Sterek
Recently Derek had been focusing on making alliances with other packs around Beacon Hills so he had been going away for Days even weeks. I understood the need to make sure the pack was protected but in the process he had left our relationship failing.
After i had finished College and got my Degree i had come straight back home to my Dad to him because i love him. I had moved into Derek's newly remodeled Hale home after he asked me to the year i left for College.
Flashback
Derek and I where laying in bed after a long night of making love when he whispered in my ear
"Move in with me" He said it more as a statement then a question
"What? Derek i cant i'm leaving for college tomorrow" I seen the time over his shoulder "Today"
I seen him glare lifting his eyebrows I moved my head to lay against his chest
"You mean when i come home?" I felt his stubble move against my head nodding "Are you sure I'm pretty hard to deal with what you see now is the tame side of me"
I felt the rubble of his chest "I think i can handle to you"
"Good luck" i kissed his chest feeling my eyes start to fall from the tiredness
"I love you Stiles" My eyes widened he hadn't told me that before I've said it every day since he told me that he felt something towards me and he wanted to see what it was
"I love you Sourwolf" I heard him growl making me smile
End Flashback
I told my dad the day i was leaving that when i came home i was moving in with Derek he just smiled looked at him and said Good Luck. Bastard
The first 2 weeks where great when i got back we spent almost every second that we had together. The only time that we couldn't was when Lydia opened her own Wedding really for me it was just a job while i did my real passion on the side
Writing
Really my only job at the store was Lydia's assistant book appointment's help out if she needed things picked up. It wasn't really my dream job that i went to College for 3 years for but it was good for me to have something to do when i had moment's of writers block like lately
Derek was coming home tonight from being gone for two weeks with the Dalthaven Pack so i asked Lydia for a couple day's of so that i could cook a romantic meal for him because i missed him. Spend sometime with him i haven't spent more the 12 days with him in the last 3 months.
I had ran out of food sometime in the last week so i had been eating takeout so i had to clean the house a bit and and go grocery shopping Issac and Erica decided to come along with to keep me company.
The pack had all moved into there own places since they got back from College. Boyd, Erica and Boyd had only moved to a small house 20 minute human walk from the Hale house 5 minute wolf walk. Scott and Kira had got an apartment together pretty quickly but didn't stay long when they found out Kira was pregnant with Twin boys. A surprise to them both but one that they where both happy about it.
"Stiles!" I flinched at Erica yelling in my ear "Sorry Mum we've been calling you for the last 5 minutes what had you so in your head?"
I sighed shaking my head "Nothing important. What did you need?"
"Okay" They both frowned hearing the slight tick in my heart at the fact i was lying "We where just wondering what you wanted to cook Derek tonight?"
"Oh sorry he likes my Lasagna" I smiled when they both nodded heading in different directions grabbing the ingredient's i needed while i went looking for the ingredients i need for the desert which wasn't going to be on plate.
Whipped Cream
Ice Cream Pack
Chocolate
My favorite things.
Once Erica and Issac had come back with everything i needed they looked in my basket shaking there heads and cringing knowing what it was all for.
I had cooked everything set up the table with candles and light music knowing that Derek would be home any minute. Thanking the fact that he text me to let me know he had just passed the welcome to beacon hills sign and got a flat.
I quickly ran up the stairs to our room changing into something nice and went running down when i heard the tires hit the gravel road out the front of the house. As i got to the bottom step i froze when i heard a second set then a third set hitting the gravel i looked out the window seeing two cars full of people i had never seen before in my life.
