I got bored, so I wrote this. It's a little depressing :/ Idk why I wrote it honestly.

I found a photo album today… It was about us… I don't think you remember; you told me you wanted to forget me, to forget us, to forget where you came from. There were so many pictures of us laughing, and of you smiling. I miss those days.

We've all said and done things, but I want to say this: I miss you. My world isn't the same without you. If I said I was sorry, if I promised to get help, if I promised…anything, would you love me again? I'm sure I could live without you, like I lived without her, but I don't want to try.

You changed me. You picked up my broken pieces and stitched me back together. You made me better, but I still have to fix a lot of things before I can get close to being worthy of you. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to have you back in my arms again. I miss you more than anything, but I don't think you care.

The pictures are of us when we were in high school. Remember when you said you wanted to be a nurse? Remember when you helped me write my story? I do. I remember how I only wanted you in my life and how I wanted to spend the rest of my days with you. I still do. You're everything to me.

But Hollywood changed you.

You went on to bigger, brighter things and left me in the dust. Every time I see you in a movie, or on TV, I think to myself: damn. That one word covers everything I feel. I see how beautiful you've become, I've learned to value it more. I see how happy you are without me, even if you're only acting. I see what an idiot I was for driving you away. I feel like it's my fault you don't even come back to visit your parents anymore.

But none of that matters.

I'll never send this letter to you, mainly because I don't have your address. You'll never read the feelings that I keep in my head. You'll never come back to me; you'll never be mine again. I can only hope you feel my thoughts, my love, my misery. Maybe…just maybe…if I hope enough, you'll come back to me. I can only hope…

I'll always love you,
Eli