A/N: I'm so sorry I haven't wrote anything in a while, and by that I mean years! My life got very complicated with school and sorority and just well, life. However I've decided things needed to be simplified (and less expensive in some ways) and so now I'm back! Please note, I am the only person that edits my work so there may be spelling or grammatical mistakes but just go with, you'll probably figure it out!

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She couldn't remember exactly how long they had been together. They had been partners for three years, and first slept together around six months ago. Was that a relationship? Was that the start of their relationship? There were still so many unanswered questions Kate Beckett had for Richard Castle.

She always had a lot of questions, a lot of questions that needed answers. However, she never felt that she never needed an answer more than this. The question had been lingering for weeks now. Were they? Was she? Would he? It seems like a big merry go round of questions that continued to add to each other.

A lot of things about Kate's life had changed in the past six months. She went from a pretty much single, homicide detective with a horrible secret case of PTSD to a… housewife? Well no, not really a housewife, but a missing piece to a two piece puzzle. She couldn't imagine her life without Richard Castle. He was her soulmate. She knew deep down that even though she always was convinced she wouldn't be married with children well, ever, but she could see the impossible happening with him.

Impossible. That's what this all seemed like. A big hot impossible mess. This couldn't be happening, really. It wasn't possible. She wasn't ready for this. She was supposed to be a single homicide detective, not this. Anything but this.

She knew a lot of things in life were trivial. Was this one of them? There were very trivial things in life but this wasn't one. How high her heels were, that was trivial. Where she was, that was trivial. The clothes in her closest, those were trivial. This was anything but trivial. This was life changing, this was Earth shattering.

This couldn't be happening to her. She was only 32. She was 32. Wow. She never realized how old that sounded. Maybe her clock was ticking. Maybe this was happening for a reason. Why in the world would this be happening to her? She would probably never get one clear answer, but it would be something she would have to figure out as this journey went on.

The annoying ringing of the kitchen timer and Lanie walking into her bathroom pulled Kate out of her thoughts, thankfully. She put the test down with the other four tests she had taken today.

Positive. They were all positive. Could this really be happening? Was she really… dare she say it, pregnant?

"Already test number five, believe it yet?" Lanie asked.

This was all so crazy and surreal. Five pregnancy tests, all positive.

"Maybe another, maybe these are just wrong! Maybe it was something I ate?!" Kate said aloud to try and convince herself that this was some sort of error and she wasn't pregnant, but all five pregnancy test came back positive for no apparent reason.

"Is that really how you want to spend your Friday night? Chugging as much water as your body can hold to try and convince yourself this isn't real? This is real Kate, it's happen. You're pregnant! You and Castle are going to have a baby!" Lanie told her being the voice of reason once again.

"Lanie what am I gonna do? Castle and I have only been together a few months and I don't know if he…" Kate began.

"Girl, he's been crazy about you for five years, having a baby is only going to make him crazier about you! This is perfect! Ok maybe not perfect timing, but perfect in this situation!"

Kate was still unsure. Unsure of the ever-present truth, and unsure of how Castle would react. Lanie could read emotions all over her face. A blind man could.

"Look girl, you and Castle have that trip to the Hampton's tomorrow, sit him down and tell him them!" Lanie reminded her.

"I guess you're right. But what if I'm not really… you know…" Kate stated.

"Oh come on! Five positive pregnancy tests?! You don't have to be an expert to know you're pregnant! You're glowing, you can hardly smell anything other than flowers without throwing up. All you ever talk about anymore is needing a nap, what is more obvious?" There was Lanie, reminding her of everything she should already know by now. "Now come on you need sleep or something by now!"

"I don't think I can sleep Lanie."

"Well let's watch a movie! Something!" Lanie begged. She hated seeing her best friend so worried.

Kate didn't move. She sat on the edge of the tub switching stares between the pregnancy tests and the floor. This was all too much, especially at one time. Could she even be pregnant and a homicide detective? All the stress of the present and future bearing down on Kate's shoulders seemed to only help push the tears out of her eyes.

"Oh honey come here." Lanie said softly sitting next to her and pulling her into her arms allowing her to lean on her chest and cry. Lanie waited a few moments before lifting Kate's upper body up to look her in the eye. "Honey, this is wonderful! Bad timing yes, but perfect!"

"How am I gonna take care of a baby? Sometimes I barely have time to take care of myself?" Kate questioned aloud.

"How are YOU gonna take care of a baby? Um, did you forget the amazing man in your life who is crazy about you and would do anything for you?" Lanie reminded her. Lanie wasn't sure if it was the situation or the hormones, but Kate seemed to be forgetful of the wonderful things she had in her life lately.

"How am I gonna know Castle is gonna wanna take care of another baby again? I mean Alexis is 18 and off to college, he surely can't want to do that again…"

"Are you kidding me? The guys is great with kids! You know just as well a I do that he's gonna be so in love with this baby that it's not gonna matter how old Alexis is or when was the last time he changed a dirty diaper. Those are trivial things right now." Lanie reminded.

Trivial things. She knew a lot about trivial things.

Lanie knew at this point the best thing she could do for Kate was be her shoulder to cry on, and that's just what she did. The two of them sat on the edge of the tub for hours until Kate finally lost all of her strength and cried herself nearly to sleep before barely making it into her bed and closing her eyes, still not ready to face the truth in the morning.

A/N: Well, how was that?! I may be updating again soon, may be a little while, I'm not sure but please review, I love and read every one of them!