I quickly moved to blow out the candles putting them away before Derek walked through the door
"Stiles i brought some people home with me i want you to meet" I put on my best fake smile and walked out to the front door
"Hello everyone"
"Stiles this it the Dalthaven pack from Chicago i thought it would be a good idea if they came and met my pack everyone this is Stiles" I felt a sharp pain in my chest 'His pack' I was just Stiles not his mate just Stiles
"Hello Dalthaven pack" i shook everyone's hand smiling sweetly at them all. "I just finished cooking dinner i cooked to much, guess i'm to use to cooking for Derek's pack there is plenty there please feel free to dig in there's Ice Cream, Chocolate and whipped cream in the fridge for desert as i said feel free to dig in" I couldn't stay here i had become no one i had become Stiles i wasn't important any more. "I hate to run but i got a call before you all arrived from my friend Lydia she's having issues with one of the weddings being double booked by accident so i'm going to have to leave you all. " i turned to Derek "I don't know when i'll be home don't wait up" I grabbed my keys and phone of the table and moved towards the door seeing that Derek had blocked my car in. "Shit" i mumbled turning around grabbing his keys out of his hand "I'll move yours" I jumped down the 3 steps getting his car throwing it in reverse and moving it to the left the wheels lit up slightly.
I could see out of the corner of my eye Derek glaring at me.
"Stiles what the hell was that?" He yelled i throw the keys into the forest "Of course you care cause its your baby" I whispered jumping into my jeep and driving out of the drive passing Issac, Erica and Boyd as they looked worried heading towards the house.
The longer i drove the more i got angrier because i could hear my phone ringing at first it was Derek then the rest of the pack down to my dad calling.
I had become nothing
I had become 'Stiles' I use to be 'I want you t meet my Mate Stiles' and at the same time he would wrap his arm around my waist kissing my neck in that way he knew i like the way that would make me drop what ever i was doing just so that i could jump his bones.
When i left for college he would come every weekend even if we couldn't do anything but be in the same room because i had to study he would just sit there and watch me he told me one day when i asked him why. He said it was he didn't care if we didn't speak one word to each other it was knowing that we where both there in the room together. It was his way of showing me how much he loved me. It went from weekly to fortnightly to monthly to not coming anymore he would call and txt be he stopped visiting but i never really noticed with so much studying somedays i couldn't remember what day it was how long it had been since anything
He never asked me if I wanted to go with him on his trips to other packs didn't call didn't tell me he missed me when he came home because he's barely been home long enough.
Did he even want to be with me anymore.
i felt a sob rip through my chest did i want to be with him did i want to keep trying with someone who wasn't trying back.
I stopped the car when i seen the sign Thank You for visiting Beacon Hills.
Before i could change my mind and turn around i kept driving i grabbed my phone that kept ringing throwing it in the back and turning my radio on as loud as i could without it hurting my ears.
A song came on that made me cringe i started to sing along
I thought, I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well, you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
The conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
It crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn
There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on this floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn"
"Shit" I whispered
I drove to the nearest motel wanting to get of the road.
I pulled into a motel and went in booking a room for the night. I went back to my car grabbing my phone and laptop from the back seat i seen that i had 30 missed calls 10 voicemail's and 11 texts
I went to my room and read the texts
SCOTT: Stiles man Derek called me said you where mad and drove of call me back when you see this
*Stiles
*STILES
ISSAC: Mum what's going on
ERICA/BOYD: Where worried about you please call when you get this
Mum please its been 5 hours
I frowned looking at the time. Crap how did i lose so much time
LYDIA: Derek called asking where you are i didn't know you had told him that you where coming here. Tell me next time i will cover for you.
I sighed deleting the rest of the txts and pushed play on the voicemail's
Derek: Stiles where are you come back why are you so mad?
Scott: Derek dude i have an angry Alpha at my door scaring my very pregnant girl friend call me back tell me what the hell happened
Derek: (I heard Derek's angry growl) Stiles you are embarrassing me in front of the Dalthaven pack come home so we can talk.
I felt my anger boil over and called Derek back he answered on the second ring
"Are you done being childish now?" My breathing started to get heavy i was getting angrier
"I'm being childish" I growled "Go fuck yourself Alpha Hale. I'm not doing this anymore i'm not going to stick around and let you treat me like crap. I'm going away for awhile don't call don't text don't use the pack to get in contact with me because i'm throwing my phone into a lake. Entertain your guests Derek i'll call my dad to pick up my things tomorrow from you're home" I hung up calling my Dad
"Stiles what's going I've had Scott, Derek, Lydia calling me every 5 minutes asking me if I've heard from you what happened where are you?"
