This idea just kind of came to me out of the blue and I decided to write it down. I'm still not entirely sure how I feel about it so let me know what you think. Do you think I should continue or not?
"What Ellie has is a type of cancer known as Sarcoma. It is one of the more treatable cancers since it was discovered early." Fitz didn't hear much of what the doctor said after that. All he could think of was losing his little girl before her life even really began.
"How do we treat it?" He asked in a voice that didn't sound like his own.
"Well." The doctor began. "First we remove as much of the tumor as we can, then we administer radiation and chemotherapy to kill any cells that are left in her body."
"She's only 3. Can her body handle all of that?" He looked through the window in the doctor's office where was sitting. He watched Ellie playing with one the nurses completely unaware of how sick she was.
The doctor nodded. "Believe it or not the human body can withstand a lot, even at a young age. She will, however, become tired and may be in bit pain occasionally." Realizing that Fitz needed a minute to take everything in, he paused for a moment. "I have one question for you." When Fitz nodded he continued. "I know that Ellie is adopted so you may not know but..Does cancer run in her biological family's history?"
Fitz shook his head. "No. I don't know. I don't know much about her biological family."
"Okay." The doctor answered. "If you have no more questions." The room was silent for a moment so the doctor continued. "I am going to set up an appointment for her at the hospital. They can give you a little more information than I can and start her on a treatment plan."
It had been three months since that day but the memory of it was still fresh. Some days were better than others. Some mornings Ellie's green eyes were bright and she was full energy, but other times she was in so much pain that she could barely move. Those days were the worst. Those were the ones that scared him. Those days they would lay in bed and watch cartoons or he would read to her or tell her stories. He would rub her back to soothe her enough to go to sleep.
Heading down the hallway that he was all too familiar with at this point, Fitz called the elevator and waited. The doors opened and he pressed the number for the floor he needed to go to. The door was almost closed when it opened back up. "Sorry." The woman said as she got on the elevator and stood beside him. "Hi."
"Hi." He smiled at her. "What floor?"
"Nine." She answered. The elevator began climbing. By the third floor there an awkward silence between the two. Fitz glanced over at the woman quickly and turned back to face the doors.
"I'm Fitz." He turned to look at her as they reached the fourth floor.
"Olivia." She smiled at him. She noticed the bag that he was holding. "You're a fan of Princess and the Frog?"
"What?" He asked then looked down at the bag in his hands. "Oh no." He chuckled. "This is my daughter's bag. Princess and the Frog isn't really my cup of tea."
"You're daughter's in the.." She drifted off not wanting to be too forward.
"Yeah. She's in the hospital."
"I'm sorry."
"Thanks. Do you have a child here or?"
"No. I'm visiting my niece." It was silent again as the elevator approached the 8th floor and then the 9th. The doors opened and they walked out into the hallway. They turned to each not really sure what to day or do. Olivia looked into his eyes noticing how blue they were and how easily she could get lost in them.
"Well it was nice to meet you Olivia."
"You too Fitz." With that she was gone down the hallway opposite of the direction he was headed in. He watched as she disappeared out of his sight.
"Hey." He whispered as he opened the door mindful of Ellie who was sleeping.
"Hey."
"Thanks for sitting with her Gia."
"It's no problem Fitz." She answered setting her phone down.
"The doctor come?" He took his jacket off and put it in a chair along with the bag he had been carrying.
"Yeah but you weren't here so he said he would come back later." She watched him for a moment noticing the bags under his eyes. "How are you?"
"I'm fine."
"Fitz." She said not believing him.
"I'm tired. I'm worried."
"I know things are tough right now. We're all scared for her, but she's strong. It might take some time but she'll get better."
He nodded and looked down and her body which was stretched out on a bed that was way to big for her. Before he knew it his eyes were watering and he was trying to keep the tears in. He felt a hand of his back. "Why don't you take a minute and get yourself together? If she wakes up and sees you like this it will just upset her." He looked at her one more time and turned for the door. He walked until he reached the chapel and took a seat in one of the pews. He sat there thinking.
Olivia was on her back to the elevator after offering to run and go get a couple things for her sister. As she was passing the chapel she noticed a man sitting alone. When she closer to the door she realized that it was Fitz. She was about to walk away when Fitz turned around and noticed her there. Unsure of what to say when she noticed his red eyes and wild hair, she made eye contact with him.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't be here." She said nervous under his gaze.
"No. No it's okay. I just needed a moment but I need to get back." He stood up and ran his fingers through his hair. "My sister-in-law is probably wondering where I am."
"I know I don't know you but it's okay to take a moment for yourself. This, all of this, is stressful."
He nodded. "You sound like Gia." He chuckled but stopped when he noticed her confused expression. "My sister-in-law." He clarified.
"Maybe you should listen to her."
"You're right. You're both right. I just...I feel selfish."
She walked closer to him. "You shouldn't. You have to take care of yourself to be able to take care of your daughter. It's okay to cry or be angry and upset."
He thought about what she said for a moment. "Thank you." He looked down at her brown eyes. "This probably isn't the best first impression of someone."
"Actually my first impression of you was that you liked Princess and the Frog so."
He laugh a little. "Right." They were silent for a moment looking at each other.
"I have to go." She said breaking the silence. "I promised my sister I would go pick up some things for her and she hates when I take too long."
"Okay. Thank you for the advice."
"No problem." She said with a smile.
Here it is. I don't really know much about cancer so I have turned to google but if at any point I get something wrong please let me know. I hope you liked it. Let me know. Until next time...
