What life would be like, If Ren and Horo kept diaries. Just to find out that each other do actually complete one another. Oh times are gaining on them and I wonder if this will ever blossom out into love. Well you'll just have to wait and see what happens in the next chapter when Horo finally finds Ren. RxR please!!

DIARYS -

ROV

Dear Diary,

Today is the 20TH August 2009and now I begin.

So there I was lying on the bed next to the girl I thought I loved, thinking about him.. Always about him, he just seemed to have that something, that something that just, gave me that edge to keep going, and melted my heart like butter. He never knew how I truly felt, but.. Did I know my true feelings as well?

When I was with him I never wanted him to leave. However at times he could be, how can I see this in a nice way.. He could be really vexing. How could I tell this bone head, what I was truly feeling and thinking about him. How could I tell his sister that I didn't love her, but her brother.. So many thoughts that confused me to all hell. The worst thought of all was, what would Yoh and the others think of me, and what about my family they would disown me. I couldn't just sit here and do nothing I had to, no matter what, to keep my feelings to myself and just carry on "loving" Pirika..

Sighing I sat up from my bed and turned to see Pirika. I smiled as she carried on in her deep sleep so contently. I brushed my hand across her warm cheek, gently brushing a strand of hair from her face. I sighed, thinking about how I would be able to carry on with this lie. But how could I hurt her! I wasn't willing to hurt anymore people. Turning my head tiredly I looked at the clock.

"6.. God damn it, it's so early"

I slipped out of bed pulling on a pair of jeans a white shirt with an open shirt over it. I knew that, as soon as I got downstairs I would see that stupid smile on Yoh's face, drinking orange juice after his morning jog. However with much luck he had dozed off on the kitchen table. Thank god because honestly I don't think I'd be mentally stable right now with Horo and Pirika on the brain.

As I stepped into the kitchen and suddenly the cold floor shot up my feet like ice.. Ice, I smiled faintly thinking about Horo again, why did everything always have to remind me of him, and before I knew it.. He was on my mind again I stood there, as still as a statue at the kitchen door and without realising that this day.. This week even was going to be very, very strange.. And before I knew it Hao, Yoh and Horo were all looking at me trying to figure out what was wrong. But once someone had mentioned his name. "Well Horo…" . I suddenly snapped out of the trance and turned to them all. Hao was looking at me, his finger tapping his chin. I felt like a patient being analysed..

I blinked turning to all three of them, my eyes only focused upon Horo's. The only thing that I could do to keep myself cool was repeat this over and over again it was my only hope 'Alright.. Play it cool Tao..' but as soon as he flashed that smile my heart pounded and I could feel myself flushing. I had to do something to divert their attention, especially Horo's. Unfortunately, I think my luck was running out as Hao had that look in his eyes, I think he knows. He had that annoying grin that spread right across his face. He wasn't the stupid one out of the three and that was a given.

"Ren.. Buddy, What's up?" Hao.. The nerve of the guy, he's like a lion and I'm the zebra, waiting for a weak moment too take me down. But not today after all the years I've stayed strong against all his attempts to break me down, I can take his hits and stress and worry about it later. So for the moment it was a do or die situation. One stutter and he'll have me for his breakfast. Alright, think.. Think Tao think.

And with that, I turned to Hao ready for anything.. I hoped "Well now, this is a surprise. I mean you're not one for conversations. Unless, it's some gossip.." and in that split second I saw something rather odd. For a split second Hao's grinning chimp look, had flashed to what looked like a seriously concerned person. But maybe I was just imagining things.. So, shaking that out of my head I gave them all my winning look, the cold death glare, and right on queue they all took a step back.

"So, if I were you I'd stay well away, because I have nothing to hide and you have nothing to gain from it." and with all that said and done, taking a quick glance at Horo I headed back upstairs. Missing breakfast again.

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HOV

Sup, I start today by saying happy 19th, woops mean the 20th. Anyway down to what happened this morning..

Right so I woke up, as usual yeah and looked down at Tammy as she lay there so perfectly and sound asleep, gently kissing her trying not to wake her cause damn she's such a light sleeper. Honestly it's really annoying most of the time, but that wasn't the weirdest part of the day. So I pulled on my shorts and a blue and black shirt. Sorted out my hair and pinned it back with my headband, as usual yeah. But something seemed slightly odd today I'm not sure what it might have been, maybe I had an upset stomach or a nasty crap that hadn't come out yet since I did eat tonnes last night. Hey but anyway.. I knew something was going to happen today that might change the way I live.. Or the way I see someone but, I slowly turned the knob and flung the bedroom door open and starring back at me was another open door and a hallway with non-other then posh, posh Mr I'm too cool for school.. (Ok, wow I haven't said that since I was a little tot, ha, Anyway back to business) well there he was apart from this time looking at him from behind he seemed.. Kinda.. Lost, He definitely had something on his mind that looked like it was troubling him.. And he did kinda look kinda.. I guess a little bit cute.. Oh man I really must be tired if I think Ren looks good looking. And with that I shrugged everything off and followed after him but only to be stopped by Hao.. With a door in my face. Man he sure has ways of making you know he's there. And with that.. Through the whole house was a loud *BANG* and I toppled down to the floor and onto my ass, rubbing my nose in pain and glaring at the Asakura for his "Funny" joke he eventually helped back up to my feet, and I could still see Ren slowly heading down the stairs and after a good couple of minutes of tear drenching laughter.

"Alright, now after all that you better have a good reason for stopping me"

"Well you see.. I'm bored and since today is like a Thursday, then that means that it's almost Friday and Saturday.."

"Yeah.. And?"

