Chapter 1

Surprised?

It had been 2 months since Fate last entered her office. It haven't changed all at, nothing has changed. How awfully long those 2 months were, with emotional conflicts and suffers. She could have returned earlier, when her first was completed. But no, she had to accept another one. She really wanted to return home, return to Nanoha and return to Vivio.

Nanoha.

Truth is, she didn't know how to face her. She felt abhorrence to no others but herself. Just by looking at herself in the mirror, she felt disgusted. She though 2 months of nothing but battles would be enough. Enough to calm her mind and ease her soul, but it didn't.

Nanoha.

Guilt.

She never realized how much she loved her, not until she lost her self-control and ruined what they had together.

A soft knock on the door interrupted Fate's chain of thought. "Come in"

The door slowly creak open, as if one's hesitated from entering. Swallowed hard, the brunette enter the room completely closing the door behind her. "Fate-chan" she said softly, hardly audible.

Eyes fixed on each other, none move or speak. They miss each other, long for each other, yet won't tell each other. Afraid. Yes, they're afraid of rejection, of ruining the only thing they have. Friendship.

But hasn't it already been ruined?

"Nanoha" Fate doesn't know when and how her body crossed the room, standing right in front of the brunette.

"Fate..." Nanoha looked down before continuing. "I have something to tell you."

She must not want me back, Fate thought. Of course, who would I want me after...

"I'm pregnant..."

"Congratulat ...." Eyes widen, respiration stopped "ion".

Nanoha is pregnant.

Pregnant..

Fate felt pain when reality hit. A kind of pain that even physical injuries can't compete. She felt empty, dead, just like a standing zombie.

Have Nanoha been dating? With whom? Yuuno? Was she the last to know?

Fingers formed into fist. Blood started to boil. Yes, Fate is possessive. "With who?" she said, trying to sound as calm as possible.

"I.." Nanoha bit her lower lip. "I...don't know." She tried. She tried to hold back the tears but she wasn't able to. Wrapping her arms around Fate's waist, she used the shoulder for head cushion. This warmth. She misses it. She misses Fate. But she also hated Fate for leaving, hated herself for allowing Fate to leave. "I don't know Fate-chan" she repeated, sobbing louder.

Fate was speechless. Doesn't know who the father is?!? How was that possible...unless...unless Nanoha had been with more than one man.

"I haven't slept with anyone" Nanoha said, still clinging onto Fate.

Fate arched an eyebrow. How is that even possible? She might be a clone, but she understood full well on conception. "Then how....?"

"I don't know. I..."she said in between sobs. "I started vomiting almost every morning for the past few weeks. I thought it was for I was sick, so I took a break and use it as a vacation to go visit my family with Vivio. Mama saw my symptoms and said I might be pregnant, but I laughed it off." Fists clenched tight onto Fate's blouse, as she dug her nose deeper into Fate's neck. She was scared. Scared of what Fate might think. Even though she's a mage, she's still a human and humans' body doesn't work like way. Would Fate leave her now? Would Fate be disgusted with her? Those thoughts haunted her. It's slowly killing her inside.

"Mama bought home a pregnancy test..." she tried to continue. "and...and it came out positive.." she sobbed louder.

Fate was still speechless.

Pregnant.

No man.

"Are you sure Nanoha? Try to remember. You haven't slept with anyone at all?" Fate spoke softly.

"Well, I did...." her voice was as low as a whisper. "2 months ago...on the night of the celebration for the lightning team's first completed mission. With..."

2 months ago...Party. Celebration. Completed mission.

"Not drinking tonight Testarossa?" The pink hair knight asked, occupying the stool on Fate's right.

It was a celebration on the lightning team's first completed mission. Everyone did a wonderful job, therefore Hayate decided to relax for the night. "No, I have to drive later and tuck Vivio in for bed."

"Who are you kidding? The last time we went drinking, you drove home wasted." Signum smirked.

"Quit persuading Fate to drink, Signum. Fate can't have any alcohol until she finishes her last set of antibiotics" Shamal said, walking up from behind. "I'll personally punish you if she does drink" she winked seductively at the pink-hair knight, causing her to blush.

Fate shivered. She caught the wink. Internally smirking at Signum. A proud knight, who refused to lose, refused to give up is being dominated by no other than Shamal, herself. Poor Signum.

Yet Fate envied them. Their relationship. Signum won't admit it, Shamal won't deny it.

She felt empty yet she can't come up with any reasons. Perhaps, she also wanted to love and be loved in return. Her gaze landed on a brunette who are drowning down every bit of alcohol in a game of card. God, Nanoha must have sucked at it because it's her 7th bottles already.

Fate smiled. Thinking, seeing Nanoha warms her heart. Her smiles, her eyes, and her touch. Sometimes she wondered, what will happen if Nanoha decided to get marry? What will happen to Fate?

As time passed, bottles were laid empty, bodies were scattered. The only people who were capable of walking straight, minds clear are Fate, Signum, and Shamal. And only them, who can transport others home.

"You...know...hiccup..Fate-chan...hiccup. T-that was...fun" The totally wasted girl spoke incoherently, as Fate placed her down onto their shared bed. "You...should have hiccup...play. Yunno....cheated."

Fate smiled. It was nice seeing Nanoha relaxed. With all those battles, enemies, and missions, Nanoha overworked herself like always. "Sleep well." Tugging Nanoha, she placed a lingering kiss on her forehead. "my love...."

With that done, Fate pulled out her set of antibiotic, she'd received earlier this morning from Shamal. She haven't noticed that the color wasn't the same as those she had took before popping it in her mouth.. Little did she know that her life will change after it's effect.

"you.." Nanoha mumbled.

Mouth opened, jaw dropped.

What the hell....?

How?

"Fate-chan...?"

Placing her hand on her head, Fate slowly stirred in bed. Pain. Throbbing pain. Major headache. Her body felt heavy as if...as if something, someone squishing her. Her hand felt something soft, something warm. She wondered what it was. Giving it a squeezed, she heard a light moan and a soft mumble. Someone mumbled her name.

Instantly her eyes flew opened and hand releasing that soft texture. She scanned her surroundings. In her room. On her bed.

"Fate-chan" she heard a soft mumble again.

Her face turned white looking where the voices came from. Nanoha was litterally laying on top of her. Naked nonetheless, revealing some red marks on visible skin. She had no clue what happened lastnight. She couldn't think. She couldn't comprehend with anything. Did she forced herself onto Nanoha lastnight? Have she lost control and acted on her deepest desire? So many thoughts.

Her hand...she just groped Nanoha's butt.

Guilt.

Nanoha slowly opened her eyes. Pain. Hang over. Just what she needed. But she also felt soreness. Soreness located between her legs. Pushing herself up from whatever cushion is underneath, blue eyes locked with burgundy. She shifted her gaze from Fate's face down to her breasts, then back to her face repeatedly.

Finally realization hit hard on the head, she jumped off the bed dragging the blanket with her, leaving the fully exposed Fate vulnerable.

Guilt. It stabbed her hard. She took advantaged of Nanoha, when she was least defensive.

Monster.

"Fate-chan?"

"Have you went to Shamal?"Fate asked, still confused.

It is even possible? Possible for two females to concept?

"No. I'm scared Fate-chan." Nanoha spoke softly.

"It's okay Nanoha. Everything will be okay." Fate reassured her. "We'll go see Shamal."

A/N:

I must admit, I suck at writing angst.

This idea popped out of no where today while I was studying for my exam so I chart it down to empty my head. Grammar might be a bit off. Couldn't think of any good title. Hope you guys enjoy it.