Red snow... Red snow as far as the eye could see. I tried to look for you. I wanted to see your smiling face again. I wanted to see your eyes, so full of life... So understanding. What had just happened here? All I can think of is you. Why aren't you here, watching the red snow with me? Why won't you touch me?
I looked at my hands. They were stained with blood, just like the time from so long ago. I felt the sharpness of the cold as I fell to my knees. My head began to spin. What happened?
There was a dark figure next to me when I looked down. My cloak was covering the face. But some how... Some how I already knew. My hand was shaking as I reached out. Was I really that cold? The cloth was damp. I closed my eyes and pulled it away, throwing it far over my shoulder.
It was hard for me to breathe as I forced my eyes open again. Long strands of red hair littered the ground around us. I felt my heart clench in my chest as I stared at your hollow expression. Your eyes were still open... Tears were still frozen to your cheeks.
Your name escaped my throat in small whimpers as I collected your head into my lap. What exactly was this weakness? Why did I care so much for you! Why was I getting so upset! I could feel the vibrations in my throat. I knew I was screaming your name and cursing, but I couldn't hear anything. Pictures flashed before my eyes. You were always smiling. Even when you weren't, I could see it in those eyes of yours. Sound came back to me, in small whispers. There was a small voice, whimpering with pain. I wonder... Was it really my own voice I heard?
"This isn't right. It's not right for you die here. Think of your human mother. Think of your fiends back in the Ningenkai. How am I suppose to explain to them that you're dead, huh? How am I suppose to tell them it's my fault?No. I wasn't the weak one. You allowed yourself to be caught. You were the one being so subbornly selfish! This isn't my fault! I told you to kill me! Why didn't you do it, Kurama! Damn it! Why didn't you listen to me! You're such an idiot!"
I felt myself sobbing like a child. Never before had I shed even a single tear, and now... And now black gems sunk into the red snow, one after another after another. I could feel the chill in your skin as I pressed my forehead against yours.
I would stay here with you for as long as it takes until you come back to me. Surely Koenma wouldn't allow you're soul to leave quite yet. I have been saved from death once before! And Yusuke, twice! I won't let you escape so easily. I won't move until I feel your warmth again. Because I...
"I love you, Kurama."