So Soon
So this story takes place after Sam and Andy break up in 3x10, I don't know if anyone heard the song So Soon by Mariana's Trench, but it sounds like exactly like something that would be going through Sam's mind, if Andy was to start to see someone else.
I do not own Rookie Blue or Mariana's Trench!
Spoilers for Season 3, especially 3x09
The Penny was packed as usual after a Friday night shift; Sam, Ollie, Noelle and Best were sitting at the bar, talking, drinking and taking turns holding the new addition to 15's family, Noelle's daughter. It wasn't until they heard screaming and laughter that they looked over to the Rookie's table; sitting there was the usual gang, Andy, Chris, Dov, Traci, Gail and Nick however tonight there also a few new comers to the group that they didn't recognize.
"Anyone know who are those guys with the Rooks?" Oliver asked as he saw where Sammy's eye had wandered to.
"Umm… I think I remember Traci saying that they were friends that went to school with Andy." Noelle replied as she turned her attention to the group before looking back at Sam to gauge his reaction. One of the guys had Andy held close to him, he seemed to be entertain the group with some tales which had the Rookies smiling and laughing; something which they hadn't seen since Jerry had died.
Sam couldn't turn away as he watched Andy cuddle further into this guy's arms, thinking that it used to be him she would turn to for comfort.
You say, sometimes, it's like I hardly know you
And maybe there's somethings I never showed you
Sometimes you're certain, but just can't get it working at all
He truly believed in the reasoning behind his breakup with Andy, he knew that lately he seemed to be ignoring his own gut and going against the instincts of detectives and other senior officers. He blamed himself for Jerry's death; had he just listened to Jerry and gone to see the taxi driver instead of the bartender that Jerry would still be alive right now. Rationally he knew it wasn't his fault and that they had no reason or evidence to believe the taxi driver was involved in the case. Still the guilt of Jerry dying weight on him and all the 'what if's' in the world were running through his head.
But even though he though his reasons for the break up were valid, it didn't mean that he didn't miss Andy or that he stopped caring about her, stopped loving her.
You say to yourself somebody better
Will understand you more than I ever
I'll shake his hand, and smile, and say I understand. Well I do
That don't mean I don't think about you
As he watched Andy and this new guy he couldn't help but think that could have been him, even though they broke up he couldn't help but wish that she was just as lonely as he was at this moment.
I know we
Said it's just as well that I won't keep, keep you for myself
But, I don't want to see you happier with somebody else
Oh, why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
I know you need someone too
This just feels so soon
He didn't know if they he and Andy would ever get back together, he knew he said that he couldn't be a cop and be with her, but did he mean it? What if he were to go back to guns and gangs, if he didn't work with Andy then could he be with her? As these questions just flooded his head, he knew that he didn't have a good answer to any of them.
I know some things should just stay broken
I'm well aware this should remain unspoken
But I've been working on the things that I was learning all wrong, oh
I know sometimes I only twist ya
And maybe I'm too proud to say I missed ya
But what if here and now, I tell you that I'm all figured out?
Or maybe I just like how that sounds
Right now all he knew was as much as he wanted to be with Andy, he couldn't be but that didn't mean he wanted her to be with anybody else, is that selfish, yes, but it was how he felt. As he saw Andy lean closer into that guy and kiss his cheek he knew that he couldn't look at them anymore, he couldn't watch her be happy with a new guy when he was sitting there by himself.
I know we
Said it's just as well that I won't keep, keep you for myself
But I don't want to see you happier with somebody else
Oh, why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
I know you need someone too
This just feels so
And I know it seems beneath me
But sometimes it's not so easy
To wish you well and let you go
Maybe if he was able to think, if he could figure out what was going on in his head, then he could get a grasp on his feelings and he could decide once and for all if he could be with Andy, if he could make her happy and if they could work together and be together or if that wasn't possible. But until he figured out the answers to those questions he would keep his distance. He only wished that she felt as lonely as he did, that she was morning over there break up as well.
And I say it's just as well
That I just can't keep you for myself
I don't want to see you happier with somebody else
Oh, lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
This just feels so
This just feels so,
Feels so soon
(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)
Why can't you be
(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)
Why can't you be
(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)
This just feels so,
This just feels so,
He hoped that she hadn't already found someone to move along with, some one that made her happier than he did. Yes, that was wrong of him but it just feels too soon to move on, too soon to forget how he felt about her, this whole situation with Andy and this guy just feels too soon.
This just feels so soon
This was meant to be a one-shot so let me know what you think.