A/N : Just thought I'd give you the heads up! This story is set after Fang :) Enjoy!

Chapter 1

So just like that, he was gone. How stupid could I be? Of course he left. It was only a matter of time before Dylan got to him and all the responsibility of helping look after the flock, to look after me finally pushed him over the edge. I suddenly felt like a rejected idiot.

A rejected idiot standing in front of my flock. The bridesmaid's dress I was wearing felt tighter and tighter around my chest.

"Max?" A sweet, calm voice asked from beside me.

"I need to get out of this dress." I dropped Fangs note on the floor and my body led me down the corridor to my room.

"But Max, what about the letter? What about Fan-" Nudge questioned but I shut the door in her face and burst into a painful cry that broke my heart, and my life.

After an hour of crying, which I believed was worthy of an Oscar, I climbed up from my spot in the corner and lifted the lid of the laptop up. Fang kept the newest laptop with him and the government's computer which "magically" appeared in our possession (because of course we didn't steal it) was in the lounge and I couldn't face the flock after my little outburst of tears, so I was left with the scratched, slightly out of date laptop.

I immediately opened up Fang's blog and searched for the comment box at the bottom of his posts. All the sadness inside me had suddenly built up into an uncontrollable anger that I needed to get off my chest. I found the comment box and took a deep breath, preparing myself for what I was about to write.

Fang,

All I can say is thanks. Thanks for acting all 'happily ever after' with me and the flock at Total and Akila's wedding and then leaving us with no warning afterwards except for a crummy note as a goodbye, and thanks for breaking up the flock. Now who are Iggy and Gazzy going to look up to? Dylan? Well I'll tell you one thing; I know for sure Dylan's going to take your place as my right hand man because he's the only one left who can do it.

What were you thinking? How could you be so thoughtless and idiotic? Did you think if you left the flock would be safe and happy? Well the complete opposite is going to happen.

So thank you, Fang, for hurting the flock and breaking my heart. I hope you're happy because we're not going to let you walk back into our lives when things get tough for you. You're on your own.

Max.

I regretted it as soon as I hit 'send'. Of course we'd let him back in, we loved him. I loved him. Why did he have to hurt us all now, when everything was getting better?

"Max? Can I come in?" Gazzy asked from the other side of the door. I closed down Fang's blog and went to open the door.

"Hey." Gazzy said awkwardly, stepping from one foot to the other. He had a plate full of chocolate chip cookies and two glasses of milk balanced in one hand. I quickly grabbed the glasses before we had a milk massacre on the floor and stepped out the way to let him inside, closing the door behind him. I put the milk down on the desk and followed his footsteps across the room. When I reached him he turned around and wrapped his arms around my waist and burst into tears. And I thought when I cried it was bad.

"Hey, it's ok. The rest of us are still together." I reassured him, stroking his long, blond, messy hair.

"Is Fang ever going to come back?" He sniffed, pulling his head away from where he'd been resting it.

"Of course he is." I lied. "He just needs to sort a few things out." I saw hope in Gazzy's eyes and I hated it. Why give him hope for something that is never going to happen? He was 10 years old; he didn't deserve to go through this. Not again.

After Jeb left I was the one who had to glue everything back together all the broken pieces of everyone's hearts. Me. No-one else. And now, I was seeing all the hearts break again, like the glue wasn't strong enough to keep them together.

"Are you going to leave too?" He asked, gripping me tighter like he thought I was going to disappear at the very moment.

"Of course not! I would never leave you!" I felt tears build in the back of my eyes again but I blinked them away.

"I just don't see why Fang had to leave!" Gazzy cried. I pulled him tighter to me and closed my eyes.

He definitely didn't deserve this.

We sat and talked for hours, just me and my Gazzy.

"Remember when I made one of Fang's favourite shirts explode with fireworks and everything!" Gazzy laughed taking the last cookie on the plate and shoveling it into his mouth like a rubbish disposer.

"Haha. Yeah. And Fang wouldn't speak to anyone until we got him a new one, exactly the same. I had to fly all the way to Paris and back to get that top and all you did was blow it up again!" I frowned jokingly and Gazzy burst out laughing again but was interrupted by his own yawn.

"Right, time for bed." I clapped my hands together and jumped up off the bed.

"Ok mother." Gazzy laughed, walking out of the room and closing the door behind him.

"Right then." I sighed and walked over to the computer. Talking about Fang with Gaz made me realise I was a little harsh and Fang must have had a good reason to leave. If he didn't? Expect butt kicking later on in this story.

I opened up his blog again and scrolled down the list of comments until I found mine. But before I deleted it I noticed that someone had already replied to it.

Max,

I was hoping you had posted on here to say goodbye to me. Obviously my hopes are a little too high. The thing is Max, the flock doesn't need me. I was just some depressed kid who was only happy when I was alone with you. You were my everything Max. But being my everything put you in danger more than anyone in the flock. And knowing you were in danger made me flinch every time Iggy picked up a knife in the kitchen or Gazzy made something explode.

So being away from you Max, is what keeps you safe, for now anyway. Who knows what will happen in the future, but I know my future will be with you, always.

Fang.

I couldn't reply because my heart had truly crashed and burned, forever.