I just came up with this idea after watching Saturday night's casualty so please read and review and also I am not sure whether I should continue with this and make it more than just a one-shot so please tell me via a reviewJ
Zoe sat in her office staring at her computer screen which contained 217 emails that she had to read through even though she knew that none of them would be anything to do with a life or death situation.
Suddenly Connie walked in, she looked at the pile of paperwork Zoe was going through then she walked around to the back of Zoe's desk so that she could see it more clearly.
"Why didn't you tell me about ash" said Connie as calmly as she could
Zoe sighed and rolled her eyes, she hated how Connie was always interfering after all it was zoe's department and even though Connie was deputy zoe knew that ash wouldn't have wanted anyone knowing that he had resigned and let his out of control daughter win once again.
"Well it hasn't been confirmed so I didn't want it to go public, just yet" said Zoe who pretended that she was doing some work
"Well I would like to have known" said Connie
Zoe suddenly stopped typing as she heard this, she felt like she was going to blow.
Connie was always breathing down her neck trying to find something that she could twist and go to guy self with cause zoe and ash both knew that ever since Connie came back to ED she was after zoe's job, it was obvious and on top of all that zoe was about to lose a friend and a colleague just because of his uncontrollable daughter even though zoe knew that she was probably worse at Ella's age.
"I don't see what the problem is" said Zoe who was still staring at the computer screen "his daughter has had control over him since martin arrived in holby but of course I wouldn't know because I don't have kids"
Connie could hear the emotion in zoe's voice as she said those 4 words "I don't have kids" finally Connie had something that wasn't necessarily against zoe but something that she could twist and go to guy self with, but she needed to find out more.
Zoe wiped a tear away that had silently fell down her cheek, those 4 words were the words that zoe hated most, the words that had caused her so much pain and the words that had caused her to lose the love of her life, Nick Jordan.
Her infertility had haunted Zoe all her life and caused her so many sleepless nights.
only 3 other people knew about zoe's infertility , she had told matt when he propose to her, kirsty had found the drugs zoe was on to try and get pregnant when she was with nick and zoe had told Jessica out of choice, when she first found out as zoe knew that she would burst if someone didn't know.
"I thought you were having nick Jordan's baby" said Connie who was looking at the pictures Zoe had up in her office
Zoe looked down at her stomach before looking at Connie, was Connie stupid or something because you can't be having someone's baby when they are 1 thousands of miles away, 2 when you don't gain any weight and 3 how you can have someone's baby without having an actual child.
Connie pointed to the pictures of Zoe and sharice that were on the ledge in zoe's office, there were about 4 of them and Zoe and sharice looked very happy in them all.
"Oh that's sharice" said Zoe who smiled at the pictures
"Sharice?" said Connie who sat down in her chair after inspecting the pictures
"My foster daughter" said Zoe "well she was my foster daughter but I gave her up"
"Oh" said Connie
Connie smiled slightly as she had something on Zoe, she had given up her foster daughter.
"It sounds worse than it is" said Zoe "her grandparents could look after her better than I ever could"
Zoe stood up as she wanted to end the awkward conversation she was having with Connie, Zoe walked to the door but turned around when Connie spoke to her again.
"Why don't you have your own kids?" said Connie trying to make zoe feel bad "it's not that complicated, I've managed it"
Zoe stood with the door half open, she leant against it and smiled slightly as she wanted to know how Connie would react to what she was just about to tell her.
"Connie, I can't have kids" said Zoe
"Oh" was all that Connie could say
"nobody knows but I know how much you hate me so you can go and tell the whole ED or why don't you even take the rest of the day off so that you can think of a way of twisting it so that it is something you can go and tell guy self, something that you could take my clinical lead position with" said zoe who was actually smiling "your choice, I don't mind"
Zoe smiled at Connie to show that she actually didn't care anymore and as fed up of playing her silly games, but Connie actually felt sorry for her, for once.
Zoe couldn't believe that she had actually told someone, someone that was not a friend like Tess or Linda but someone who she could call her enemy.