Love She Can't Live Without Chapter 1, a jag fanfic

This is my first JAG story so please be kind of nice to me. Hope you all like it. I don't own JAG or the song Love She Can't Live Without by Clint Black. I am just borrowing them for amusement. This story takes place at the engagement party for Mac and Mic.

Mac's POV

He gives her attention, he's constantly, carefully planting the seedsThe only thing missing, is really the only thing she needs

As I hear the first few notes of the song begin to filter out of the speakers I can already tell that this song is one I can relate to. Mic is always giving me attention and care but it isn't what I need. The thing I need is the one thing I can't have.

And he can't give that to her and she can't find it with himSo she'll have to find her way out of love she's not really in

Oh if only those words weren't so true. I can't truly be loved by Mic the way that I need to be loved. Yet here I am at my engagement party, listening to a song I wish I had heard long ago. I can't just leave Mic, not this close to the wedding. It wouldn't be right. But would marrying a man you don't truly love be right either another voice in my head shouts at me.

She can live with what goes with leavingShe knows it's the only wayThough it kills her to give up believin'She can't live with herself if she staysShe could settle for what she'd be feelingIf she gave in and worked this one outShe doesn't want the kind of love she can live withShe wants the kind of love she can't live without

I really need to teach the Admiral how to pick songs. This isn't right. I can now see that clearly. I can't just stay with Mic because I feel I owe it to him. I mean sure I love him, but I'm not in love with him. I really need to talk to Mic. I just wish I had come to this conclusion before this got so far.

She looks in the mirror and sees all the sadness in her eyesIt's never been clearer what he's asking her to sacrifice

I haven't exactly been the happiest in the world since I got with Mic but it's clear why now. I was just settling for second best because the love I truly want was just out of my reach. I guess getting married to Mic was making me give up believing that there was still a chance for Harm and I.

But she can't be his forever, she can't even be his for nowShe'll have to be kind to them both and let go of him somehow

Okay Mac just tell him why you really needed to talk. It's just Mic, if he truly loves you he'll let you go.

"Mic, we really need to talk about the wedding." I state nervously.

"Don't worry Sarah, everything is taken care of. I have everything ready. All you need to do is show up and walk down the aisle to me." Mic replies.

"That's just it Mic. I can't… I can't marry you." Finally, it's off my chest and judging by the look on Mic's face he knew this was coming at some point.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" He asks quietly.

"Yes." I say as he gets up.

"Well, if you ever change your mind. I'll always love you Sarah. I'm going back to Australia. Thanks for the chance." And with that he was out the door and out of my life.

I don't even remember coming over here. I just went on auto-pilot and followed my heart which led me to Harm's doorstep. Before I lose the courage I knock hoping Renee isn't here.

"Mac, what's the matter? Why are you here?" He asks as he opens his door for me to enter.

"I called it off. I couldn't marry him." I reply shakily. The next thing I know I am pulled into Harm's arms and I can hear him telling me that things will be okay.

"Why couldn't you marry him Mac?" I hear him ask gently.

"Because I am in love with someone else." I state quietly.

"Who are you in love with?" I hear him ask just as quietly.

And hardest part is she loves himBut she doesn't want the kind of love she can live withShe wants the kind of love she can't live without

"You."

So, what did everyone think? I just wrote it off the top of my head so I have no idea how good it sounds to everyone else. But please review.