for him turned into a genuine friendship. She'd learned to appreciate and accept him as he is. She saw his flaws and weak side but still she'd embraced and accepted his imperfections. They become true to each other and have nothing to conceal anymore.
She's confused and frustrated. She didn't know what to do. Sakuno thought that those feelings might destroy their friendship. She wondered if her feelings for him still remain deep down on her heart. Because of this anxiety, she didn't realise that she'd started to put a gap between the two of them. Ryoma confronted her much to her surprise. He grabbed her arm and took her to their spot at the rooftop.
"Why are you avoiding me?" he asked coldly. His hands at his side pockets of his pants. His hair blew as the cold breeze passed by.
She pinned herself to the wall and gulped. She took a deep breath and sighed. She looked at him and saw his cat like amber eyes staring sternly at him.
"I'm not, Ryoma-kun. I'm sorry if you think I do." she replied to him.
He raised a brow and didn't say another word. She gazed at the floor as her heart beats unsual at her chest.
"Tell me, what bothers you?" he asked again.
She closed her eyes and conceal the with her hair.
"I... I..." she uttured.
"You?"
"I'm confused, Ryoma-kun." she finally blurted out. "I'd started to think that our closeness had lead to issues and rumours that might ruin us in the future." she continued.
"Are you referring to the rumours that we're a couple?" he asked coldly.
"Yes." she answered back.
She saw him looked up to the sky and closed his eyes.
"You shouldn't worry, Sakuno." he murmured. "For it doesn't matter to me if you're a friend or my lover, as long as you wouldn't leave me." he continued.
She blinked in surprise.
"What made you think that I will leave you? And what do you really mean, Ryoma-kun?" she asked.
Ryoma opened his eyes and gazed at her.
"Listen, Sakuno. I'll only say this once." he said.
She hold her breath for awhile waiting to hear what he have to say.
"I love you, Sakuno. I loved you secretly for the past years." she heard him say.
Her eyes widened at his confession. Her jaw dropped and she put her hands in her mouth.
"You... You love me?" she said almost not a question but a statement.
He nodded at her in response.
"I'm afraid to tell you because you might flown away from me." he replied.
She didn't talk for awhile. She was drifted in her own thoughts. Ryoma stared at her waiting for her response. Suddenly, tears found their ways at his cheeks. She sobs silently. He was surprised by her sudden cry. He approached her and touched both of her shoulders.
"I'm sorry. I made you cry." he said.
She wiped her tears with her hand and looked up at him.
"No. I'm just so happy. I'm happy that you love me. I'm greatful though I should have known earlier. It must be so hard for you." she replied.
"You aren't angry at me? You didn't hate me?" he asked.
She shook her head and smiled.
"Why should I hate you,Ryoma-kun? You loved me and took care of me for all these years." she said.
Ryoma drew her close to him and embraced her lovingly.
"Arigatou." he whispered to her.
She put her arms around him and smiled to herself.
"Aishiteruze, Ryoma-kun." she replied.
He loose her embrace at him and looked down at her meeting her hazel eyes. He shifted his hands. He placed her right hand in the side of her face and the other hand encircled her waist. He drew her face closer to her with his eyes closed. She closed her eyes as she felt his soft lips pressed on hers. She gasped and tremble in his arms feeling the new sensation she'd just experience. They shared their first kiss with the setting sun as their witness.
"I am sorry."
I'm sorry. Sorry has a lot of means and she didn't know what Ryoma means when he told him sorry. Was it because he had to leave her? Is it because he didn't love her anymore and he grew up tired being with her? She didn't know. She didn't know the answer and she didn't know if she could accept his sorry.
"If we're destined for each other, I'll come back to you whatever happens."
Destiny. She didn't know that he believes in destiny. If there's really a destiny, she would have hate it. The pain, the sorrow, the loneliness. Was it her destiny to be alone and left behind? No. It's unfair. She have the right to be happy but why is it that all of the sudden, this destiny took all her love ones.
"If you ever found a better man than me at the time of my absence that would be good."
She never thought he would say those words at her and it certainly crushed and shattered her unfortunate heart in a million pieces. She never dared to look or flirt with another man. He's the only man she'd ever love. She'd loved him with all her heart and soul but now he wanted her to set him free. It was really hard for her. With her heart broken, she reluctantly gave him his freedom inspite the fact that the pain it inflicted to her was so great.
"I just have to let you go because I love you so. Might as well that this pain will vanished so I could smile again and not to cry if I think of you."
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Preview to the Next Chapter:
She found herself pregnant with his child. Her world seems to have a light again but all her hope shattered as her destiny plays with her once again.
Chapter 2: Pain and Sorrow
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A/n: Thank you for reading "Unbreak my Heart". I hope you've enjoyed reading it. Please kindly leave reviews. I would like to know what you'd think about this story. Again, thank you very much. n_n Anyway, I should warn you ahead. The next chapter might have some lemony scenes and matured themes not intended for minor age readers.
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~Sessrin Koshimae a.k.a Witchangel
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