I didn't know it was the last time I would see her.

If I had,

I would have held her tight and never let her go.

Han knew this was a mistake. He never should have let her stay with the rebelion, but she still persisted and argued with him about it until he gave in. For a while, he stayed on pins and needles with every recon mission and supply run she went on. Oh course, Luke was always close by and Clover knew how to defend herself if the worse happened but Han knew that the Empire wasn't kind to rebels. Eventually his worry faded away with each successful mission andit became routine for her to be shot at by Stormtroopers who he was told had horrible aim, but that still didn't stop him from seeing her off and hugging her just before she boarded and left. This last mission was supposed to be no different...

They had recieved a coded message from the supply ship that there was more Empirial troopers than orignally scouted, then three hours later they recieved word that the supply pick up was an ambush set by the Empire and that they were engaged in battle. Days went by without a word, until the battle damged ship made its way back to the rebel base with only a third of its crew left alive with the rest either dead, mortally wounded, or captured by the Empire. Clover was among one of the unlucky ones. Han and Luke waited anxiously as the officer in charge of the mission told them the news as Clover was wheeled out. She was one of the worst wounded with blaster bolts burned into her arms and legs, gashes across her stomach and chest, and her wings laying broken and limp at her sides. The commander said that she went in to draw fire away from the other rebels and said that if not for her then most, if not everyone, would have been killed in the ambush. Han and Luke followed behind the medical casket as they took her to the medical bay.

She was in so much pain when they brough her in. She groaned and tossed in the casket and tears streamed down her face. She kept mumbling something between an apology and a plea though she said it too softly for anyone to hear. They rushed her to the medical bay where a medic was already waiting to treat the injuried. They took her back into a room and kept Han and Luke waiting outside, anxiously hoping the damage wasn't fatal. Luke sat in deep though with his eyes closed while Han passed around, blaming himself for allowing her to do these suicidal trips. If he hadn't broken down and let her do this... Maybe if he had just left sooner...

Hours passed and a few rebels came to say their peace and thank him for what she had done. Han nodded blankly as they took the message and didn't say anymore. Another few hours passed and Luke still sat in his chair, but now he was crying. Only a few tears at first, before more floodied down his face. He kept shaking his head saying that she can't be gone; that she couldn't be gone. Han tried to block it out, hoping that the stress had just gotten to him and that this wasn't a moment that he knew something before anyone else did. A few minutes later the medic came back out with a grim face.

She said that they did everything they could to keep her alive and that she fought hard herself to stay awake, but her wounds were too deep and she had lost too much blood. The medic said that she had asked for a pen and paper a few minutes before she died and handed the bloody and scribbled note to Han before saying that they could veiw her body before they took her away to be buried off world.

Dear Han and others,

I know that one or both of you are reading this with tears running down your face and all I can say is that I'm sorry. I knew this would be my last mission, I felt it deep in my chest which was why I am writing this before my passing. Please don't blame yourself for my death. I made this decition on my own to protect those I stood beside. I would rather die by protecting others than survive by running away from the fight.

My mother is beside me. I know that it is most likely the bloodloss causing me to see things, but she is weeping beside me. She's tall and beautiful and has wings with golden tipped feathers. She's saying that she is proud of me for all I have done, but that there was so much more I need to do, and I know this. I wasn't supposed to die this way; not this soon and I know that Luke knows this. He saw it just as I did, but they kept him from remembering.

Mom keeps telling me its time to go and I think she's right. I'm getting really tired and my vision is going kind of white. I can hear singing and it sounds so beautiful almost like a lullaby. I'm sorry. For everything I've done and for all I've yet to do, I'm sorry.

Goodbye for now,

Clover

Han wept when he saw her still body, but he made no noise. Her body lay upon her bed as if she was sleeping. Bactastrips were placed on her blaster wounds and gashes in a vein attempt to keep for alive. Her wings were bloody and twisted up at an angle with bones sticking out from her skin. Leia had joined them now once news of Clover's condition reached her and she clung to Han at the loose of her close friend. Luke held her still and cold hand with both of his and bowed his head almost as if he was praying for his best friend to come back to life and for this to just all be a sick prank or a bad dream. But they all knew that it wasn't. Her chest was unmoving and her eyes were closed. Her lips would no longer hold her smile or carry the sound of her laughter that could brighten the darkest of souls. Her eyes would no longer hold that mistevious twinkle when she sassed her way out of an arguement.

She was gone and Han wished that he had held onto her just a little longer and a little tighter...

AN: None of what I write in these little prompts are canon for Clover's story ark and are just little things that pop into my head from time to time, but I actually shed tears during this because this was actually how I planned Clover to die back when I first started coming up with her charecter. Clover is protective by her nature so it made sense that she would die protecting others. Let me know what you guys think and if you have any prompts you would like me to write just PM me or leave a review cause I always like those :)