I cant fight this feeling any longer
And yet Im still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
We're friends now. I admit that. We tell each other things no one else knows. But I can't do this anymore. I can't shy away again. Despite the popular belief, I don't hate you. Not at all actually; quite the contrary I really like you. That is an understatement but I need to keep denying this feeling.
And even as I wander
Im keeping you in sight
Youre a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
After my parents died and Tuney married that walrus I thought no one loved me. You held me and said it would be okay and only you could make me believe it. That's when I started to know it's too real to be able to fight.
And I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
Its time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore
We fight. My fiery temper doesn't really help. You should know I fight to hide the feelings that boil deep within me. I fight do you won't break my carefully created anti-love wall around my heart. I won't love. I can't love anymore. Anyone I love just gets hurt! I can't imagine what I'd do if something happened to you.
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
Ive been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that Im following you, boy
Cause you take me to the places that alone Id never find
You make me feel so many emotions I didn't even know I could feel before I knew you. You're always on my mind no matter how hard I try. I just can't shake that feeling of wanting more. I want you. I need you.
Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.
So there I was, standing outside your door. My hand rest upon the door in a fist ready to knock. I could hear you shuffling around your room. I sighed, I can't do this. I know I need to, I just can't.
"James, I need you to know. I'm in love with you. I always have been and you singlehandedly somehow broke through the wall I built around my heart. I tried to hate you. I really tried. I can't hate you. I just, I really love you. Just so you know" I whispered through your door. All my strength seemed to leave me. I slid my back down your door and continued "I know you can't hear me. I just need to say this out aloud. I can't deny this anymore. I can't fight this. I love you."
On the other side of the door you sat, both of us leaning on opposite sides of the door. You heard me. Finally requited.
"I love you Lily. You don't need to say it aloud ever again as long as you feel it." You whispered back.
In my relief I jumped and came crashing through you're door. You fell backwards from where you were leaning on the door. I crawled toward you. We lay on the hardwood floors talking in one another's arms.
Giving in to love was the best decision I have ever made.