Santana got up for what must have been the third, forth? Time that night. It was the baby monitor that woke her up, with the sound of Rachel crying.
The reason Rachel kept waking up was because Santana was weaning her off breast milk. They had been doing nursing for over a year now and Santana decided that it was enough. It's not that she didn't love nursing Rachel but the toll it had on her body was getting worse and she wanted her body back.
Clearly Rachel didn't like this and now she couldn't sleep and she had been waking up every night at least four times for the past three days.
Santana walked into Rachel's nursery and found her kneeling up in her crib crying for her Mami. She sighed and walked over to Rachel, pulling the bars down and picking her up onto her hip.
"Come on baby, you've already woken up twice tonight. It's sleep time." Santana cooed.
"Ami." Rachel whimpered.
"No baby, no more ami." Santana told her for the hundredth time.
Rachel's crying got louder and Santana wondered if she would ever get over this.
She sat down in the rocking chair in the corner of the room and cradled Rachel in her lap and rocked her. Rachel reached up and pulled Santana's shirt down but Santana moved her hand and pulled it back up. Rachel started screeching and Santana had to cover her ears it was so loud, she knew it would wake Brittany up.
As if on cue, Brittany walked into the nursery, looking much like Santana, covering her ears.
Brittany took Rachel from Santana's lap and Rachel held onto her mommy tightly. "Shh, calm down sweetie." She cooed bouncing Rachel on her hip.
"Mommy." Rachel whimpered though her cries.
"Yes baby, mommy's got you. Let's just calm down." Brittany whispered softly into her ear. Rachel started to calm down and Santana smiled at how good Brittany was with Rachel, even at three in the morning.
"Why are you up sweetheart?" Brittany asked softly, with sleepiness in her voice.
"Bad dweam, want ami." Rachel said sadly.
"Oh dear, what happened in your bad dream?" Brittany asked concernedly, trying to ignore the second request.
Rachel tucked her face in between Brittany's shoulder and neck. "No." She whimpered.
"If you tell mommy it might help your bad dreams go away." Brittany smiled sadly at Santana who was trying not to cry. Lack if sleep and knowing that the reason Rachel was crying was because she wanted to nurse.
"Ami." Rachel tried again, a fresh set of tears rolling down her cheeks when Brittany shook her head no.
Rachel started to wiggle out of Brittany's hold, so the blonde put her down and she ran off into their room.
Santana looked at Brittany questionably and Brittany frowned and went into their room followed by Santana.
When they walked in they found Rachel face down sobbing into Santana's pillow and it broke their hearts. Santana wasn't sure how much more she could take before she just gave in.
Santana sat on the bed, next to Rachel and rubbed her back and down to her diapered bottom soothingly. "Rachie, please don't cry baby." She cooed sadly.
Rachel moved closer to Santana but didn't stop crying. She took in the scent of her Mami which relaxed her a little.
Brittany sat on the other side of Rachel and spoke softly. "How about Mami feeds you a baba, would that make you feel better?"
Rachel shook her head against the pillows and cried even harder. Both girls were worried that all this crying wasn't good for Rachel and could hurt her.
"Can you turn around sweetheart; you can't be very comfortable like that." Santana said stroking Rachel's hair.
Rachel turned on her side so she was facing Santana. Santana slid down on the bed so she was lying down with Rachel and placed a kiss to her tear stained cheek. "I love you baby girl." She said lovingly.
"L-Love m-mami." Rachel sniffled out her breath hitching as she spoke.
Santana held her close, handing Rachel her pacifier. After all the crying wearing her out, Rachel fell back to asleep.
Santana sighed when she saw that Rachel was fully asleep and looked up at Brittany. "I feel like the worst mother in the world right now."
"You're not the worst mother in the world. If you were your baby wouldn't still want to be cuddled up to you. She's just upset which we were expecting, maybe not this much but she will get over it and you're a brilliant Mami." Brittany reassured her with a smile.
"Maybe we shouldn't do this. It's been three days and she hasn't slept for more than an hour at a time and even I miss it like crazy." Santana admitted.
"It's your body and your boobs San. You do whatever you feel is best but you need to remember that it's your body not mine or Rachel's." Brittany said placing a kiss to Santana's forehead and lying down behind Rachel.
