Declaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or their characters. One-shot.

Jaken was a small imp, destined- he believed- to serve only one person. When he practically offered his life to serve Lord Sesshomaru a couple of hundred years ago he was almost so joyous that he hadn't turned him down that he thought it was impossible for a demon to feel this happy. But he was, and his years of service and work even though full of mischief's and tears were mostly filled with the overwhelming sense of purpose. Everything went along smoothly and very efficiently and he was preparing- already forming pictures in his head- for it to stay like this a whole eternity.

But things are not always what you want them to be. Sometimes life throws things at you just to see how you will handle them, how you will come out of it. If you actually come out of it. But Jaken wasn't the one to handle and he wasn't the one to come out of anything, really. That was his Lord's job. He, well, he was the one most probable to throw tantrums and have constant irritability upon anything that would go against his personal affairs.

So it came to no surprise that he became a constant glum and dull spirit when he was close to the stupid human girl his Lord rescued- because there was no other word for it and he had to admit that it was a sullen feeling the one he felt when he thought about the countless time he had to rescue himself without the assistance of his Lord. Never in the so many decades upon decades of going through Sesshomaru will and every order did he find the years with this human so long and prolonged. It felt like every minute was a month and every hour years and years. Of course he had to admit that the little brat had found, even if the smallest, space in his tiny- very tiny dark hole of a heart. And at times he would silently watch her sleep as they awaited their Lord's return in their campsite and think that she looked the most angelical, sending a wave of calmness and serenity to his mind, something he rarely had time for. But once his Lord did return the same wave will crash and a new bigger one would form, one of rage and fury.

Years later and with a much bitter taste in his mouth he recognized it as jealousy. He was jealous, very great was his envy towards the human girl that was overtaking the place he had worked and sweated over the years in just a small lapse of time. Because late and restless were his night as he waited Sesshomaru's return in their campsite and for what? His Lord, even if he did not admit it or show much interest, was more concern in the well being of the human than him- his loyal servant, the once who sacrifice so much and gave away much more and this girl who had done nothing and gave nothing and didn't know anything.

Yes, Jaken was envious. More when Sesshomaru had offered her a stay at his palace and him who had waited his whole life for this, worked all his life for this- hell, almost died for this didn't. No, it was the girl who mentioned Jaken's stay and of course his tamed Lord would have no choice but to permit it. Because that is what he was, a tamed dog. She had tamed him, and somehow along the way he let it happened. Even though he was still strong and fearful he was domesticated now, trained to do whatever will she wanted even when she wasn't aware of what she'd done and even if he didn't know he was doing it.

If Lord Sesshomaru were to hear him voice his opinions out loud he would surely be without a head now but he doesn't care. Everybody knew- he knew, she knew, everyone working in the palace knew and he was sure his Lord knew too so why the hell should he care for something so obvious? Jaken, concerned with his Lord's wellbeing had come to him with this too, relating him that if he didn't do something soon he would be befallen and what did his Lord say?

"Are you assuming I'm my own father?" he'd told the window he was facing very bluntly, the air of his study turning so dense Jaken felt like he was without oxygen.

"N-No, of course. My Lord? Never." But he cared too much as to deny something as important as this, so with greater conviction he added, "Though if you let it be… then you might as well be his exact shadow."

Rin was the one who took care of his injury for the rest of the week after that day, his Lord never once coming to visit, much less apologize- even though it was highly impossible for it to happen. He was just worried about Sesshomaru's affairs, what was wrong with that? And now Rin sick, for a couple of days, was being treated practically like a queen. Even the servants of the palace were beginning to notice and get annoyed and when Sesshomaru decided that it was best for her to stay at his room the rumors started. The Lord's mother even came to him when word that his son was taking special care of his human pet started to spread around the Court.

Hours later she came out of his study but unlike Jaken she was unscratched. She looked furious and that was saying a lot since she usually kept a cool exterior, of what Jaken had observed over the years.

"I don't know what you think you're doing son but you better get your priorities in order." She had said as she walked out to the hallways full of servants going about their work, Jaken waiting stiffly outside since they both entered the study.

