It took me a year to see who I loved...

And it took me a life time to say it.

On September 22, Me Chad Dylan Cooper died in a car accident on my way to tell her how I feel.

This her is Sonny.

I Loved her to much To let her slip by.

She was about to make a mistake and marry Anthony.

He was a new cast member on The falls. I knew she liked me.

How could I have been so stupid.

And my story begins.

I was driving down to see Sonny. I was on the high way she was gone on a school thing... I couldn't wait any longer. One day I wanted to take her hand in marriage.

The first day I saw her I knew but was just to stupid to act. Come on how could the greatest actor not be able to tell her that. I acted like I didn't like her. Anyways I was driving down the high way. It was Saturday night and there was a lot of drunks out on the road.

I tried to be careful. I was going up the mountain when A guy hit me on the side with his car... My car fell of the road and down the mountain. It flipped and rolled till it finally stopped by the ground. 30 feet up was the road and 30 feet down was me... Dead.

The police came pulled up my car. They searched my car and found a box in the back of the car. It was full of notes to Sonny Munroe. The notes were all for her the box was full of the notes. And they were numbered. I planed on giving it to her. And letting her read one by one.

They called up Sonny and told her about it she asked if she could come pick it up.

That night she came and got the box.

She opened the first letter...

Dear, Sonny

I have been holding this in for to long

I love you Sonny Munroe... you took my heart when I saw you and I want to have yours. This is to hard for me to do in person. With these letters I would like you to read one a day. And at the end you will understand. Please respect my wishes.

I love you Sonny...

January 1st

Chad Dylan Cooper.

Sonny cried as she read the letter.

"I will chad... I will". She put the note back into the envelope and put it in a separate box.

She then Drove to her house. That night she couldn't sleep she wanted to know how it all ended like a book. It was full of mystery and she was waiting for the next one to come out. She got out of bed and went to the box. She took out the second. About to open the envelope but didn't.

"No". She said whispering to herself.

She got to sleep and fell deeply asleep.

THE NEXT MORNING

She got out of bed and went down stairs. For breakfast. She wanted to open the next note but didn't. She wanted to open it after. She ate breakfast and then went back up stairs. She took a shower got dressed then went into her room. She was alone in the house. She didn't marry Anthony... Because she felt the same way about Me, Chad Dylan cooper.

When she got into the room she looked over at the box then at the Window. She opened the box and took out letter number 2.

Dear, Sonny.

This is letter number two and I hope you read this one the day after. Each letter I am going to tell you something about me. And then I am going to ask you something and ask you to write a note back. I want to hear what you have to say and I want to know every detail. I love you Sonny.

January 2nd

Chad Dylan Cooper.

She read the last sentence out loud. She sighed.

"Why did you have to die Chad"? She asked while looking out the window. She went over to her side table and took out a pad a paper.

Dear, Chad

Even though you aren't here I want to

tell you how I feel. Chad Dylan Cooper I love you. I didn't marry Anthony. I couldn't I loved you. I couldn't lie to him. Every time I said 'I love you' I felt bad inside I knew who I loved and it wasn't him.

September 23rd

Love, Sonny Munroe.

She wrote the note and put it in a envelope, Then put the envelope in a new box. She went down stares, and called Tawni.

Sonny POV

"Hey you want to come over"? I asked here my mind still on the notes sitting plainly upstairs in a box.

"Sure I will be there soon".

"Okay bye". Before she could say bye back I hung up the phone and went to the living room and sat down on the couch. I reached over for the remote on the table and grabbed it. I clicked the button and the Cable box turned on. I relaxed on the couch till Tawni came knocking on the door.

"Hey"! I said when I opened the door to Tawni standing there. Like it was a surprise.

"Hey". She said while walking into the house.

"Umm I heard what happened to Chad... And I knew how much you like him". She said to me turning around to look at me. I closed the door and shrugged.

"Life happens". I said while going over to the couch.

"This was more then that... You loved Chad... and you can't just act like this didn't happen you have to be sad its what death is all about. Ya it was life but you have to deal with it and acting like you don't care. Sonny You Love Chad". She repeated.

I nodded my head.

"Ya and he loves me". Sonny said while looking down at the remote and turning the TV off.

"Wait did he tell you"?

"Not by talking he wrote it... follow me". I got up and walked up to my room with Tawni following close behind. I handed her the notes.

She read them.

"Wow". She said as she finished the second letter.

"How did you get these"?

"The cops found them in his car when they searched it and they gave it to me that night"? I said while looking at Tawni.

"So did you do what he said... are you reading one after another each day"?

I nodded my head.

"And writing him back". I said.

"But...

"Ya I know he isn't here but I felt I need to do this... I owe him something".

"Owe him Sonny"?

"It was to late for us both to tell each other what we felt". I said while looking down then back at Tawni. I smiled in embarrassment and then laughed. But the laugh wasn't happy because when I laughed there were tears and the laugh was fake.

"Look Sonny You don't need to be ashamed of love... I loved Tony and He loved me... but he Died the year he told me he loved and I said it back because of cancer". She tried to wipe away her tears.

I nodded my head

We both sat there crying and then my mind left the fact about us both needing someone to be there for us and to the fact that I had someone that loved me. And I didn't notice.

I then thought more about the notes. 'I wonder what he is going to say next'? I asked myself. ' what is he going to ask'? Again asking myself. 'how is this all going to end'?

I then went back to reality.

I didn't want to believe the fact that Chad was gone for good... I always told him to get lost when he was being annoying... witch was a lot. But I never once wanted him to die or to leave me for good. I always wished that he would tell me he loved me.

I always wished one day I would wake up with enough guts to tell him how I felt. I felt by marrying Anthony I could block the feeling I had for Chad.

But as I can see that didn't work. And I just couldn't deal with what I felt.

I Decided that I would right another note to chad after Tawni left.

Dear, Chad

I am having a hard time with your death. And when I read your next note I will make sure to right back every night the reason I did it 2 times today is because of yesterday and today. Chad how am I suppose to feel that you are gone and I never got the chance to say I love you In person? But I feel in this way I know I have some way to tell you and that some how one day you will read it and no how I feel to.

Chad Dylan Cooper, I love you.

September 23rd

Love, Sonny Munroe.

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