"I think it's time to stop, I miss it but I need my body back." Santana said sadly.
"And that is completely fine. That does not make you a bad person and it certainly does not make you a bad mother." Brittany said honestly.
"How do you always know what to say?" Santana joked.
"Because I know you and I know what you're thinking." Brittany said putting a protective arm around her girls and drifting off to sleep.
The next morning Santana woke up the sound of shuffling and she felt her top being lifted up. She sighed and opened her eyes to find Rachel holding her top up trying to latch on.
"Rachie what are you doing baby?" Santana asked quietly, trying not to startle Rachel but already knowing the answer.
"Ami." Rachel replied determinedly.
Santana moved Rachel's hand and pulled her top down. "What has Mami said about ami?" She asked making sure Rachel was aware that they were stopping completely.
Rachel's bottom lip quivered and she shook her head, her eyes filling tears. "P'ease ami." She whimpered though the tears that were now streaming down her cheeks.
Santana could tell Rachel was not going to give up any time soon. She cupped her cheeks and wiped the free flowing tears. "Oh baby, Mami hates seeing you so upset." She cooed holding Rachel tightly. She thought for a moment. "I'll be right back okay baby." She informed Rachel who just whimpered and moved closer to Brittany.
"Mommy." Rachel whimpered, tapping Brittany's arm and trying to stop the tears rolling down her cheeks.
Brittany didn't wake so Rachel tried again. "Mommy up." She said slightly louder.
Brittany started to stir and after a minute her eyes opened and she registered that Rachel was crying and she sat up and pulled her onto her lap. "My sweet baby girl, what's wrong?" She asked concernedly.
"No more, Mami gone." Rachel whimpered out crying harder and grabbing onto Brittany's sleep shirt.
Brittany was confused for a second then realised Santana wasn't in bed. She heard some noises down stairs, which meant Santana was down there.
"Oh Rachie, Mami hasn't gone she's just downstairs can you hear her making a lot of noise?" Brittany said lightly.
Rachel whimpered and held onto Brittany tightly. Brittany felt her diaper grow heavy. "Come on sweetie, let's change you."
She laid Rachel down on the bed and Rachel made grabbing motions towards her. Brittany kissed both of her hands and quickly got to work changing her. By the time she was done, she heard Santana coming up the stairs, she scooped Rachel onto her lap and Santana walked in with a bottle of milk.
"Mami." Rachel said desperately, reaching out for Santana. Santana frowned and sat down on the bed pulling Rachel onto her lap. "No leave." She whimpered with watery eyes.
"Sweetheart I'm not leaving, I'm not going anywhere, I promise." Santana tried to reassure her.
Rachel just tucked herself into Santana and made herself as small as possible. She didn't want to be this sad but she couldn't help it!
"Can we try a baba?" Santana asked kindly.
Rachel looked up at her with tear filled eyes but nodded and Santana got her comfortable on her lap. At least she was going to try.
Santana led the bottle to Rachel mouth and Rachel hesitantly put her mouth round the teat and sucked. After a few sucks Rachel started fussing and pulled away from the bottle spitting the milk down herself. Santana sighed and wiped Rachel's mouth with a baby cloth and sat her up putting the bottle down.
"What's up baby?" Santana asked wondering if it was just the milk Rachel didn't like.
"No 'ike." Rachel said sadly, and Santana started to run her fingers though Rachel's hair as it usually made her relax.
"Do you not like the milk? Mami can get a different one if you like." Santana reasoned.
Rachel shook her head, she didn't like the bottle! She picked up the bottle and threw it across the room.
"No Rachel. I know you're upset but you do not throw things, that's very dangerous and naughty." Brittany said sternly to Rachel, as she could see Santana just didn't have it in her to discipline her the moment, Rachel was too upset.
Rachel's eyes filled with frustrated tears and she looked at Brittany, her mommy never shouts at her. "NO!" She shouted.
"You do not talk to mommy like that. Either you apologise for throwing things or you sit in time out." Brittany said in a warning tone but Rachel was too far gone to listen to Brittany and she screamed with hot tears rolling down her cheeks.
Santana and Brittany knew Rachel would be upset about weaning but they didn't expect it to be this bad.
