Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
I was losing everything.
Everything I loved was slowly slipping away into a blackness.
I couldn't find a safe place anymore.
My mind wasn't even safe, at least not to me.
What had I done wrong?
Was this really the price I had to pay?
Losing everything to be with him?
I could do that, even if it hurt.
Or would I not even be able to be with my love?
What kind of sick punishment was this?
I didn't understand any of this.
None of it made any sense.
Everything was just a big mess.
I didn't even want to be a vampire anymore.
Not without him.
It seemed like he was slipping away and neither one of us were fighting against it.