Disclaimer: I do not own shaman king even though that would be cool, this is just a story that I have made up with the characters in it. Please Read and Review. HxR foreva!

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Horo's POV:

*Flashback*

'Promise me, one thing'

'..Alright'

'You won't ever leave me'

*End of flashback*

Letting out a long sigh, he stared out the window as though his life depended on the movement that he needed from outside. But still nothing came that day. No sign of him, no letter… nothing..

It had been almost 3 years since Horo had actually said these words to Ren, and they repeated over and over again 'You wont ever leave me' .. Why hadn't the Chinese boy not said another word after that.. every night was the same, hoping.. Wishing and praying that he would return back home. But every night he was let down.

Mornings were the same, constant thinking of where he was, when he would return. A few times Pirika had worried, so she tried getting Yoh and the others to talk to Horo. Take him out.. Or do anything but sit in his room, besides stepping out for food or the toilet.. But, what could he do..

But the Ainu some how knew.. He needed him. Wherever the Chinese boy was.. He needed the Ainu.

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*The dream*

His voice was everywhere, always on his mind. Even when he slept all the Ainu could dream about was the Chinese boy.

Horo tightly clenched his fists rolling onto his side, in deep sleep.

'Baka, give that back' a faint smile graced the Ainu's lips, it was 1 am in the morning and his voice, his smell, his way.. Everything reminded the Ainu of him…

Ren… The Ainu's eyes started to shake a little and his fists were clenched tightly. This dream, it wasn't helping.

'Neh, Renny you want this?' The Ainu pointed to the dangling bottle of milk that sat perfectly in between his fingers.

R-Ren.. Please, come back to me.. Please.. tears slowly flowed from the Ainu's closed eyes. Although he was asleep, his mind just wouldn't let the thought of Ren leave him. He longed for him.. Needed and wanted him now, how many more days, weeks and even months did he have to keep on waiting.. To see and hear that Ren was doing well.

'Kisaammmaaaa!!' Pulling out his Kwan Dao and slashing down at the Ainu just barely missing him. Horo's eyes widened and he looked up to Ren in fear, but on the inside he was smiling. These moments that him and Ren had shared together. Only hurt more. More tears fell from the Ainu's closed eyes, he pulled the covers over himself more, burrowing his head in his pillow for the rest of the night.

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The following morning was the same once more. Just something about carrying on seemed pointless now. It had been 4 months now, and still nothing was heard.

The Ainu pulled the blankets off him slowly, letting the crisp summers breeze strike through his body. Hesitating to lower his feet down onto the cold floor he took in a deep breath and gently lowered them pulling back a little once the coldness had struck. It wasn't as if he was scared of getting cold feet, being that ice and cold was his kind of thing. But getting up in the mornings and feeling that coldness first thing always had some bad effect on the Ainu.

Pulling on his trousers and then his shirt, he lazily slumped downstairs towards the kitchen. Gently he pulled the kitchen fridge open and let it slid from his grasps, pulling out the first thing that he could.

"Wh-what.." his eyes widened in disbelief to the object that he was now holding in his hands. The cold white substance once again sat perfectly in his hands, the white substance that used to be held and drank by the one person he had been waiting for.

"Ren" The Ainu couldn't keep his eyes off of the glass bottle that sat in the grasp of his hand, why was his milk sitting in the fridge, was this just another nightmare, or his mind remembering the Chinese boy.. Tormenting him for the hundredth time.

"Baka" Horo tightened his grip on the bottle of milk hearing that voice.. It was his voice but. The Ainu shook his head, feeling his eyes were starting to water he had to wake up. Before this dream hurt him even more.

"Well, Ainu-baka.. Are you just going to keep ignoring me?" Ignoring, Of course he wasn't going to keep on ignoring him, he wanted to hold him tightly and never let go. But he was gone. The Ainu turned towards the door where Ren was standing, the cold gaze from those golden eyes meant nothing to the Ainu now. Of course they were exactly the same as all his dreams… he had dealt with those eyes almost every night. So what difference was it now.

The Ainu smiled holding the glass bottle towards the Chinese boy. " If you want it… you'll have to reach for it!" and with that said, the Ainu lifted his arms as high as they could go, giving the Chinese boy a wide mischievous grin.