Brittany picked up Rachel off the bed and sat her in the corner and Rachel cried out for her Mami. Brittany let her face them so she could at least see Santana but she needed to calm down in time out.
"Rachie look at Mami." Santana said calmly from the bed and Rachel looked up with tear filled eyes. "Calm down baby, then you can come out and we can cuddle and then get dressed."
Rachel began to calm down with her breath hitching a few times until she was just sniffling.
Brittany walked back over to Rachel who fell into her arms. "Sowey mommy." She said quietly into Brittany's chest.
"That's okay baby, mommy forgives you." Brittany cooed picking Rachel up and placing her back down on the bed next to Santana.
Rachel immediately crawled onto Santana's lap and cuddled into her, Santana held her close and rocked her gently.
After a while of just cuddling Santana got Rachel changed and they all went down stairs for breakfast.
"What would you like to eat Rachie?" Brittany asked sweetly.
"No fwood." Rachel said crawling over to the sofa.
"You've got to eat something baby, how about a banana?" Brittany suggested and Rachel shook her head and struggled to climb onto the sofa.
Brittany scooped her up onto her hip and Rachel was going to protest but she loved cuddles with her mommy even if she was trying to make her eat. She rested her head on Brittany's shoulder and sighed. "Mommy I sad." She said quietly.
Brittany tightened her hold on Rachel and tried her best not to let her tears fall. "I know sweetheart, me and Mami hate seeing our beautiful baby girl sad and we're trying to make her happy again." She said softly, placing soft kisses to the side of Rachel's forehead.
"I sowey." Rachel whispered.
"What are you sorry for?" Brittany asked confusedly, rubbing Rachel's back soothingly.
"That I sad." Rachel pouted into Brittany's shoulder.
"Hey, you don't need to apologise for being sad, it's okay to be sad sometimes. Me and Mami will give you all the cuddles and kisses in the world to try and make happy again but will never be mad at you for being sad." Brittany said sincerely.
Santana had come out of the kitchen and heard Brittany. She was standing in the door way with tears streaming down her face; it was only when she let out a quiet sniffle that Brittany realised she was standing there.
"I think Mami needs a hug." Brittany whispered to Rachel as she put her down.
Rachel toddled over to Santana and hugged her tightly and Santana hugged her back.
"Why Mami cryin'?" Rachel asked pulling out of the hug and wiping Santana's tears just like her Mami did to her.
"Because Mami hates knowing that her little girl is sad because she loves her so much." Santana smiled sadly. She had no idea how big of an impact stopping Rachel nursing would have on her and she decided she needed to talk to big Rachel, which she should have done at the start.
"Can me and mommy talk to big Rachel please?" Santana asked kindly and Rachel nodded and her demeanor changed slightly.
Santana led them over to the couch and Rachel opted to sit side ways on Santana's lap, even as big Rachel she liked to cuddle.
"I should have spoken to big you earlier and explained this properly. I'm sorry I didn't do that but I will now." Santana said and Rachel nodded.
"Firstly, you've done nothing wrong and it's got nothing to do with me not enjoying breast feeding you, but recently the pain it's had on my body is hard and one year is quite a long time." She explained and Rachel slumped her shoulders and sighed.
"I'm sorry." Rachel sighed resting her head on Santana's shoulder. "Little Rachel and big Rachel are finding this hard. I completely understand why and it's your body but little Rachie isn't waking you up for the hell of it, I can't sleep." Rachel pouted.
"Yeah Rachie is defiantly giving us a hard time." Santana teased. "What would Rachie like to do to help her sleep?"
"Can-can you warm the bottle up?" Rachel asked quietly.
"I can defiantly do that my love, and we can cuddle and I'll rock you for as long as you want." Santana smiled.
Rachel smiled back at her and nuzzled Santana's shoulder. Brittany ran her fingers through Rachel's hair and she sighed contently, slipping back into her little mind set.
Rachel sat up on Santana's lap so she was straddling her and kissed her nose, giggling as Santana did the same. "Mami?" She said sweetly.
"Yes baby?" Santana smiled.
"I love you." Rachel said softly as she nuzzled Santana's cheek and Santana's heart melted.
"I love you too, very much sweetheart." Santana said kissing Rachel cheek.
