Chapter1 2007. At Massachusettse, Cristina

It's a very rainy day. in spite of the weather, there are many cars in the parking lot. Cristina is getting off the car and she is talking to herself.

"what a beautiful morning it is!! this is so suitable with my first-day-off-in-three-years"

muttering at herself, she is entering the department store.

Three years ago, when Cristina left Seattle, she was crying and she was just alone, even without her person. At the airport, she called Meredith but she was not at her home. So, she left a voice mail that she was leaving and she called later. When she came to the Seattle for being a best surgeon in the world, she was happy and ambitious but when she left Seattle, she was broken, sad and exhausted. All she knew was she had to leave the town, which broke her horribly with a beautiful man, which broke her so badly with a love. In her leaving moment, she was crying and decided that this crying was gonna be the last crying in her life . Talking to herself that made her feel less embarrassed for last crying. She didn't know what to do and what to say and even didn't know why she was crying, she couldn't help but cry at the time in front of strangers just like a parents-lost child. The day when she left Seattle was a heavy rainy day too.

After arriving Massachusettse, she called Meredith again, who found out her missing by recognizing her locker was totally clean and empty.

"It's me, Mere. "

"Where are you? If you failed the wedding, you didn't fail to be a surgeon. Didn't you change your goal being a surgeon into being a hospital janitor, did you? " Mere said.

"Mere, I'm in Massachusettse."

"Why? You remember you are being a resident tomorrow!! You're supposed to be in here, tomorrow morning. Why are you freaking inMassachusettse?"

"I know tomorrow, I am a resident. I'm gonna be a resident here, not in Seattle."

"What?"

"Mere, I moved to here. Today, I'm at the airport."

"You moved to Massachusettse, not even telling me, me, your person?"

"Sorry, Mere. I just could't be there. sorry."

"Bailey knows, chief knows?"

"I told the chief yesterday. now Bailey knows, I think."

"Cristina,.. you O.K?"

"Mere, I don't know. To be O.K, I have to move out. I thought I would not be O.K there."

"I'm gonna miss you, everyday."

"I'm your person even my freaking leaving, right?"

"you are always my person. promise me to call me everyday"

"yeah, I'm gonna do if you don't agreed. then, I have to go. bye Mere"

In last three years, she never had had the day off. of course, she had left the hospital for the official hospital work but this time, she is being in a personal leave. After the non- happy -ended the wedding and moving to Massachusettse, the only thing she did was just work. Her dedications to the hospital was not optional, just she had to do that. Because whenever she was outside the hospital, without patients and surgeries, automatically, she just missed "him", his voice, his kiss, his eyes, his everything. Whenever she drinked coffee alone in her appartment, she just felf as if he was taking a bath in the bath room and walking into the kitchen soon. But, in reality, there was no more "him" for her. So, denying the truth that she was being alone and she was being left in the church, she just had to work.

She worked even on christmas, new years day and of course the thanksgiving. All people in the Harvard Clinic said the only thing she needed desperately was a cool surgery except the oxygen. Sometimes other male doctors in the hospital said that she might be doing a surgery on her pets in her own home during the dinner or she might be doing a surgery on her date in the bed doing "it" with her partner. When she first heard that, she was a little pleased beacuse she thought those comments about her as compliments or respects for her , at least she thought those people were jealous of her.

After coming home, being tired and sad, everyday she called Mere although there was three hours of time difference between the girls, Cristina always used to be home enough late to catch up Meredith's time, it was not the problem. They were still their persons for each other.

When she was coming into a elevator, she heard a woman calling her name. it was Mrs. Dones. The chief of surgery's wife. The chief of surgery in Harvard clinic was a dad-like person to her. Dr. Dones was one of her professor in Stanford. He was a very competent , world renowned and very kind man. The reason she moved to Massachusetts was his offer to her.

"Cristina!!"

"Hi, Monica!, good to see you here!"

"Cristina, so long time no see!, how have you been?"

"I'm good. you know, hospital, surgery things.."

"Oh, honey, Brandon is so worried about you. you have to take a rest. Look at you.

you seem you lose so many pounds now than when I saw you last time."

"it's impossible. if you once look at me in lunch time, you can't say that, definitely!"

"Cristina, listent to me. take a time, you get to have a happy life, personal life. believe me. "

"all right.."

Then, the door is open.

"I'm afraid I have to go. I'm supposed to be with my friend at noon. so, call me we have to take a time for making a personal life to you. I have plenty of numbers for very charming gentleman's number."

smiling for Monica, she answers

"o.k., I promise that. bye"

"bye, Cristina!"

At least, the fact for her weight, it's true. it's not the first time to hear that comment for her weight. she heard some nurses talking about her. they said she looked more gorgeous, sexier and more elegant. Pete, an old friend and a doctor in the same hospital, who was dating with a man, also praised for her new look repeatedly. Recently, she lost her weight ten pounds at least in last two months. she just thought that she was too busy to take a well balanced meal. She couldn't realize that until she saw herself into the mirror in this morning, the skirt it used to suit to her well was too big for her now. so, today, she is shopping for herself. Some skirts and shirts.

She is coming into the Michael Kors shop, the manager is walking to her.

"hi, my name is Sarah. what can I help you?

"thank you, can I be looking around?"

"of course, but. your hair is so wonderfully well with your look"

Looking around the place, Cristina is finding out a wonderful violet shirts and a cream colored ivory skirt. As soon as she's picking up the shirt, suddenly her favorite shirt which belonged to "him" flashed upon her head.

"definitely, I should not buy these things."

Against her, she realized herself buying those outfit hearing the manager's voice complimenting her gorgeous look.

Getting outside the shop, suddenly a familiar voice was getting close to her. Cristina was looking around the whole floor to figure out the voice she heard but there was nothing. She thought she was wrong. It was not possible to happen to her. Smirking at herself, she blamed her stupidity. "How silly still thinking about him, come on Cristina! Delusion is not your things!!"

But, once again, the voice, which once made her happy and smile, was coming to her. It was not definitely a delution. When she looks the other way, around the corner, he was standing with a happy smile, with a beautiful lady. They were coming to her.

A/N : This is my first fic. I figured out this story after seeing season3 finale. So, please let me know about what you think. Plase!!