The Chinese boy gritted his teeth in frustration, the Ainu knew exactly where to hit him and how to make him really want to attack. But also something within and about the Ainu really did make the Chinese boys skin crawl, and in a good way at that. The Ainu smiled tilting his head to the side slightly, and the Chinese boy jumped forward like a feline attack it's prey, He closed his eyes tightly standing his ground waiting for the pain to surge through his body but nothing happened, Slowly opening his right eye, with his arms still high in the air, to his surprise Yoh was standing at the entrance to the kitchen where Ren had been just moments ago. He sighed lowering his arms, what had he just saw. Yoh looked at him confused and worried, he walked over to the counter and turned on the kettle. He turned to Horo thinking about what he could say.

"Horo… How are you feeling today?"

Horo let out a sigh and placed the milk bottle back into the fridge, he leaned against the counter and looked to the door and back over to Yoh, convinced that just moments ago he was there, standing there talking to him and they were finally having the time that he had been dreaming and thinking about for ages, The Ainu squinted his eyes before taking in a deep breath and turning to Yoh and smiling. The one thing that the Ainu wasn't good at was hiding his emotions like the Chinese boy could do so very well. What he wanted to tell them all was, why did the Chinese boy leave without answering his questions, he left him all alone and the world so cold. There was nothing he could have done to change his mind, because once Ren had made up his mind that was it. Nothing else could be done or said. Horo clenched his fists biting his bottom lip trying to hold back the tears he promised he wouldn't let free. He glanced back up to Yoh and smiled.

"I'm fine, just didn't sleep that well last night, you know never eat cheese before heading to bed" He laughed once more before turning to the stairs and heading to his room. Just being in that house the whole time caused so many memories he planned on forgetting. He had to face the facts, he was never coming back, he had moved on and he had forgetting them all.

He let out a loud groan before closing his bedroom door and flopping onto his bed with frustration of all his thoughts. What if Ren was dying somewhere all alone, What if he was being attacked, what if he was being held captive what if he just ran out of money, what if.. He had a girlfriend and they were getting married.

"Ugh!" He slammed his face down onto the pillow in frustration, trying to burry all his thoughts trying to get them to leave. I'm sure that Ren isn't doing any of that, surely he was just doing what he said he was off to do… wait, why exactly did Ren leave?! He sat up and allowing the pillow to flop down onto his lap. He had never asked Ren why he had left, come to think of it did Ren not leave just a few days after he had said those words? 'You won't ever leave me'..

"For god sakes, what the hell was I thinking!" He was afraid, that's why he left. He didn't want to hurt the Ainu's feelings, he was just worried about what would happen had he of said I promise or vice versa. He was afraid of the future and the outcome. The Ainu smiled widely to himself suddenly realising that he had been waiting for months for him to make the first moves. He left to see if he would follow.

He had to find Ren now, he had so many unsaid things. And this would take ages to get the Chinese boy to listen but he was persistent, the Ainu was going to confront the Chinese shaman and tell him everything. And it would hopefully all work out. Quickly he packed the essentials he would need for a trip from Japan to the outskirts of China where the one person he loved was residing in. He was going to travel there and win back what he had stupidly lost. There is no way that the Chinese boy would be getting away from him so easily. This was going to be a journey that would take a lot of talking. He sighed to himself, packing up his bag, he slung his bag over his shoulder and made his way downstairs, lucky for him everyone was sitting watching television. He stood behind them all and once again took in other deep breath.

"I'm leaving" Almost everyone had turned round to look at Horo shocked and confused, all apart from Hao, who was too engrossed with the film that was on and well he had no feelings towards who ever left, as long as he got more food and more bathroom time.

"Horo.. You can't be serious" He looked to Pirika and nodded, he hadn't looked this serious since the shaman fights.

"I'm going to get Ren, I can't deny what I'm feeling.. Everyday they get stronger, so I'm going to get him back"

She gulped and smiled faintly nodding.

"Alright, just don't get hurt and come back soon" Horo smiled and heaved the bag more over his shoulders.

"You want us to come with you?" Yoh asked with Anna glaring at his side.

Horo let out a nervous laugh and shook his head "No I'll be fine, besides I've been there before so I know the way and I think it's something only him and I can talk about."

And with that said and done he walked out the house preparing his speech and hoping that Ren would listen and come back, make the promise and everything would be perfect again. Hopefully but it was a big hope.

And so the Ainu set off down the street with his snowboard strapped onto his back and his rucksack over his left shoulder and Kori on his head. His journey to talk to Ren had just begun and the start of something new between them both.

This time once he got the young Chinese boy he was never going to let go.

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