Rachel beamed and climbed off Santana's lap and clumsily made her way over to Brittany's lap in the same position. "I love you mommy." She said in the same way as she told Santana. Her mommies always told her they loved her and she needed to tell them too!
"And I love you too my sweet girl." Brittany cooed softly, moving the hair from Rachel's face.
Rachel kissed Brittany's cheek and Brittany wrapped her arms around Rachel's back and tipped her backwards, causing Rachel to squeal and giggle wildly.
"Mommy!" Rachel squealed as Brittany did it for a second time. Brittany and Santana were both laughing as well and Brittany stood up with Rachel and span her around and Rachel had a bright smiled on her face that Brittany and Santana had missed seeing.
Brittany sat Rachel back on her hip. "That was fun mommy! Again!" She asked hopefully.
"Later baby, it's time for breakfast." Brittany said simply and Rachel pouted which Brittany maternally kissed away.
"I tie baba again p'ease?" Rachel asked politely and Brittany nodded.
"Mami will make it while I go pee!" Brittany cooed putting Rachel down and walking towards the toilet. She only ever locked the door when they had company round as Rachel found it hilarious to open the door while her mommy was on the toilet but it was fine normally and Brittany liked to be able to hear what was going on if she left it ajar.
Rachel toddled off towards her blocks that had the alphabet on them, looking over at Santana who was in the kitchen area. "Mami what I 'pell?" She asked with a tilt of her head.
"Hmm, what about duck? Mommy loves ducks." Santana suggested.
"Otay!" Rachel beamed looking for the letter 'D'. She stuck her tongue out in concentration as she tried to work out what letters she would need.
Santana stifled a laugh when she saw Rachel concentrating hard, she had 'DU' so far and the next letter she picked out was 'K'.
"Not quite baby, there's a letter before that." Santana informed her and Rachel huffed in frustration. "Hey it's okay, you're so close. Can you find another letter that makes a 'cuh' sound?"
Rachel thought for a moment, looking at the blocks and she finally picked up the 'C' block and put it before the 'K' to spell out 'DUCK'.
Santana clapped and peppered Rachel's face with kisses, lavishing her in praise and Rachel was beaming from ear to ear.
"Well done my clever little girl." Santana praised retrieving the warmed up milk from the microwave and testing it to make sure it was the right temperature.
She sat down on the sofa with the bottle and patted her lap. Rachel crawled over to her and climbed onto her lap, as Brittany came out the toilet.
"Mommy, duck!" Rachel said excitedly, pointing to the blocks, as she spotted Brittany.
Brittany looked over at where Rachel was pointing and faked a gasp. "Did you spell that all by yourself?"
Rachel smiled and nodded proudly. "Wow! You're so clever!" Brittany cooed leaning over to kiss Rachel's cheek.
Rachel gave a shy smile and tucked her face into Santana. Both girls smiled, Rachel loved being praised so they did it as much as possible.
Santana out the bottle to Rachel's mouth and Rachel slowly put her mouth around the rubber nipple and suckled carefully. It was better but she still wanted to nurse, instead she opted to turn into Santana and kept the bottle close to her Mami's chest.
Santana rubbed soothing circles on Rachel's back and Rachel only whimpered a few times throughout.
It wasn't until Rachel finished the bottle that she pushed it away started getting fussy. Santana shushed her but for some reason Rachel was getting worked up.
"Hey, hey, hey, what's all the fuss?" Santana cooed, caressing Rachel's cheek.
Brittany leant over to the coffee table and grabbed one of Rachel's pacifiers, popping it into her own mouth quickly to clean it and then wiping it along Rachel's lips. Rachel took it straight away and started to calm down. Usually they would tell her to use her words but she was tried.
Rachel looked up at Santana. "Mami sing?" She asked hopefully around her pacifier.
Santana thought for a second and then started to sing songbird. Brittany cuddled into Santana and kissed her cheek, that song meant so much to both of them.
Rachel slowly drifted off into a peaceful sleep, Santana and Brittany weren't surprised, being the lack of sleep she'd had.
Prompts very welcome but strictly non-sexual. To the people that have given me prompts already, they will be on here as soon as I can, I just already had this written!
Also if you're reading 'You're Safe Now' that will be updated as soon as I finish the chapter, if you haven't read it yet and you like age play check it out! :)