Here's a one-shot I wrote after rewatching the episode Nesting Dolls. Hope you like it. Enjoy and don't forget to read my other stories.

Have you gone a week without a rationalization?

Most people use rationalizations to cope with the bad things that go on in their lives. I gathered that much from life and the things that Grissom told me earlier. I wonder if he has ever rationalize moments in his life. I doubt it. He called me out on what he thought was a rationalization, it wouldn't be like Grissom to point out unhealthy behavior when he himself practices it. Then again its Grissom, the enigma, who knows what he does or what he will do. I wasn't expecting him to show up on my doorstep... not that I'm complaining or anything. Its just confusing sometimes.

I'm not rationalizing anything. I crossed the line with Catherine and I was insubordinate to Ecklie.

I was even more confused when he started talking about rationalizing. I told him he was totally off base on that one. I wasn't trying to minimize it or explain it all away. I know I messed up and put myself on the fast track towards unemployment, but the truth is that I used to live on rationalizations. I had to. I had to rationalize the fact that my mother's injuries were not as bad as others made it out to be. I had to explain away the fact that my dad got violent because he really loved us and wanted what was best for us. I mean what father would purposefully beat on his family? I had to rationalize the fact that my childhood was not as bad as others. I had a home. I had a family...before it all went down the toilet ...yes I was better off then some. Then again crying myself to sleep every night as a child was not exactly the picture perfect family everyone in our neighborhood had.

I know its unhealthy to rationalize away everything that goes wrong. To believe that life was not that bad, but it helped me survive. It put me through each and every foster home I was shuffled to. It helped me put up with the constant looks and the gossip about my mother. It put me through school and helped me graduate college. Rationalizations are what kept me sane when I felt I'd go crazy and hurt someone ...just like my parents. Even now I still have this fear of hurting someone.

Is it wrong to rationalize? It might be, but the truth is...

I learned to rationalize.

This was my first one-shot. I hope you guys liked as for my other stories I'm in the process of writing chapters for them I just had to get this fanfic out of my head and posted.

Until Next Time, Ancient 85