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Warning: Nongraphic suicide, angst.

My soul feels torn apart, ripped to shreds by my lover's disbelief in my change of heart. I know I hurt her by going Dark, but now I wish that I had never left. I followed my father, out of misguided loyalty and ignorance.

I never would have gone if I had known what would be expected of me. Doesn't she know that I'd never willingly maim, torture, or kill? Her doubt in me is further destroying the ashes of my soul.

I guess I was ignorant still, to have committed so grievous a wrong, and still think that she'd take me back with open arms.

I feel as if I have lost myself, looking into her hard, unforgiving silver eyes, and listening to her say that she won't accept me, that she doesn't believe in me, that I'm useless, that I'm not worthy of her trust, that I'm not worthy of her love.

It cuts into my soul, it is a pain that cannot be escaped, not with potions, not with death.

There is tornado of death whirling around me, each spin bringing the bodies of friends, family, and enemies alike. It matches the storm that rages within me, the part that longs to stay by her side, no matter what she says, and the part that wants to follow her wishes and go far, far away from here.

I feel as if my heart has been ripped from my chest, as if I'll bleed to death from the pain of caring so much for one who hates me so.

It has been two months now, and I feel like telling her that she never listens. But I will not cause her more pain.

Her father is dead, and she has no one to turn to. It breaks my heart (even more, if that is even) possible, to see her suffering silently.

There is a storm in the halls of Hogwarts, students barely walking, nearly caving from the pain.

There are those, already insane, they walk aimlessly around the halls,tortured out of their minds. I cannot let her join them, for I will have nothing more to tether me to this life.

It is May now, four months since I returned to the dying Light. I have lost all hope of forgiveness, it is time to go. I can hang on another day, perhaps two.

Somehow I came to be on this broomstick, with Potter of all people. I can not feel any hatred, I can't feel anything, I am simply numb.

We are safe from the raging flames. The battle is over, and I see Luna alive. My heart fills with joy, a long forgotten emotion.

I approach her, hoping for forgiveness, but I am met with another rejection. There is nothing to hold me here now, it is time to go.

Dear Luna, I wrote. Know that I love you, and am leaving to spare you the pain of my presence. You never listened to me, with reason too. Who should trust the two-faced betrayer of both the Light and the Dark? You never bloody listened to me, and I accept that. I love you, and because of that, goodbye. I debated signing my name, and decided against it. I didn't want her to feel responsible, or worse yet, blamed for my death.

The Room of Requirement was once more illuminated in flames. I stepped into the fire, never looking back.

The storm of flames consumed me, bringing relief from the constant pain of rejection.

I was ash, drifting in the smoke-scented air, nothing more.

Camp Potter, First Aid: Mandatory Prompts "storm," "ashes," and "reject." / Optional prompts: Escape, "You never bloody listen!" "You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it." - JKR, OoTP.

Stretch Your Boundaries Competition, Round One: OTP. Prompts: Useless, "The heart has reasons that reason does not understand," (Jaques Benigne Bossuel) Never Say Never (The Fray).

The Random Quotes Challenge: "Rage, rage against the dying of the light." - Dylan Thomas, Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night

The Book Thief Challenge: "The only thing worse than a boy who hates you: a boy who loves you."

Before I Fall Challenge: "The road was narrow and winding, and on either side of us the dark, stripped branches of trees lashed back and forth, like the wind had set them dancing."

Essie Nail Polish Names Challenge: One of a Kind.

That's You! Challenge: Ragini.

The Spell, Curse and Charm Challenge/Competition: Lumos.

The Ten Times Ten Challenge, Color: Grey.

The Classic Disney Movie Challenge!: Lion King 2.

The War of the Elemental Song Quotes! (Challenge/Competition), FIRE: The ashes smolder but the warmth's soon gone. -Bob Seger, "You'll Accomp'ny Me"

The Animal Challenge/Competition: Buffalo.

Divergent Competition: "There is power in controlling something that can do so much damage."

The Wand Wood Challenge/Competition: Ebony.