"Well you see, this means it's almost time for another party and you know what happens at parties.. Girls, booze, games and well girls!" Shaking my head at the idiot, I diverted my attention to the stairs and Ren wasn't there anymore, well duh! Obviously.. He's probably outside by now and I really wanted to ask him how he was. I looked back up to Hao who was looking at me so happily.. I just patted him on the shoulder and laughed.

"Well lets just see what Anna and Yoh have to say about that, come on buddy lets get some grub in our stomachs before deciding anything" I put my right arm around the back of Hao's neck and we headed downstairs chatting away about random things.. Women, weather the good times of the shaman tournament. Boy, Hao does talk about random things. Although our conversation came to a stand still when we say Ren just standing there at the kitchen door, Yoh had tempted to bring him back around by waving his hands in front of the Chinese boys face, and clicking his fingers, whistling and even banging pots together but nothing had pulled him out of his daydream.. And here I thought that Ren never went into daydreams he was always on the ball, constantly awake at all times, what was on his mind that made him like this.. It must be something really important like maybe an international war, or perhaps.. Something to do with his dad and the Tao family. Well whatever it was I was going to stand by him and try and help out, even if he disagreed as he always did. But his daydream was soon cut off by non-other then Hao's loud voice.. It had to be him that took Ren out that reverie.

"Hey, pointy head seems to be brain damaged" with a loud laugh after. Yoh looked to Ren then tilted his head to the side, trying to figure out what was wrong.

"Well.. What do you thinks wrong with him?" I looked at him up and down.. Maybe he was just cold. Maybe the cold floor caught him by surprise or something.

and right then Ren turned to all three of us.. Hao opened his mouth and tapped his finger on his chin "Well Horo…" I don't know what it was but just then Ren seemed to turn to all three of us. Although he wasn't looking at Hao and Yoh his eyes were fixed onto mine. Now, from the time he stared at me to the time he headed upstairs after the glare there must have been some words passed between Ren and Hao. But for some reasons, unknown to me, I just couldn't hear it.. It was as if everything just stopped because when Ren turned and fixated his eyes upon mine, I couldn't help but smile and I realised something.. The way he was looking at me he looked so calm, happy and just not the Ren I know. He seemed like he needed me for something, like I was the only person who could stop his pain. What really confused me though was as soon as I did smile his face seemed a little more pink.. I think he was blushing.. But what made him blush, maybe something Hao said because a few seconds later he was giving us all that annoyingly cold and eerie death glare, I swear if looks could kill I would have died a million times cause he always gives me those dagger eyes. But even still taking a step back and watching Ren leave I couldn't but see those eyes those amazing golden, cat like orbs that just seemed to hit me square in the face.. Ren didn't seem dangerous, he just looked lost. He just needs, someone to help him along and who to do that but me. Smiling and looking back at Hao and Yoh I knew that as a best friend of Ren's I had to help the little fella along.

"Ren seems even more agitated then usual.." Yoh headed back into the kitchen sitting down at the table again and sighing to himself, so I wasn't the only one who noticed something else was different in the Tao.

"Oh come on, it's just Ren. I'm sure it's nothing. Maybe Pirika just isn't given out"

"Just shut up Hao.. that's my little sister you're talking about" and with that I nudged passed him and headed into the kitchen to make Ren some grub. Since he usually misses out on meals I think he's getting skinner.. Maybe that's his problem he isn't eaten so he's getting grumpy.

So I began to make a full English breakfast since Lyserg had taught me how to I was prepared for anything that came my way.. Except after what Hao had said I once again turned off my brain I couldn't be arsed to listen to his crap about Pirika and Ren getting it on. It always pissed me off when someone even mentioned Pirika and sex in the same conversation. But once they added Ren into the equation my blood just boiled up and I couldn't control my anger. I mean I like Ren and all since one day he might be my brother-in-law. But I don't know what it was I mean I don't hate him.. But when he's mentioned with Pirika it just I get upset or mad. Or angry I don't know maybe it's just instincts to protect Pirika and hope she has the best thing. Since Ren is really great and when Pirika says about some of the things he does.. He seems really romantic at times and nice. He just hides his true self from others, and I swear to god I'll break that wall of his and make him a bit more outgoing.

So as I prepared the breakfast I ran to the foot of the stairs and shouted Ren down. But nothing was heard.. Although about 5 minutes ago I did hear the house door open and close loudly.. I just thought it was Anna or someone. But a few moments after shouting Ren down Pirika made her way downstairs, her eyes were slightly red and puffy. She's been crying..

Did her and Ren have a fight.. Was it something Hao said.. Or is it something to do with why Ren's acting all strange and given out those kind looks.. He's.. oh no.. he might be dying..

"Horo…" Pirika gripped onto my shirt, she buried her head into my shoulder and started to sob. I gently patted her on the head and she looked up to me with those sad eyes. I just held onto her head and patted her on the back.

"Don't worry Pirika, you don't have to explain.. I'll just go and find Ren.. Ok" So this day was going to be harder then I thought, Pirika looked up to me with hope in her eyes and started to smile a bit more. Obviously a big brothers got to do what a big brothers meant to, help out his younger sister when in trouble. So I ended up heading out the house and looking about for that stupid Tao.. Honestly he could be anywhere by now.

Right now I hoped you enjoyed that, I know there may be some mistakes at places cause I'm really not that good and getting what I'm thinking out. I'm better at imaging rather then writing although I love to write just words can't come out. But I hoped you like that and the next chapter will be up sometime. I can't promise it fast because I don't have the internet so it'll take time. Well please Read and Review. don't worry about being too harsh on me I really want to improve so just give me the verdict and I'll try and advance on my other stories and chapters! Thank you all!! Love, Love!! xx