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Runaway
Steven Hyde was about to do the hardest thing he had ever had to do in his entire life. He had been going over the pros and the cons of his decision for days now. What other choice did he have? They were all wrong for each other. They had practically nothing in common. Most of their friends didn't even understand why they were together but that had never mattered to him until lately. All the reasons why not began to outnumber the reason why.
Yes he loved her, but it wasn't enough, and he knew that she loved him. But love simply wasn't enough for two people as different as they were. They were still very young. They hadn't really experienced much of anything yet. They had so much stacked against them.
If he didn't call it off now he knew he would never have the strength to do it later. He had to do it now before there were engagement rings, marriage licenses, weddings, or children. She'd thank him for it later. They didn't stand a chance in hell in surviving the test of time and he was sure that deep down she knew it too. So it was now or never.
So why did he feel like he was about to lose the only good thing that had ever happened to him? Why did he feel like he was ripping a piece of his heart out? Last night they had made love like it was the first time and the last time. He had made love to her with an intensity that still shocked him just thinking about it. She had asked him if something was wrong but he had decided to wait and to just savor what time they had left.
She had just graduated from high school two weeks ago. In another month it would be their 2 year anniversary of when they had first kissed in the basement, bored out of their minds from watching "The price is right". He knew exactly what was going on in her mind about where their relationship was headed. She wanted to get married and have babies and she probably thought he wanted it too; maybe he did, but should they? Would it just eventually turn into a screaming mess? Would they eventually end up hating each other? He couldn't bear that thought. He knew what he had to do.
Jackie Burkhardt had never been happier in her life. She had just graduated from high school two week earlier and felt like she was finally free. Free to begin her life with Steven. She loved him so much. She loved him so much it scared her sometimes. Sure, he was rough around the edges, but she knew he loved her. He had trouble showing it sometimes, rarely said it, but she knew he did.
He had called her a few hours ago and said that he needed to talk to her about something very important. That could only mean one thing, right? He was going to propose, or at the very least want them to live together.
She called Donna and asked her to come over. She went downstairs to let Donna in.
"Jackie, what's so important? You were so hyper on the phone I could barely understand you." said Donna, puzzled with her friends behavior.
"Donna, I think Steven's going to propose tonight!" Jackie was practically jumping up and down with excitement.
Donna was silent, shock written all over her face. "Jackie, what makes you think that."
"Donna, he called earlier and said that he had something really important he wanted to talk to me about. I mean we've been together for almost 2 years; we're both out of school. We love each other. What reason is there to wait?" Jackie excitedly explained.
"Jackie, I don't know. Are you sure about this? I mean Hyde just doesn't seem like the kind of guy that's ready to get married." said Donna, concerned that her friend was getting all excited over nothing.
"Donna, you don't know him like I do. Last night he made love to me like his life depended on it. He's ready, I just know it. Donna, I love him so much! I can't wait until we can finally be together all the time. He's practically lived her anyway since my Dad's been in prison and since my Mom divorced my dad and ran off with that guy she met in Mexico."
Jackie looked out her bedroom window and saw Hyde parking his car. "Donna, He's here!"
"Ok Jackie, I'll let myself out. Good luck, call me later ok."
"Thanks Donna, I will."
Donna opened the front door and let herself out and let Hyde in at the same time.
"Hey Donna, What's up?"
"Oh nothing, Jackie and I were just having a little girl talk."
Donna noticed that Hyde looked like he'd just lost his best friend or like he was awaiting his execution. Maybe he was going to propose. Donna was puzzled about what the hell was up with Hyde, but she was sure Jackie would call her up later all hyper about whatever Hyde had said.
Hyde walked upstairs and knocked on Jackie's bedroom door.
"Come in" Jackie said eagerly. "Hi Steven, I missed you." Jackie threw her arms around him and kissed him on the lips and he instantly responded by wrapping his arms around her and deepened the kiss. He forced himself to pull away, remembering why he was here and what he had to do.
"Jackie, I think you should sit down for what I have to say. It won't be easy for you to hear and it's not easy for me to say."
Jackie went absolutely still and all the blood drained from her face. This didn't sound anything like she had been hoping to hear.
"Ok Steven, what's wrong?"
He turned his back from her, almost losing his nerve. No, he couldn't back down now. He had to do this. "Jackie, I don't think we should be together anymore."
Jackie felt like she was going to throw up, like she was going to faint. She didn't believe what she was hearing. "What!!" she screamed at him.
"Jackie, listen to me. We have nothing in common. We're all wrong for each other."
"Steven, Look at me!" He turned around and the sight of her face almost broke what was left of his heart.
"How can you say that? I love you! I love you more than anything on the face of this earth! Maybe we don't have everything in common, but we have enough in common of what really matters." Jackie pleaded.
"Jackie, great sex is not enough reason to stay together." Hyde said calmly.
She stared at him dumbfounded. He could have slapped her across the face and it would have hurt less. Tears started to stream down her face.
"So is that how you see me? Just a piece of ass! A great fuck! So basically what you're saying is I'm good enough to sleep with, but not good enough to marry. Is that it Steven?!!!"
