Never Let Me Go
An Orange is the New Black Fanfiction
By The Sunshine J
Introduction
My Alex,
I get it. You hate me for leaving you in Paris. For not being there when your mom died. And now you're mad at me for having your parole officer called. I've been trying to speak to you since your return to Litchfield but you're giving me the cold shoulder, and honestly, that's not fair. You've spoke, no, yelled at me once on your first day back and haven't said anything since. Well, fuck you. I've spent the last decade feeling guilty for leaving you when you needed me; for not being a friend. But I couldn't do be around your work anymore. I know you loved me, but you didn't love me enough to notice what your job and the people you worked for were doing to me. I've spent the last ten years floating between guilt and heartbreak. You think the only reason I left is because you asked me to go to Istanbul knowing how I felt after Brussels. I want to be mad that you did what Kubra asked you to do. But I can't be, not really. You didn't know that two days before you asked me, he did too. At least, you were nice about it. I can, however, be hurt. You, who claims to read me so well, couldn't see that I was in pain. I was dying inside and you weren't breathing for me, fighting for me. And without even knowing, you chose his side and tried to make do the work I told him I wouldn't do. I have so much I want to tell you. Maybe I'm too late with my honest explanation but I think, now is the right time. So yes, I had you brought back to prison. Despite what I said that day you came back, it was not to get even with you. I know how cruel Kubra can be when you're not doing what he wants. How vile he can be when you 'betray' him. I couldn't let you run knowing the monster who would be there to catch you and claim you. Alex, I love you and have always loved you. I never stopped. I've never let you go. Please give me a chance to explain. Please, never let me go.
Love Always,
Your Piper
A/N: I also have this posted on Archive of Our Own under the same pen (TheSunshine_J) I will try to update both at the same time but it might be updated faster on Archive of Our Own so check there too :) There's also some really awesome Orange is the New Black stories that are posted there and not on however, this site has more entries. Anyway, this story is based off of the song 'Never Let Me Go' by We Came As Romans and in some portions of the story I will make reference to Lana Del Rey's 'Never Let Me Go' song as well. Please enjoy and I would love to know what you think so send me a review too! :)
Reviews for my hear, criticism for my mind.
The Sunshine J