A/N: This hasn't been beta'd so any mistakes are mine, sorry internet. & obligatory mention that I do not own Once Upon a Time or any of the characters, even though I wish I did
I have always struggled with my sexuality. Struggled with the fact that I thought about girls the way I should think about guys. A part of me assumed that in someway everyone already knew my secret, even Leopold would refer to me as being one of those girls. I knew another man could never make me feel the way Daniel made me feel, I did try to be like normal girls, there was Graham and others of course, but none of them seemed to be what I needed. A part of me always seemed to be drawn to women, their soft skin, the way they smelled, how cute they looked when they smiled, and of course there is their err other extremities. I hadn't even been with a woman before, but I knew it was what I wanted. A few months ago this cute infuriating blonde walked into my life, I'm supposed to hate her, but now I've grown to be quite fond of her. Not that I would ever let her know that of course, we do share a son together so trust me it's complicated.
How do I even describe Emma Swan she is my most annoying, stubborn, cute, pain in the ass I've ever met. I really should hate her but now more than ever I find myself being drawn to her maybe it was her..well it's her everything actually that draws me to her. Recently she had spent some time in Forbidden Forest because she was saving me from a Wraith. She saved me. Come to think of it she's saved me multiple times actually, from a fire, from an angry mob, and she even fought a dragon for me, well to save our son but still. Maybe that's why I'm so drawn to her or maybe it's her undeniable beauty and adorable personality. Everything about Emma should have me running in the opposite direction but I can't I want to be with her, in more ways than one. Yes, I Regina Mills have feelings, romantic feelings for Emma Swan. But now I'm faced with a predicament.
This woman that I have such strong feelings for is currently standing on my doorstep telling me "Rumple wants me to go with him to find his son..I'm leaving today". No I can't let her go, not now not when I just got her back not when she finally believes that I'm capable of good, not when we have chance. I find myself pleading with her not to go "please Emma don't leave Henry will miss you..please" it all comes out a lot more vulnerable than I expected it. "please don't leave me Emma please, you can't leave" I say barely in a whisper.
"Regina I have to go you know that Rumple will make all of our lives hell if I don't, I owe him". That's when the tears start to fall they just keep pouring and I can't stop I'm not sure why I'm crying am I crying because I don't want her to go am I crying because I'm sick of everyone in this town looking at me and judging me like the terrible person I am. Maybe it's a combination of everything that's not going right in my life. The next thing I know Emma has me in a warm embrace just holding me not speaking, letting me crying into her lightly playing with my hair trying to comfort me. "You don't have to talk Regina but just know I'm here if you want to I promise I won't leave you". Her kind words make me cry even harder, she just doesn't seem to understand. "But..but you are leaving me Emma...you're going with Rumple..please I can't lose you again" I mumble into her chest afraid of the effect of my words, I don't let anyone see my vulnerability especially not Emma. "You won't lose me Regina I promise I'll be here for you don't worry and I'll be back soon"
Her words were making me fall for her even more she doesn't even realize the effect a few simple words can have. I can't take this any more. "Emma?" "Yes Regina" Even the way she said my name was beautiful "Emma...I like you...and not in like the normal you're a nice person way, but in the like like you way". I slowly looked up at Emma a little scared to see her reaction but all I saw was a dazzling smile followed by her cupping my cheeks and pulling me forward kissing me softly. She was a good kisser, she has such soft lips and she kissed so gently, I never wanted that moment to end. I was the one who deepened the kiss, me. I licked her lower lip softly she opened her mouth to me giving me more access, our tongues doing a magical little dance. When we parted I immediately missed the contact but the beautiful smile planted on the blondes face was worth it. "You can't leave me now". It's going to be even harder to watch her go with Rumple now, but I know she's right if she doesn't go with him everything will be a whole lot worse for us all. "Trust me Regina, I'll be back soon...and if it makes up for it I like like you too". I couldn't contain my grin. "You have a beautiful smile Regina, just like the rest of you". She got up giving me a quick kiss goodbye, for how long exactly neither of knew making it a bit more bitter sweet. "I'll miss you dear" I whisper. "I'll miss you too Regina...even more now".
And she was gone. Leaving me alone with my thoughts. I knew a few things for sure I definitely had very strong feelings for Emma Swan, I was going to miss than woman, and she is one hell of a good kisser.
A/N: i wrote this so it could be a one shot or could be continued. I'm still undecided if I'm going to continue this or not..I'm leaning more towards continuing but please let me know your thoughts opinions. As you can guess, your reviews are appreciated.