His entire body hurts
What happened?
He just can't remember at all
Besides, he can't recall at all where he is
All the faces, all the voices surrounding him
every single one of them is strange
as if he is at a place, that he never been before
just as he closes his eyes again
deep within he knows someone is missing
Who is this certain someone?
How can he be so sure about this?
Confused as he is he gets up and sniffs out the air
it smells of things usually around in a hospital
something is for sure missing here
something particular, but what exactly?
Despite the nurse calling out for him to stay
taking his chances is the only thing he has right now
so he heads out into nowhere
on the search of whom exactly?
everything is so blurry
but at the same time
A voice is screaming out to him
broken...
worried...
on the verge to lose sanity
over and over again is he hearing his name
but who's name exactly?
Filled with sheer anger and frustration,
fear, sorrow and agony
how is he suppose to be able to reach out
if he knows nothing at all?
Right now he falls on his knees
his eyes wide open
panting, shivering, almost breaking down
a sharp pain resurrecting from deep within his heart
shards of a past filled with terror
words of trust and gentleness frail behind the mere coating
A face looking right at him
ruby-red eyes stricken with horror
painful expression hidden within
skin so pale as the moonlight itself
a fading and broken smile
the last good bye through a river of tears
A shocking realization hits him
he failed...
he failed to protect what is important to him
too weak to save the ones dear to him
he was simply to weak
Right now he punches his fist to the ground
screaming out in pain and agony
allowing these bitter tears to fall
within the gentle rain
his own life is almost draining
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Partly the memories return
but still...
they hurt, they stab, they suffocate him
being on his own
it takes all of his willpower left
to join up with the last survivors
His own voice lost in the void
lifeless blue orbs
drowning in misery, agony and despair
fixed at the abyss once known as life
right now...
everything around is meaningless
Over and over again
he just can't stop blaming himself
for forsake the one heart constantly reaching out
in his eyes he's responsible
for the death toll raging upwards
friends, allies, beloved ones
all gone because he's too weak
Willingly accepting to take the final blow
a voice from far away is now calling out to him
with wide eyes he stares at the horizon
clouded in a mist of black
a man same height as himself
battle-worn, alive, safe
Immediately he breaks down mentally
feeling the soft pelt of his partner now next to him
breathing in the scents he's now used to have around him
the hesitating touch of the hand he knows
with tears in his eyes he looks right into ruby-red
everyone precious to him
they just returned unharmed
,But... but how did you... I saw, how you...'
it's all he's able to say right now
it's all his confused, hazy brain brings up
a warm embrace
the trusted scent now closer to himself
closing his eyes, he realizes
all he needs in life is his shadow
his precious little shadow dragon
he won't let go of him at all
closing his arms around him
hiding his own face in his partners crook of the neck
right now his presence soothes his mind and soul
without his shadow...
he's too vulnerable
without his shadow
he's incomplete
without his shadow
he's just a broken piece