"Jackie, I never said that. I didn't mean that. Jackie, I do love you, but it's not enough. I would never last and you know it." Hyde pleaded, trying to find a way to make her understand.
"Steven Hyde, You are a God damn coward! What it boils down to is that we keep getting closer and closer and that scares you to death, doesn't it?! So you have to make up reasons to runaway so you don't have to feel anything. And to think I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. All I've ever wanted is for us to be together, but I guess I was wrong about that. I've been so stupid where you're concerned. I fooled myself into believing this fantasy of you and me. You're right Steven, it would never work, but not for the reasons you've come up with. It's because you're too afraid to really love someone, heart and soul. You don't have faith in us! If you don't, I guess I don't either! Jackie screamed, crying hysterically at the same time.
"Jackie, I..."
"Just shut up Steven, I don't want to hear any more of your excuses. I just want to know is she prettier than me? Is she better in bed? She'd better be worth it!" she screamed.
"Jackie, There isn't anyone else" pleaded Hyde.
"Ya, I've heard that before!" Jackie said sarcastically.
"Just get out!"
"Jackie"
"Get out!!!!" she screamed, shaking violently.
Hyde tried to grab her shoulder to calm her down.
"Don't you ever touch me again! To think that I was stupid enough to give myself to you body and soul. I would have done anything for you, anything!!!! But its all meaningless isn't it?! What was last night all about? Good bye sex, just one more lay before you were out the door on to greener pastures!!"
The look on Hyde's face was an admission of guilt as far as Jackie was concerned.
"Just get out before I call the police and have you thrown out!" She started pounding on his chest with her fists. "Get out, Get out! I hate you!"
He didn't need to be told again, and with those last words he was out the door.
She just fell to the floor on her knees and cried, and cried until there was nothing left. She went into her father's liquor cabinet and grabbed a bottle of scotch and just sat in the corner and took drink after drink, the liquid burning as it went down her throat, but she was in too much pain to care. She drank until practically half the bottle was gone. Eventually she passed out, either from the grief or booze, probably a combination of both. A few hours later she woke up only in time to get to the toilet to throw up. She caught a glance of herself in the mirror and she looked as wretched as she felt, red swollen eyes and cheeks from crying for hours, and matted hair from all the tears and lying on the floor.
Suddenly an idea came to her in a moment of what some call clarity. She knew what she had to do. She would leave Point Place. She would go somewhere, anywhere but here. She didn't know where, but she would figure that out later.
************************************** Here's my angsty J/H story. It seems hopeless now, but who knows what will happen? Let me know what you think. Thanks!
Runaway
Steven Hyde was about to do the hardest thing he had ever had to do in his entire life. He had been going over the pros and the cons of his decision for days now. What other choice did he have? They were all wrong for each other. They had practically nothing in common. Most of their friends didn't even understand why they were together but that had never mattered to him until lately. All the reasons why not began to outnumber the reason why.
Yes he loved her, but it wasn't enough, and he knew that she loved him. But love simply wasn't enough for two people as different as they were. They were still very young. They hadn't really experienced much of anything yet. They had so much stacked against them.
If he didn't call it off now he knew he would never have the strength to do it later. He had to do it now before there were engagement rings, marriage licenses, weddings, or children. She'd thank him for it later. They didn't stand a chance in hell in surviving the test of time and he was sure that deep down she knew it too. So it was now or never.
So why did he feel like he was about to lose the only good thing that had ever happened to him? Why did he feel like he was ripping a piece of his heart out? Last night they had made love like it was the first time and the last time. He had made love to her with an intensity that still shocked him just thinking about it. She had asked him if something was wrong but he had decided to wait and to just savor what time they had left.
She had just graduated from high school two weeks ago. In another month it would be their 2 year anniversary of when they had first kissed in the basement, bored out of their minds from watching "The price is right". He knew exactly what was going on in her mind about where their relationship was headed. She wanted to get married and have babies and she probably thought he wanted it too; maybe he did, but should they? Would it just eventually turn into a screaming mess? Would they eventually end up hating each other? He couldn't bear that thought. He knew what he had to do.
Jackie Burkhardt had never been happier in her life. She had just graduated from high school two week earlier and felt like she was finally free. Free to begin her life with Steven. She loved him so much. She loved him so much it scared her sometimes. Sure, he was rough around the edges, but she knew he loved her. He had trouble showing it sometimes, rarely said it, but she knew he did.
He had called her a few hours ago and said that he needed to talk to her about something very important. That could only mean one thing, right? He was going to propose, or at the very least want them to live together.
She called Donna and asked her to come over. She went downstairs to let Donna in.
"Jackie, what's so important? You were so hyper on the phone I could barely understand you." said Donna, puzzled with her friends behavior.
"Donna, I think Steven's going to propose tonight!" Jackie was practically jumping up and down with excitement.
Donna was silent, shock written all over her face. "Jackie, what makes you think that."
"Donna, he called earlier and said that he had something really important he wanted to talk to me about. I mean we've been together for almost 2 years; we're both out of school. We love each other. What reason is there to wait?" Jackie excitedly explained.
