Disclaimer:Nope dont own PJO or the song My Immortal by Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I'm alone
And there's nobody here to save me
If there were
There gone now
I've scared them away
I've scared them all away
That bitter sadness you're feeling right now?
Yeah I feel that
Every
Single
Fuckin
Day
Make it stop
Just please make it stop
I've tried so hard to make it stop
But do you see
I can't stop
I can never stop
So let me ask you
Am I good enough now?
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I finished writing with tears streaming down my face as I silently sobbed; I stood up and placed the note gently on the white marble of the kitchen counter. I sprinted out of the building and to the underpass where I stored my gun. Nobody comes here at night so I shouldn't have to worry about being caught. I silently lifted the gun to my forehead memories darted through my minds
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Nico breaking up with me when he realized where I came from
My mom and Paul abandoning me to go live in some lavish resort in the Caribbean's
Annabeth and the camp bulling me when they realized I was gay
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face – it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice – it chased away all the sanity in me
They don't care about me
No one cares
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Why can't I heal?
Why won't it go away?
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I will make it stop
I will if it's the last thing I do
Ill stop the voices in my head
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Save me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
I closed my eyes
And pulled the trigger.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
...me, me, me.
A/N: Lol i seem to like writing suicide fics. Oh well... You should listen to the song its pretty good :) BYE!