"Leave, mother," his voice was so cold then that Jaken had no choice but to shuddered. What had they been discussing all this time?

She whirled around elegantly, looking calm and cynically in control and somehow that was more frightening than her earlier demeanor. The temperature seemed to drop some degrees. "Soon better than later perhaps, before whatever this is blows in your face. And trust me, son, it will."

Maybe he had found reason in his mother's advice then because after that Sesshomaru seemed to lose interest in Rin's health. Or it was due to the strong gossip going about the palace and the demons around his land that had followed Sesshomaru's mother visit. Either way he had left the palace soon after, telling Jaken that he had business elsewhere even if Jaken was sure he hadn't. The girl seem to get a little better days later though, Jaken in charge of taking care of her even though she was practically in her early twenties- very old in human years to be treated like a child or be left with a nanny. He wondered at times if he will always have this job of babysitting spoil brats and if he will ever venture out with his Lord like he use to one day.

She kept bothering him with their Lord whereabouts with each passing day though and he was about to throw the responsibility to some else when she suddenly collapsed one afternoon, a bloody mess in the palace gardens. Jaken was very scared because he had never seen Rin so unwell all her life, even when she had died-both times in her youth. He guessed it was because she seemed truly dead then as she laid in her bed all sweaty from the blood lost- he did not understood the origin of- and from all the liquids she lost as she vomited all the contents she held in her stomach now.

Jaken waited outside Rin's room as some servants took care of her. It had been two days of this but it felt like two months and every time he was around her he had to grit his teeth because hearing her moan and whimpering made the pain she felt more real to him. They had called a doctor, one from the Court but he was late to arrive. Jaken also made sure to send a messenger after Sesshomaru requesting his immediate return. Rin would constantly call out to him and Jaken feared that if his Lord wouldn't return soon she would die without ever seeing him again, because wasn't she dying?

Jaken flinched as he heard Rin give a high and very thin scream on the other side. She was maybe twenty one and some month's old but in that instant he was brought back in time to when she had fallen on a lose pebble in the ground and had made this same sound. How could she do that? Made him feel sorry for her, made him yearn for a time were a simple scratch was what came out of the scream instead of more screeching. Jaken guessed that what he hates the most is that it would just stop for a moment making him think that maybe it's over but then it will begin in new waves- much stronger within each minute.

The sound was so deafening that he hadn't realized Sesshomaru had come back and was standing in front of him where he sat in the hallway until he spoke.

"Jaken."

Jaken jumped on his feet before he could register the command, already preparing for whatever order would be given. "M-My Lord you have returned."

"What is this about Rin-"

Rin started to scream louder this time and before Jaken could get any words out Sesshomaru was already busting through the doors where the bawling came from. Jaken stayed where he was, shock as he heard some of the crying hum a little bit then out came his Lord carrying pale Rin in his arms. She was gripping both arms around his neck tightly, mumbling about how much pain she was in. The most disturbing thing for Jaken was that as she spoke blood dripped from her lower body leaving trail that followed just outside Sesshomaru's room, where he entered and closed the door.

Jaken didn't dare to interrupt whatever was going on inside and was just glad the doctor came some hours later because Rin's controlled crying (he knew it was because Sesshomaru was there that she had kept some self control though) was starting to fidget somewhat. As the doctor examined Rin Jaken tried to think of when and how she could have gotten this ill. Sure she was sick some days ago now that he recalled but would it really be the same thing now, maybe attacking for a second time. He vaguely remembered that she had puke then but could the same symptoms be related to this now?

Then hours and hours passed by like flies. Jaken knew that whatever it was it couldn't be good though. Who would take this long….? It's just one person? Could she really be dying? He thought that maybe Sesshomaru here with her … that she would be better but now…

Suddenly the door open and the doctor, an old demon with a case, was walking out. Jaken only stared as he made his way, not sure if he should approach the demon. Fist, he was of the Court and a simpleton as him couldn't even come near him without being brusque away. Second, the look on the demon's face was furrowed and very concentrated in thought and if he dared interrupt what should he say?