"I'm at a Motel for the night i got sick of it Dad of being nothing to him anymore. I'm going to New York for a bit i got an offer from a friend out there to write for his paper for awhile i'm going to take him up on his offer i need some things can you go to Derek's and pick up a few clothes for me and my passport please the writing my need me to travel so i need it."
"Stiles son i'll do what ever you need me to but are you sure this is the right thing to do you don't think you should stick around and talk to Derek he love's you, you love him still don't you?"
"I don't know anymore dad"
"Okay son i'll go now where are you i'll bring the things to you" I gave him the address "Be careful ill be there in an hour or 2"
"Thank's dad. Oh and can you not say anything to anyone specially not the pack"
"Sure son" He hung up.
My phone started to ring once i hung up it was Derek. I sent him to Voicemail and called Ryan in New York
"Hello? Stiles?"
"Ryan hi sorry to call you out of the blue how are you?"
"I'm great I just got your email I'm gutted you couldn't go on that trip for me i think you would have really like it"
"That's actually why I'm calling i changed my mind i would love to go"
"Great when can you leave"
"Tomorrow morning?"
"Perfect i'll book your ticket for the morning and send you the details, thanks for this Stiles i don't think i would get anyone better then you" I half smiled
"No problem I'm happy to do it"
"I'll have some one meet you at the airport tomorrow with the camera's that you will need."
"Great thanks for this Ryan"
"No thank you, you are saving my ass. Goodnight Stiles"
"Goodnight Ryan"
10 minutes later and emailed popped through with my flight number and times and who i had to meet at the airport for the things i needed. First stop was New Zealand
I'm actually going to do this.
Two hours later i heard a knock on my door i got up looking out the window seeing my dads cruiser sitting there, i unlocked the door seeing him standing there.
"Do you know how hard it was for me to get this stuff" I frowned at him confused "Derek wouldn't let me in the house" I cringed "He thought i was there to take all of your things" I sighed moving to sit down on the edge of the bed "He looks terrible Stiles so do you"
"I have to go give him some space to figure out what he wants cause lately it isn't me. Did you get my passport" He reached into my bag he was still holding and passed it to me "Where are you really going?"
"New Zealand first Australia next and so on until i don't want to anymore"
"Promise me you won't stay away for long that you will come back"
"I'll come back i will always come back Beacon Hills is my home it's where my family is i can't stay away for to long" He nodded standing and pulling me into a hug kissing the top of my head "I love you kid"
"Love you to dad" He moved to leave but stopped turning back to me looking conflicted
"Derek said something to when i was leaving told me to tell you"
"Tell me"
"Soulmate"
I smiled cringing "Thanks for telling me"
Dad hugged me one more time telling me to be careful before leaving.
I moved to the bed curling into a ball and letting the anger and tears out screaming into the pillow i felt the energy drain from my body
I fell asleep dreaming about the story behind Soulmate
Dream state
"Stiles" Derek whispered as I moved to lay in bed next to him after 12 hours of writing a 50.000 word paper for class i kept getting distracted by Derek's sexy body
"Yeah" i whispered bearing my head into his chest
"Do you know what Mates mean?"
"The wolf version of soulmates right what Scott and Kira are right? everyone has a true love... someone who is made just for them. TO be apart for long periods of time is pai-" i stopped look up at Derek "Painful it hurt it feels like someone is trying to rip you heart out with a spoon"
"You feel that?"
"Yeah. When i haven't seen or heard from you in awhile. What are you trying to tell me"
"Stiles you are my mate... my soulmate my wolf calls to you that's why i come here every weekend it's because i need to see you i need to feel you my wolf and i need you know that your still there that you haven't left"
"I'll never leave you Derek i love you"
"I'll never leave you Stiles I don't know what i would do if i ever lost you" I felt his arms tighten around my body
I tightened mine back showing him that i cared just as much
"Luckily you don't have to imagine because once i finished College i'm going to come home and were going to move my things into you- our house and we are going to live forever"
End Dream
" Derek" I sobbed