Eddie sighed as she looked at the test in her hand. Positive. That was the result she didn't want to see. Not that she never wanted to be a mom; she just didn't want to be a mom now. She wasn't ready for a baby, and even if she was, she wasn't ready for the judgment she knew was coming, and of all the people to fall in love with and be knocked up by, why did it had to be the commissioner son?
Eddie didn't doubt that Jamie would be a good dad; in fact, she knew he would be a great dad. Would Jamie even want a part of the baby's life though? Why would he? Tears streamed down her face as she laid down on the couch and hugged a pillow as she wondered how Jamie would react, and the disappointment that she was sure would come for Renzulli, and Jamie's family.
The next thing she knew, she was woken up by her alarm for her tour. She had fallen asleep on the couch, and as she sat up sighed. She did not feel any better than she did the night before, and she most certainly didn't want to go to work. Eddie decided to just bang in sick. She didn't want to face Renzuilli, or hear the whispers that she purposely got pregnant so she could use the Reagan hook, or that she shouldn't have even gotten pregnant to begin with, and she couldn't face Jamie.
She knew she had to tell him, but she wasn't sure how. She didn't know if she should take him to a bar, barge into the men's locker room and just say it, or if she should just call him now. She sighed, as the tears started to fall again.
Screw Jamie Reagan. Screw his kind heart, his gorgeous eyes and smile, and the way he always knew what to say. She hated how he was her best friend, but at the same time on her biggest heart aches. Then she thought of all the all their tours together, and the meals, and the endless smiles, laughter and jokes. She thought about their partnership, and their newly begun romantic relationship.
She really was excited about being a mom, and she was already in love with this baby. She loved kids, and always had. She wanted to give this kid the life she never had. A normal life, with two kind and loving parents. It wasn't that she didn't want the baby, she was just so scared. She sighed, and started crying again. Dang pregnancy hormones. She thought to herself.
It was six o'clock when she heard the knock at the door, followed by a voice that she recognized all too well. "Ed? You in there?" Eddie groaned. "Go away, Reagan." She yelled to her former partner through the door. "I'm not goin' anywhere till you open up and take the food I brought. Sarge said you banged in sick and I wanted to make sure you're okay." Came Jamie's determined reply. Why is he so caring, over protective, and persistent? Eddie wondered, as she got up to unlock the door. Eddie opened the door, and took the food from Jamie's hand. "Thanks Reagan, I appreciate it. I'll be fine, I'll see you tomorrow, now please go." Eddie said going back into her apartment and shutting the door in Jamie's face. She knew she hadn't sounded terribly convincing, but it seemed to work because she heard him sigh and walk away. She felt bad because she had shut him out like that, but not even he could make her feel any better right now.
Sighing, Eddie grabbed some ice cream from her freezer and sat down on the couch with the soup Jamie had brought and dug in. She had been too upset to think about eating before, but the soup sounded good, and there was no doubt in her mind that she would devour the entire carton of ice cream. She finished her food before getting ready for bed, dreading her shift in the morning.
The shift seemed to go by quickly, and Eddie was thankful that her partner, Matt, didn't ask too many questions. She was alone in the women's locker room putting the last of her things away when she heard a knock at the door. She sighed. "You can come in." She told the person on the other side of the door. She had a feeling she knew who it was, and she seriously hoped she was wrong. Her suspicions were confirmed when Jamie came in. Jamie was the first one to speak.
"Ya know Eddie, that thing I did a second ago? That's called knocking. It's what you do when you enter a locker room." He teased her. Eddie just rolled her eyes. Jamie went over to Eddie and gently put his arm around shoulder. Things were quiet for minute before Jamie spoke up again.
"Hey, Ed, are you okay? Don't think I couldn't tell you'd been crying yesterday. You can tell me anything." He told her softly.
"I'm fine, Jamie." Eddie replied, her voice full of frustration, fear, and pain.
"You're not mad at me are you?" Jamie asked her confused. Eddie sighed as she closed her locker.
"Nope. Not mad." Eddie told him sharply.
"Then what is it? Let me help you." Jamie pleaded with her, with clear concern in his voice. Eddie sighed again.
"Fine. I'm pregnant, Reagan. Oh, and by the way, seems how I don't cheat it's yours. But don't worry, I don't expect anything from you." Eddie snapped at him, as she shoved by him headed to the door. Jamie gently grabbed her arm as she was about to leave.
"Are you punkin' me, Eddie?" Jamie asked, clearly in shock.
"No Jamie. Why would I do that?" Eddie asked, her voice full of emotion.
"I dunno. We're really gonna have a baby?" Jamie asked in disbelief.
"Yes. Now please let me go. I get it. You don't want to be part of the baby's life." Eddie told him with tears in her eyes. Jamie spun her around to face him and but his hands on her shoulders.
"Why wouldn't I want to be a part of the baby's life? Why would you even think that?" Jamie asked, kinda hurt that Eddie thought he wouldn't love this baby.
"I dunno… I just thought… you know, with your dad and everything…" Eddie told him through silent tears.
"Eddie, I love you and this baby so much. I regret that we weren't married first, and I even regret being intimate before marriage. I am so excited though, and I love this baby so much already. Do you have any idea how excited my family will be? They've all loved you ever since you became my partner. I am so happy right now. You're not alone in this. I'll be here for you the whole way." He told her lovingly with a 1,000 watt smile on his face as he pulled her into a hug.
"Really?" Eddie asked him, as she herself began to smile.
"Of course. Just one thing." Jamie told her firmly as the two began to leave, as he held the door for her.
"What's that?" Eddie asked him concerned.
"In some way, even if it's a girl or it's just the middle name, I'd love to name the baby after Joe." Jamie sadly told her as he put his arm around Eddie's shoulder while walked down the hall of the precinct. Eddie just looked into his eyes.
"I wouldn't have it any other way." She told him with a smile that wouldn't be going away anytime soon. Maybe she'd still have to tell Renzulli and deal with all the rumors and everything. But for now, all that mattered was that Jamie was with her in this.
Maybe things will be okay after all. Eddie thought to herself happily. Maybe things will even turn out good.
A/N- Just another idea I had. Hope you liked it! This was meant as a one shot, but let me know if I should continue. PLEASE leave a review.
Also, for those who are following Better than a dream, my laptop came. YAY!