"John," he said staring deep into my eyes his bright blue eyes smoldering I could feel myself melting under his gaze. He placed his hands on the small of my back letting them rest there. I stepped closer feeling a burning desire between us he looked deep into my eyes and kissed me for the first time. I could feel myself give away to instinct as my eyes closed my fingers entwined themselves into his dark curly hair my hands trying to pull him ever closer, I stepped even closer our bodies fit together perfectly as though we were made specifically for each other like puzzle pieces. His hands moved down and I could feel him begin to lift the hem of my shirt I don't care all I wanted was him. I practically lost all control and kissed him more passionately he gently tugged at my lower lip with his teeth, slowing me down just enough to cause me to open my eyes and look into his questioning gaze. His eyes, so many shades of blue I see so much of him in those eyes. So much that I know is hidden from the rest of the world. I respond by throwing myself at him and kissing him more passionately than I have ever kissed anyone ever. He slowly unbuttoned my shirt not wanting to let me go but keeping me in suspense. I clumsily grasped a his belt not wanting to loose my contact with his lips to look down. I felt him take his arms off my neck and come to my aid. That is typical of him to give something up for others. He might wear an uncaring facade, but I knew it really hurt him to be the cause of others pain. I gave up on the damn belt and moved to his shirt hastily undoing the buttons, missing two. He pulled away and looked at me, I looked into his eyes and seeing his expression I stopped and leaned my head on his chest. Disappointed, but I understood.
"I can't John," He said sadness choking his voice, " I'm just not ready yet, I'm sorry."
"I know." I said barely above a whisper. "I love you, Sherlock Holmes," I thought to myself. I understood that I had to move at his pace if he wasn't ready today I would just have to wait. I loved him too much to force him into something like that.