My heart only breaks when it's beating,
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming,
So, I hold my breath - to forget.
Chas lay awake, tears streaming down his face as he shook with every sob wracking his body. He never knew how cruel life could be. He never would have guessed he would be in so much pain.
Life just didn't seem worth living anymore. Just breathing was more pain than he could take. Everything had been going well, he had a job, he had friends... he was going to college next year but that all changed.
John Constantine happened.
He came into Chas' life and turned everything upside down. Every second Chas was awake, John was on his mind. The way he walked, the way he talked, the way he smoked that goddamn cigarette.
Everything.
It was all he could think about... all he dreamt about and John didn't even notice. He couldn't take a hint... he wouldn't see Chas, how could he? He was just another dumb kid.
If Chas had known it would be this painful... his life would become a living hell, he never would have gone anywhere near John Constantine. Never would have followed him around, puppy dog eyes, whining constantly for a chance but he couldn't help it. The second he had lain eyes on John he knew he was something special.
How could you love someone it hurt so much?
Chas shut his eyes, taking a deep breath waiting for the darkness of dreams to ease his pain... but it never did.