AN: This is Ellie's POV after she left the Party in Degrassi Goes Hollywood. More to come in story form, but i just wrote this cause it's really personal to me right now too, since i'm going through the same thing that ellie is with craig. Comments and critiques please!
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High Tide
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It bubbles up inside me,
Like sand upon the shore.
It creeps and crawls and follows me,
A silent, calming lure.
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We're all alone - the waves and me,
An empty bottle in my hand.
The crashing quiets my drunken thoughts,
My fears dissolve in the warm sand.
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I can't help what you do to me,
This constant push and pull.
Your control enraptures every inch,
My mind and soul are full.
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I wade into the water,
But I dont know how to swim.
My clothes and troubles weigh me down,
My eyes close and life goes dim.
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But somehow you're beside me,
Yanking me from all hope I had.
Can't you just make up your mind?
Your indecision's driving me mad.
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You grab me, tight and sure,
I just can't push away.
I'm losing focus, losing strength,
I just can't keep you at bay.
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I live for this reassurance,
This moment so very rare,
That makes all the doubt and question,
Evaporate in salty air.
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I risked everything to be rid of this,
Put my life out on the line.
Because I know no matter what i do,
You'll never choose to be just mine.
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I've loved you through the best and worst,
But I know you'll never see.
I'll never be enough for you,
So consider this my last decree.
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Let me drown in this back and fourth,
In either you or in high tide.
No matter what, i'll end in death;
The bursting of lungs or when feelings collide.
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The waves calm and the waves kill,
Their cradle lulling me to sleep.
They crash, they push, they dont let me go,
I'm sinking fast, already much too deep.
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The waves are you, one way and another,
A gentle caress on my skin.
I can't swim, I can't love,
This high tide will always win.
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AN: Again, i just wrote this a couple hours ago, so comments please! Love you guys!