Disclaimer, I do not own CSI or any of the characters I am merely borrowing them.

This story is set in Sara's point of view. What happens after she leaves Grissom?

Here I was Sara Sidle, I used to be a crime scene investigator but that time had long since passed. Now here I was almost forty it had been almost three years since I had left the confines of Vegas. Now here I was back in San Francisco on my home turf. Instead of an investigator I was now a teacher to college students in Forensic Science but first and foremost I was now a mother of twin two year olds.

I had left Grissom after he told me that we had grown apart. I didn't want to fess up to it all but I knew that time had changed us. I always thought that we could survive anything but I guess that I was wrong. After I left Vegas I had gone on a tour of the Galapagos Islands for around three months. While on that voyage I found myself. Early into the trip I had started feeling very nauseous and sick to my stomach. I first thought that I was just seasick or maybe it was just the food. However three months later when I returned I found out the truth. I had been pregnant the whole time and I just didn't want to admit it to myself. I think I didn't want to admit it because then I knew that I would have a permanent bond with Grissom for the rest of my life. Which I really did not want to have.

Particularly after Greg my best friend and brother told me that Grissom was now with Lady Heather and seemed quite happy. I have to admit that to me that was the most terrible news that I could have heard at that moment. Here the love of my life refused to come with me on this wonderful voyage. But he instead would rather be with Lady Heather than me.

Now ideas started popping into my head right and left. I was jealous and very no extremely angry! My Fiancée the one man that I had loved my entire life whom I had to practically force to love me now was with a tramp. I was still very much in love with Grissom. I had no plans of dating anyone else much less being with anyone else.

Well I found out that after three months of being on a wonderful adventure. I came home and had to face reality. I went to the doctor and he confirmed my worse fears that I was four months pregnant. Not just with one baby no of course not life was never easy for me. Grissom and I had created two little bundles of joy.

For eight months I carried those little bundles around. They were my little secret. Greg and I still stayed in contact through phone calls and email but I never told him the news. I knew that if I did he would only tell Grissom and then that would just add to my pain.

See I was selfish I figured since Grissom was with Heather then he didn't deserve to know about our children. I figured that the twins were his one gift to me. I did not want to get into some custody battle between him and Lady Heather. I knew how much she loved children and I feared her taking mine.

I have to admit that at first I was not at all fond of the idea of becoming a mother. But one look at those innocent and precious little faces and I was hooked. I was completely in love with my babies.

The first one that came into the world was Maxwell Gilbert Grissom I call him Max for short. He came into the world one month early weighing in at four pounds ten ounces and seventeen inches long. He looks a lot like me and Grissom. He has my big brown eyes Grissom's little nose and chin. He has dark brown curly hair and he has very long arms and legs just like me.

Next Madalyn Marie Grissom came into the world weighing in at four pounds even and only sixteen inches long. She looks exactly like her father. Big blue eyes tiny little nose those pouty lips and that round face but she has my chin. I am proud of that feature. She also has dark brown curly locks and long brown eyelashes. I call her Maddy for short. She is short and stubby just like her father. Even her personality is just like his.

My life was just finally starting to feel complete. My babies were now almost three years old and had given me the greatest joy in my life. It is funny how becoming a mother can change a person. I admit that I have grown up immensely I am not selfish anymore those days are long gone like the tide. Having children has taught me the value of becoming patient and even kind. Yes I admit it I Sara Sidle have become patient and kind.

I love waking up in the morning to two little children bouncing on the bed screaming "Mommy, Mommy wake up we want breakast". In their two year old language. Or Mommy Mommy, ook it it's a goggy. Or "No, I don wanna take a nap I not tired. Even though I know that they are.

Max and Maddy are extremely close they even have their own crazy language that they speak to each other that I don't even understand. They are the best of friends. I am sometimes jealous of them because my brother and I never got along that way. We always seemed to hate each other and now we don't even know each other.

The two are completely inseparable they actually remind me of how Grissom and I used to be. We used to be able to complete each others sentences. Or be able to look at one another without saying a word know what each other is feeling. I miss the days of coming home lying on the bed in utter silence and wrapping me arms around him and feeling completely safe. Grissom was the only man that ever seemed to understand how I felt and where I came from.

Now that the children are getting older their personalities are coming around even more. Max is much more like me he is shy but not afraid to tell people how he feels. He is not good at hiding his feelings. I can tell how he feels the moment I look into those large chocolate orbs and see right into his little perfect soul. Yet there are moments when he gets so emotional about things. He knows that he is right no one else is. He knows exactly what he says and he means it with all his heart. He is also very stubborn just like his mother.

Now Maddy on the other hand is exactly like Grissom. She loves bugs she is infatuated with them. She hides her feelings from me. She is very quiet and very shy. Yet there are moments when she will say something that will catch me completely off guard. Sometimes it is hard to believe that she is only a two year old. She is wise beyond her years. She becomes obsessed and engaged in things that you would only think an eight year old could do. She has already started to read bug books. She knows the entire alphabet by heart and sings to her hearts content. She loves music and is quite the little dancer.

Now that years have past I am extremely content in my new role of mother hood. I must admit that I am lonely in the Romance department but the children keep me just enough company to make me feel happy. I love my new job. I teach night school to a bunch of lonely college students who signed up for the odd night schedule. I find that by teaching at night I get to spend all day with my two little butterflies.