This is my first time doing this.. so if its bad.. I totally understand. Because this is my first time doing this.. let me know what you think. BTW- Started right this Thursday morning before the previous episode.
Chapter 1
After the elevator ride from hell yesterday with Addison, Mark, and Meredith, Derek strongly considered taking the stairs this time with Rose. With a sigh of relief he then remembered that Addison was on her way back to L.A. and Mark was in surgery. Derek knew Meredith's shift ended two hours ago after some testing on patients from the clinical trial. They were safe. Pressing the down button, he then turned his attention back to Rose in astonishment at how much candy this grown women ate.
There was a beep signaling to elevators arrival. Derek and Rose turned around, and much to Derek's surprise when the doors opened her saw her. Not bossy Meredith, Not I am fine Meredith, Not rambling Meredith, Not surgery high Meredith. He gasped for air as he stared at a Meredith he had never seen before.
Barely being able to hold herself in place with her shoulders slumped she cried harder than she has ever cried before. Gasping for breaths in between sobs, she looked up and saw the two people she was not ready to see. Why could it not have been Bailey, or flirty man-whore mark? Anyone. Meredith wiped away tears that furiously ran down her porcelain skin and ran out of the elevator, down the stairs, and out of Seattle Grace faster than she has ever done anything in her life.
He blinked. One second she was there in a state he has never seen the next second she gone. He felt sick. He felt like he could not breathe. He could not move.
Pulling out the emergency stop button Rose looked at Derek and said, "You need to follow her."
"What?"
"Derek. I am not stupid. I have been around Grace long enough to know and right now we both know where you want to be. The way you look at her Derek. I would kill to have a man look at me that way. I have waited for you to look at me that way. Any women would, and you only have that look, the look that women would kill for… and you only have it for Meredith Grey.
Pushing the button back in.. The elevator doors opened.. Rose walked out and turned back around, In a sad yet relieving tone she said,
"I really liked you Derek, you are that guy, you are the guy", she got a few tears in hers eyes and continued. "But this, whatever we almost had or tried will never work.. I denied it. I thought you would change. I thought we could change, but this will never work because you will always love her."
As Rose walked over to stairs near the bridge that he loved so much. Derek had so many emotions running through his body. He was mad at himself.. He was mad at Meredith; he was in shock by Rose. He was worried, he was scared for what this meant, and he was tired, he so easily could turned and gone home. The easy way out, Rose just walked away.. She walked away from me, I should just turn and walk away. But the image he had seen several moments before gave him a surge of adrenaline to go and find her. Forget walking away, Derek had walked away too many times before, and he was done, he needed to go find Meredith, he needed to make sure she was okay, he needed her. He knew it all along, it hurt, but deep down he needed her and only her… his breath caught in his throat as all he could think about driving to her house was her sobbing and gasping for breaths.. He needed her.. and he kept telling himself that she was going to be okay.
"Why are you here?"
"Is Meredith here?" Look Alex, I know you hate me.. I know all of you hate me.. but I really need to see Meredith. I need to talk her..Please?
I was on-call last night.. when I got home this morning the girls were leaving.. she hasn't been back since.. and with that he shut the door.