As the sun was going down, he walked slowly around his empty apartment, the lights were off and it was silent. No tears no sounds of cars or even the wind all he could he was the thoughts in his mind.
The clock hit 12.00 and the bottle of vodka that was lying on his coffee table was nearly empty. He took one last slip and began to look into space and in his mind all he could think about was her, her face, and her smile the way she walked. Rationally he knew that she was gone but not in his mind the vivid picture in his mind was real. As he began to remember the times they had together a smile crept upon his face, he never wanted to let these images go. All he wanted to do was stay awake forever but he couldn't as time began to move on his eyes began to close, but suddenly he heard something. It was something he had heard before
"Trouble sleeping" the voice said quietly
"Your not here" he said firmly
"I am always here, I am always with you". She said gently
Vaughn took a deep breath and began to sit up and there it was the face, the smile it was her. His mind couldn't comprehend what was right in front of him, so he just sat there not saying a word.
She smiled softly and began to stand up
"Is it really you' he said as he stood up and stood in front of her
"It's me she said, when she began to say it her heart began to pound and her hands were shaking
"I can't believe this, you have know idea what it has been like without you" he said as a tear began to fall down his cheek, he then took another sip of his drink
"I know, and it's ok to be angry but what your doing is not alright, your killing yourself" she said calmly
He avoided the statement and said, "No one understands, what it is like, they don't know that it hurts to talk it hurts to breathe"
"I know what it is like to lose someone Vaughn, you know that better than anyone, Maybe it is time to let go", she said
"I can't, I just can't, I am sorry but there is sill a part of me is clinging to the fact that you will come back, he began to cry and then said again, that you will come back to me," he said as he walked close enough to look straight into her eyes
"You never know", she said grinning and smiling
All Sydney wanted to do was say that she was really there, that it was her, but she knew what would happen to her if she did. So she didn't
"Your still quite funny, Miss Bristow, he said laughing
"Only with you" she said
"I miss you, I miss you so much", he said filled with emotion
"I miss you too", she said with tears in her eyes not wanting to let the moment slip away.
As she began to walk away from him, he grabbed her arm and pulled her close to him and brought he hand to her face and kissed her, she knew it was real but, in his mind this was her way of saying a final goodbye to him, to them.
They stood there for a while just looking at each other and then he said "I love you, I'll love you always, I just wish that it wouldn't of taken all this to finally say it"
"I love you too, I... she said without continuing on
"I don't want this to end", he said still staring at her
"Everything ends at one point but now it is your turn to move on and be happy again, find what you want and then get it", she said as she began to sit down on the couch
"All I ever wanted is you", he said as he grabbed her hand softly
"I know", she said quietly
"With you is where I feel safe, everywhere else I am just trying to get through the day without thinking about you or even talking about you and it had been so hard, I still feel you and that is one thing that I don't want to forget or have to let go of", he said
"You will figure it out", she said sounding so sure of that fact
"What if I can't, what if I wont, he said slowly
'Then I underestimated who you are", she said nearly in tears, she couldn't believe what she was saying, she was telling him to let go even though she knew that she never would. She knew that if he did let go then he would get the second chance that she would never be able to.
As he began to move closer to him, he could feel her again, and that's what he needed. He took her in his arms like he would never let go. She fell into to him and softly wept into his chest, she never wanted to let go, she wanted to stay with him forever.
They had been talking all night and as the sun began to rise, she knew that she had to leave but she didn't know how, so as he began to look at her again, she said into his ear "Close your eyes and when you see darkness fall and the sun rise you will know that I will be gone"
"Don't please", he said filled with emotion
"I have too", she said as she began to close his eyes
As he closed his eyes, Sydney leaned forward and with tears running down her face she gave him one last kiss but not without leaving something behind.
As he slowly open his eyes and looked around the apartment she was gone, he then looked at the vodka still on the table and in one movement smashed it to the ground and slowly began to breakdown. He then glanced at the table again and saw something unusual, he leaned forward and picked it up and couldn't believe his eyes...