"No!" Jaken snapped his head towards the sound of Rin enrage voice but the doors were already close. What was going on?

It was too late to ask the doctor anything too because while he distracted himself with what could be happening inside the room he disappeared leaving Jaken to wonder. He was weighing his options, which were wait until Sesshomaru comes out or go and see what truly is happening- because he was already growing worried- when the door opened again and an angry Sesshomaru was stalking out into the long hallway.

"My Lord?" but he was quickly out of sight, almost instantly.

There was maybe a minute of confusion as Jaken stared after his Lord even though he was long gone by now before he heard Rin's sobs. He was wary at first, not knowing what was going on or what to do. Obviously the doctor had given them a bad diagnosis and maybe told them about some treating options or something of the matter, that much was clear. Then he suspects Rin and Sesshomaru were discussing something before he walked out, discontent with something that happened inside the room. Ugh.

Jaken decided to go inside after his hard deliberation, without ever knocking as he just opened the door.

Rin was a mess as she lay in bed sweaty and pale full of vomit in her upper section and blood on the lower. Jaken saw the hope in Rin's eye vanish once he saw it wasn't who she expected. He had to swallow the guilt even though he doesn't know why he should feel guilty in the first place.

"Rin?" he tried, not sure how she should approach this odd predicament.

Her face crumbled as she buried it into her hands, giving a small cry. "Oh, Jaken…"

"What's wrong?" he was starting to raise one of his eyebrows, nearing his Lord ruined bed.

"You have to help me get out of here, please, Jaken." To make her point she pulled her hands away and faced him. This time she looked like she was mad, angry even. But at what? "You have to help me reach Kagome's village, she's a priestess she can help. Go get Ah-Uh while I go look for some spear clothes and-"

"Wait," Jaken eyed her quizzically. She was sure not in opt condition to be walking about less taking long rides to villages and what exactly does she want to go there in the first place? If his Lord was to find out…. "Rin, tell me what's wrong first? "

Her eyes started to water as she looked down at her hands. "They say my body is showing symptoms of abortion…"

Jaken had no choice but to raise both eyebrows this time. "Abortion?"

"Yes," she breathed shakily. "The doctor says that my body can't handle the early stages of…. That is stressing my body… he says that I should really abort because this much anxiety can by fatal for a human like me…."

"You're pregnant." You slut, is what Jaken would have added because only demon babies can be fatal if it's a human mother baring them. Though the question is which servant did she screw up. "Lord Sesshomary knows of this now?"

"Yes, as do I." she said, almost crying. "And- and he's agreeing with the doctor, they both want me to abort…. But I can't, even if he says it will kill me. I just can't."

She was being ignorant about the whole situation and he was starting to get irritated. She would rather save a stupid demon baby from a low life servant and taint Sesshomaru's good name than abort and let this go undetected by the demon society.

"But why?" he asked.

Rin looked up at him insulted. "Do you really need to ask me why? He's my son and I will do anything for him. I'm not going to give his life up for the sake of mine."

"But did you not say that today you knew of him, why grow so attach? You're being stupid about this whole thing, human." He knew that his words were bitter but they were only so because they were true. It just didn't make sense. Something wasn't adding up.

Rin hugged at her stomach, passing a careful hand around it. "Why would I love something I never met, you ask me? Because I love Lord Sesshomaru, Jaken."

The blood from Jaken's face drained as he tried to make sense of Rin's words. "What?"

A/n: What? What? It's Sess baby! Oh, what a shock. Not really. Ugh, this really sucked. I mean I tried to find a better way around her telling him about the baby and the question he would ask that would led to this but it turned out like poop. It was just and an idea that struck me and I really wanted to screw with some people. This is the worst sessrin I've ever written but hey it felt nice writing about how sess deflowered rin up (oh that sounded so nasty)

Anyways: Please review because I am not sure of I should continue this and I'm probably not going to sooo….. idk why I am even asking XP