"Jackie, I don't know. Are you sure about this? I mean Hyde just doesn't seem like the kind of guy that's ready to get married." said Donna, concerned that her friend was getting all excited over nothing.
"Donna, you don't know him like I do. Last night he made love to me like his life depended on it. He's ready, I just know it. Donna, I love him so much! I can't wait until we can finally be together all the time. He's practically lived her anyway since my Dad's been in prison and since my Mom divorced my dad and ran off with that guy she met in Mexico."
Jackie looked out her bedroom window and saw Hyde parking his car. "Donna, He's here!"
"Ok Jackie, I'll let myself out. Good luck, call me later ok."
"Thanks Donna, I will."
Donna opened the front door and let herself out and let Hyde in at the same time.
"Hey Donna, What's up?"
"Oh nothing, Jackie and I were just having a little girl talk."
Donna noticed that Hyde looked like he'd just lost his best friend or like he was awaiting his execution. Maybe he was going to propose. Donna was puzzled about what the hell was up with Hyde, but she was sure Jackie would call her up later all hyper about whatever Hyde had said.
Hyde walked upstairs and knocked on Jackie's bedroom door.
"Come in" Jackie said eagerly. "Hi Steven, I missed you." Jackie threw her arms around him and kissed him on the lips and he instantly responded by wrapping his arms around her and deepened the kiss. He forced himself to pull away, remembering why he was here and what he had to do.
"Jackie, I think you should sit down for what I have to say. It won't be easy for you to hear and it's not easy for me to say."
Jackie went absolutely still and all the blood drained from her face. This didn't sound anything like she had been hoping to hear.
"Ok Steven, what's wrong?"
He turned his back from her, almost losing his nerve. No, he couldn't back down now. He had to do this. "Jackie, I don't think we should be together anymore."
Jackie felt like she was going to throw up, like she was going to faint. She didn't believe what she was hearing. "What!!" she screamed at him.
"Jackie, listen to me. We have nothing in common. We're all wrong for each other."
"Steven, Look at me!" He turned around and the sight of her face almost broke what was left of his heart.
"How can you say that? I love you! I love you more than anything on the face of this earth! Maybe we don't have everything in common, but we have enough in common of what really matters." Jackie pleaded.
"Jackie, great sex is not enough reason to stay together." Hyde said calmly.
She stared at him dumbfounded. He could have slapped her across the face and it would have hurt less. Tears started to stream down her face.
"So is that how you see me? Just a piece of ass! A great fuck! So basically what you're saying is I'm good enough to sleep with, but not good enough to marry. Is that it Steven?!!!"
"Jackie, I never said that. I didn't mean that. Jackie, I do love you, but it's not enough. I would never last and you know it." Hyde pleaded, trying to find a way to make her understand.
"Steven Hyde, You are a God damn coward! What it boils down to is that we keep getting closer and closer and that scares you to death, doesn't it?! So you have to make up reasons to runaway so you don't have to feel anything. And to think I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. All I've ever wanted is for us to be together, but I guess I was wrong about that. I've been so stupid where you're concerned. I fooled myself into believing this fantasy of you and me. You're right Steven, it would never work, but not for the reasons you've come up with. It's because you're too afraid to really love someone, heart and soul. You don't have faith in us! If you don't, I guess I don't either! Jackie screamed, crying hysterically at the same time.
"Jackie, I..."
"Just shut up Steven, I don't want to hear any more of your excuses. I just want to know is she prettier than me? Is she better in bed? She'd better be worth it!" she screamed.
"Jackie, There isn't anyone else" pleaded Hyde.
"Ya, I've heard that before!" Jackie said sarcastically.
"Just get out!"
"Jackie"
"Get out!!!!" she screamed, shaking violently.
Hyde tried to grab her shoulder to calm her down.
"Don't you ever touch me again! To think that I was stupid enough to give myself to you body and soul. I would have done anything for you, anything!!!! But its all meaningless isn't it?! What was last night all about? Good bye sex, just one more lay before you were out the door on to greener pastures!!"
The look on Hyde's face was an admission of guilt as far as Jackie was concerned.
"Just get out before I call the police and have you thrown out!" She started pounding on his chest with her fists. "Get out, Get out! I hate you!"
He didn't need to be told again, and with those last words he was out the door.
She just fell to the floor on her knees and cried, and cried until there was nothing left. She went into her father's liquor cabinet and grabbed a bottle of scotch and just sat in the corner and took drink after drink, the liquid burning as it went down her throat, but she was in too much pain to care. She drank until practically half the bottle was gone. Eventually she passed out, either from the grief or booze, probably a combination of both. A few hours later she woke up only in time to get to the toilet to throw up. She caught a glance of herself in the mirror and she looked as wretched as she felt, red swollen eyes and cheeks from crying for hours, and matted hair from all the tears and lying on the floor.
Suddenly an idea came to her in a moment of what some call clarity. She knew what she had to do. She would leave Point Place. She would go somewhere, anywhere but here. She didn't know where, but she would figure that out later.
************************************** Here's my angsty J/H story. It seems hopeless now, but who knows what will happen? Let me know what you think. Thanks!